~Jai

Todays the day. I really don't want to go. Sure the fans are super excited to see us, but I'm not. I walk slowly down the stairs, bags in hand. It didn't take long to pack last night since I had help, though that only made leaving worse. I felt so bad for leaving that I stayed up with her for as long as she wanted. We watched the stars, laughed and most importantly, we were together. Now, I'm leaving her and I don't want her to get hurt.

"Damn Nikki you didn't need to make all this!" I heard James yell from the kitchen.

I dropped my bags and ran, only to be welcomed by what seemed to be a breakfast buffet. I must have been staring because Luke jabbed my side and I finally snapped back.

Nikki gave me a confused look, "Okay then... Well enjoy your breakfast. I'll go put your bags in the car."

We each grabbed a plate, except Luke. Instead he ran in the direction of the stairs, opposite of Nikki. 'Weird' I thought to myself.

~Luke

I didn't want anyone to be suspicious of where I was going, though I knew they would be curious. So I ran in the direction of the stairs and headed to the cars that way. Of course it wasn't the fastest way but it still got me there. I could see Nikki walking to get the first bag so I sprinted to the car and jumped in the back. I sat sideways and waited until she came back. She turned and faced the car and probably jumped 3 feet up.

"Shit Luke you scared me." She breathed heavily and grasped her chest.

I chuckled, "I came to help. I can't believe the others would let you do this on your own."

She laughed, "Yeah well they weren't up and didn't eat the food while I was making it."

I put my hands up in surrender, "Well I'm sorry I had to pack this morning and heard you come down the hall."

She mimicked me after I finished and I gave a hurt look. She laughed and threw the first bag at me. Now I know what you're thinking, there is no way packing a car could be fun. Well let me tell you something, it is when we are packing it.

"Done." I turned to Nick and she bolted inside.

I rolled my eyes and chased after her... not the best idea. I followed her until I saw her run into Jai's room. 'Did she not have fun with me?' I questioned myself.

I went a bit closer and heard them talking.

Jai's voice came first, "I'll text and call you everyday."

"It'll be so lonely looking at the stars without you." She replied.

I heard the bed ruffle and I knew they were hugging.

"Every time you look at our star just imagine me by your side. I promise when I come back we can watch the stars all night."

The sound of muffled sobbing made me upset. She really doesn't want him to go, and he doesn't want to leave.

"Jai I'm really going to miss having you by my side for these next few weeks." She sniffled.

"Shhhhh I know, it won't be that long. I'll tell you what, I'll let you spray my cologne so when you miss me you can spray it on your clothes or pillow." I never knew my brother could be so kind.

"Really Jai?"

"Haha of course."

"Thank you so much."

"No worries. Now let's go see if everyone is finished eating."

'Shit shit shit' I yelled in my head before bolting for the stairs.

The boys greeted me and i simply just took a seat and pulled out my phone. Soon enough Jai and Nikki came down.

"Everyone ready?" Beau asked seeing the two.

We all nodded and said our goodbyes to Nikki. She was in tears but we all comforted her before walking out the door. I peeked inside and saw her and Jai kissing. After about two minutes I yelled inside, "Jai get your ass out here!"

"Yeah alright." He replied.

I rolled my eyes and took a seat in the car. Okay so maybe I was jealous of my twin brother but so what. She's our friend, I wouldn't want to hurt her.

~Jai

When the boys went out to the car I lagged behind to say my last goodbyes.

"Remember what I told you, and don't forget to text and call me. I'll be rooming with Beau so no one has to know about us okay?"

She nodded, "Of course Jaibird."

I pulled her hair out of her face and pulled her in for a kiss. It felt so good to know she was mine and no one else's. I know it sounds selfish but its true.

Our moment was ruined when I heard Luke yell, "Jai get your ass out here!"

I rolled my eyes and replied, "Yeah alright."

Sneaking in one more kiss I pulled her into a tight hug then we walked to the door. I hopped into the car and we all waved to her as we disappeared up the driveway.

~Nikki

I stayed outside for another ten minutes just incase they forgot something. When that time was up I walked inside slowly.

"These are going to be a long two weeks." I muttered aloud.

