Also warning cursing and everything on the title!

////Virgil's P.O.V.///

It was a normal morning I was just laying on my bed listening to music when I heard a knock on my door. " Whaaaaaaaat!" I say playfully but annoyed. " It's me Patton I wanted to make sure you were okay kiddo." Oh great the always happy Patton is here. Not that I didn't like Patton it was just that sometimes he could be too happy. And he acts like there is nothing wrong and sometimes I can handle it. " Patton I'm fine now what do you want?" I can hear him shuffling around outside my door. " I um can we talk please?" Patton sounded nervous but also like he had been flustered. " Yeah sure give me a minute." I walk over to my desk and put my phone down then walk over to the door. I open the door to see a blushing Patton. " Um Patton you okay?" I asked a little nervous. " U-um I think I have a crush on Logan" he says then puts his head in his hands. Oh no I am not the person to talk to about this. " Patton I'm not the best person to talk to about this" he nods and than pulls me over to the living room. Did he not hear that I'm not the person to talk to about this but I guess I have no choice. But then I spot the other two sides walking in. " What is going on here?" I ask as Logan is dragging Roman in by the arm. Now I am really confused. Patton and Logan turn to each other and give each other a nod. In unison they both say " we're dating." Patton is basically jumping up and down and Logan has a big smile on his face. " Congratulations guys." I say nicely but not bubbly. Roman on the other hand jumps up and hugs them saying " I KNEW IT!" I decide to leave because this is not my scene.

I enter my room and I still hear the others sqealing. They sqeal so much that half the time they don't even notice that I'm gone. Like today but I don't care I already know that they don't hate me. Shit who wouldn't hate me. I can't do anything right and all I do is hurt Thomas. Why would they care about me? As I'm on my bed crying a little I hear a knock on my door. I quickly wipe my tears and answer saying " yeah?" I made sure any hint of that I was crying wasn't there. Roman was the person at the other side of the door. " You okay Virge?" He asked calmly but I could tell their was something off about the calmness. His voice was kind of shaky and didn't seem like he was calm. " "Yeah I'm fine why?" I say trying to sound calm too. " Well you left so soon so I thought something was wrong" it kind of sounded like he was crying so I opened the door to see that had on tear down his cheek.

" ROMAN!!" I ran over to him not even thinking. No one knows about my hiden feelings for Roman. I grab him into a hug to make sure he is okay. I can tell that he is surprised but he hugs back. I jump back realizing what I just did. " I-im sorry Roman!" I blurt out as I feel my face grow hot with blush. He smiles and says " it's okay Virge I actually needed that thank you." I calm down a little bit knowing that I didn't screw up. " O-okay" I barely manage to say. " Hey can you watch this movie with us please?" He has that look in his eyes like he really wants me to so I give in. " Fine I'll watch a movie with you."

( Time skip : after the movie )

Logan and Patton are asleep on the couch and Roman is putting away the movie while I sit back. I stand up and start to head to my room but get cought off by Roman grabbing my arm. " Virge, goodnight " he says and smiles. " G-goodnight Roman " I say and I go back to my room.

You know that he hates you they all do.
They would be better without you. They would be happier without a worthless, useless, peice of trash like you. You should just die.

I hear this voice all the time but I never tell anyone. But that last comment stuck with me.

You should kill yourself or at very least harm yourself.

That was it the voice telling me what to do. But this time I listen to it. I walk over to my dresser and pull out a blade from a razor. I just look at it for a few seconds and then I put it to my skin. I take a deep breath and slowly glide it across my arm. This is not the first time I have done this. I do it again but faster. It makes a deeper cut. I put it away and clean up my arms. I don't want anyone to see it.

////Roman's P.O.V.

it's after the movie and Virgil goes to leave but I really want to tell him goodnight. I rush over to him and grab his arm. He turns around and has a confused look on his face. " Virge goodnight" I say as I look at his face. All I want to do is kiss him but I can't do that. But then he answers me saying " goodnight Roman" and walks away. I can feel my heart start to pick up it's pace. And my face turns red from blush. I love him so much but I can't tell him. I want to steal a kiss from him every day but I can't. So I decide to go to my room. I lay in my bed for a while then fall asleep.

///Virgil's P.O.V.////

It's around midnight and I'm still up as usual. But I'm really bored today so I grab my phone and listen to some music. I would sing along but I don't want to wake anyone up. But I don't think anyone can hear me from their rooms. But just to make sure I walk out to the living room. Patton and Logan are still on the couch asleep. Yup definitely not singing now. I'm not letting anyone find out that I sing sometimes. I think I sick at it but eh.

I go back to my room and sit on my bed. Now I'm really bored I have no idea what to do. So I decide to watch some conspiracy theory videos on YouTube. About an hour later I get bored again and just start searching through YouTube.

Worthless, useless, nobody needs you, they all say that they don't like you. Especially Roman he hates you more than anyone.

I sit up in a stir. My god that voice is right. They all hate me and Princy could never like me. I grab the blade again and make more cuts. This time some blood gets no my dresser. I clean up the mess and my arms and put away the blade. I lay down again I should probably get some sleep it's 3:20 am. I lay there for a couple minutes and I can't fall asleep. So I put my earbuds in and listen to music. It's about 4:10 am when I put my phone down. I put it on the charger and then go to sleep.