I don't really know what happened. I think I mentally blacked out completly cause I do remember pain and their hands on me but I also do remember screaming and then something was thrown over me and it stopped. I mean they stopped and although I didn't quite know what happened exactly, I do know that I just got rapped.... my brain still didn't wanted to have it true and then there was the thing about the drug because I felt awful and not only that but my skin was burning and I felt thirsty and just hot.

???: Kiddo, hey? 

I can't believe this just happened....

I...

I was sold....

My body was sold...

???: Shit... What do I do?!

This voice did seem soo familiar as if I knew it from somewhere but with the blindfold on, I couldn't see who this was. To my surprise my blindfold was actually removed and instead I was hugged. It was at this moment that I could see who it was and I also saw that the thing that was thrown, no wrapped around me was actually a coat.

Me: Tha- Thank you.

???: *sigh* You finally came to your senses. I am glad about it.

There was a hero in front of me, not any hero. It was actually Hawks and he was wingless? I didn't know if he was real or not but I could only laugh. Don't ask me why but I couldn't help it laugh at this situation while tears were running down my cheek. I knew I looked like a crazy person but this was just sureal and I still didn't process what just happened.

Me: HAHAHAHAHA--ha.....

???: ... 

This isn't real.

There is no way this is real!

Why would it be real!

Why would someone rescue something like me?!

Why would someone even do this to me?!

My body is scared and it is not pretty.

I am skinny as fuck without any bit of meat to it.

I..

A snap brought me out of my thoughts and I looked at Hawks who looked quite confused but I couldn't really help it since this was just ridiculous. Nothing about the situation right now made sense not to mention that I was completly naked. Don't even ask when this happened cause I didn't know it exactly myself. Everything was a bit blurry and it was really really getting hot.

Hawks: You're burning up! Did they do something to you?

Me: Drugged.

Hawks: What?! 

Me: ... Why are you even here or are you a halucination?

Hawks: I am real! How am I supposed to explain this... I'll get you help first.

He wanted to pick me up but I decided to move away from him not wanting to get touched anymore. I had enough skinship for a while and I honestly really didn't needed more. Besides that I still didn't really trust my mind right now. For me this was looking more and more like something I came up in a nightmare than being the truth. I didn't wanted it to be real. I didn't wanted it to be soo true that I just got raped but I knew it. It was a fact and I felt it inside me as well as the throbing pain. There was no way this was not real but again I didn't wanted to accept the truth no matter what.

Hawks: Hey, it's alright.

I must look like a damn deer in front of some lights for this hero or like a scared and shivering bunny. 

Hawks: Can I pick you up?

Me: No...

Hawks: That will be a problem. I want to get you out of here and get you checked. 

Me: I am fine.

I am fine...

I've always been fine.

I've always been broken.

Nothing can piece me together anymore....

Hawks: Do you mind if I stay with you then?

Me: ...

Hawks: Alright. Ama be right here next to you.

The hero instead of doing anything else sat right next to me. He moved away so he was not in front of me and he was also not touching me so that I could be on the ground hugging myself and try to get my shit together. I didn't wanted anything like this! I never wanted anything to happen to me. I just wanted a normal life! Where did it even go wrong?

By this point I was just glad Hawks never looked into my eyes and that I was too afraid to make eye contact with him. 

The only comfort I had right now was the fluff around his coat and the smell it was given off which was kinda pleasant since it was a bit distracting. I was just tired of everything! With this night, my last straw was gone. My body was the only thing that I had left and I got sold out. I didn't think it would end like this... no that is not true. I somewhat hoped that my body was at least worth something. It was only because of that, that I was still working in this bar and not somewhere else. However I never really thought about commiting to this and giving up my body like this. I didn't had anything about people touch me but that was it. These men however, didn't just touched me, they used me like a doll. They did whatever they pleased and filled me up. They had no intention of thinking about me and all I could think about was how good it somewhat even felt with the pain which I knew was because of the drugs. BUT right now... I was just scared about my own body. I hated it for feeling this way. I kinda felt dirty right now. I wanted to rip my skin off.

I-

I wanted it all to end.

I was already tired enough of life.

This was it.

There was definitelly nothing worth living for.

Something deep down shattered in me. I didn't even knew it could shatter or that I had something to lose but right now... I knew it. I felt it. I felt even more broken and hurt than before. I thought that nothing could get to me anymore but I was soo wrong.