I walked up to my room, believing drawing would take my mind off of things. Instead of drifting into my own room I found myself digging through Jai's drawer for one of his jumpers. Snatching the cologne off his dresser I sprayed it and pulled the soft material over my head. I breathed in the scent and my mind instantly missed him. Taking the cologne with me I walked back into my room and sat at my desk. My phone buzzed in my pocket.

'Miss you already.' The message read, of course it was from Jai.

I smiled and sent him a picture of his jumper, 'I guess I do too.'

'How can you miss yourself?' His message implied teasing.

'Oh shut up. The house is so lonely, I may put your videos on extra loud.' I replied.

'Wouldn't that make it worse? Or do you just want to hear my voice that badly?'

I blushed, 'More towards the second one.'

'Wait a minute, I have an idea.'

After reading the last text I pulled out my brush and began to paint my picture some more. I didn't know what more I was going to do all this time so had drawn on some canvases. They weren't for me, more like gifts for the guys. I tend to get lost in my thoughts, they take over and I just want to rip my head off to get rid off them. They tell me to do things I never want to do, but sometimes do because of the pressure from the voices.

I got up from my desk and walked into my bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw a tired and sad person. I didn't have anyone here to call me beautiful when I felt ugly. No one to tell me I was needed when I felt unneeded. I opened the cabinet and reached into the back and pulled out some pain killers. My head hurt and this was the only way I knew how to fix it. Its hardly been an hour and I miss them like hell. I heard my phone buzzing from the other room. I ran over to it and picked it up. It was a voice recording from Jai with a short message with it. I clicked play on the recording and did not expect what I heard.

'I love you, remember that. When you miss me just play this and remember that I am still here loving you. I don't want you to do anything stupid while we're gone. What kind of boyfriend would I be if I hurt my girlfriend? Yeah thats right, a bad one. I love you, stay strong my angel.'

I could feel the tears fall from my eyes. I pulled my phone close to my body and cried. I cried for every time I dragged the blade to my skin while we were growing up. I cried for the boys, all the hard times they've been through. I cried for Daniel, he deserves more love than he gets. I cried for James, he's overcome so much. I cried for Beau, making it through school together no matter what happened. I cried for Luke, being the middle child is the hardest. Lastly I cried for Jai, he deserves someone better than me. My phone rung in my chest, I looked at the screen and saw an incoming call from Jai. I pressed the green button and put the phone on speaker.

"Hello?" His voice rung from the other end.

I sniffled, "Hi."

"Oh my god Nikki are you okay?" I could hear the worry in his voice.

"Yeah, I'm alright." I replied, lying of course.

He put his hand on the microphone but I could make out his words, "Guys I knew we shouldn't have left. The only time we left without her she had family matters so she wasn't alone. How is she going to last two weeks?"

"Jai?" I asked to make sure he knew I was still here.

I heard the phone fumble, "Sorry, I'm here. What is it?"

"Can I talk to Beau for a minute?" I choked out.

I could hear sadness in his voice, "Yeah of course. Just give me a minute."

Waiting was always the worst part about being on the phone. I hate being lonely, I can't deal with silence.

"Hello?" Beau's voice spoke into the phone.

"What do I do? Its hardly been an hour and I can't stand it."

He sighed, "You could always go out everyday. You've always loved the hustle of LA."

I wiped my eyes, "Yeah, I might do that. Thanks Beau."

"No worries. And hey, don't worry about us. We will be back soon enough. Just stay strong and keep your head up."

I smiled, "Of course Beau. Talk to you later."

"Bye." The phone was passed back to Jai.

"We are at the airport. I've got to go. When we land I promise I'll text you if its not to late."

"Oh c'mon Jai. You think I'll be asleep?"

"You better be. I don't want you stay up all night waiting for me."

I laugh, "Okay lover boy. You got to go catch a flight remember?"

"Yeah. I'll talk to you later."

"Bye."

That was the last time we talked for two weeks.

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Comment your thoughts on your part. While writing this I didn't think it was the best. I kinda just want to get to the action in my plot, and trust me that's coming up soon ;). I love you all so much!!

-Frostleaf/Nikkerson