14.4.23

sofie <3

oi sofe

yeah

u free tmrw

no actually ive got a family dinner

why?

oh em turns out i have to go to my cousins wedding tmrw

and like i was told i could bring a friend or a date

and it would kinda' be awkward if i went alone

plus i literaly have no one to speak to there

so yh

oh chloeeee

i swear i would have come

but ong my gran's going to be there and i kinda have to be there

no worries sofe

dont feel bad i understand

ill find someone if not ill just go alone

.

"mum?" i say as she answers the phone

"Chloe"

"mum about the wedding tommorow"

"mhm"

"sofie can't come, she's busy"

"oh, so who are you bringing, or will you just come alone?"

"thats the thing, the only person who i thinking could bring would be trent"

"okay so bring him"

"okay but it will be awkward as hell with dad being there"

"he's your friend Chloe just bring him, besides your dad loves him, he loves his entire team but im telling you he has a little spot for trent"

"okay, ill tell him then" i smile

.

"oi T?"

"hey chlos"

"umm are you free tommorow?"

"yeah, do you wanna go out? i don't mind, Jude's away so it'll be just us though"

"mate listen, basically this is the thing- i have a wedding tommorow and i literaly know nobody there so i kinda need to bring a friend, but sofie is busy so please come with me, i know it'll be awkward with my dad being there but im sure we can like disappear somewhere after the ceremony

"of course ill come, Jude is going to Birmingham anyways and if Andy sees that im free he'll just make me babysit his kids, and i think i'd definitely prefer to come"

"trent you are an absolute lifeline, i don't know what id do without you"

"no worries, were besties after all"

.

the next day...

TRENT'S POV

i didn't mind going to this wedding with chloe at all, in fact i was kind of excited to see her even though i see her most days

i arrive in front of her block of flats at 6 PM

she walks out in a gorgeous silky champagne coloured dress that ends just above her knees

breathtaking is the only word that could describe her

"hello hello" i smile

"you look smart in that suit"

"i doubt it"

"is my dress nice?"

"nicer than nice"

"so who's getting married?"

"my cousin"

"i haven't been to a wedding in a loonng time"

"not going to lie, the last time i went to one i might have been 14"

"i was maybe 16? i don't think my brother's ever been to one though"

"well this is a first for him" i laugh

"nope- he's got a match"

"unlucky"

"very"

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We eventually arrive at the venue, its an outdoor kind of park with a tent in the middle and some trees by the entrance

we walk into the tent where the ceremony has been set up with chairs and an aisle marked between them with a red carpet

"were literaly going to deal with the ceremony then say hello to my cousin and we'll like find a place far away from all these people" she says

"alright then"

we take a seat for the ceremony, it takes maybe half an hour? but after that people are heading off to an area of the tent where a dance floor has been set up and a bar was placed

obviously chloe doesn't drink so i wasn't going to get any drinks either

we quickly say hi to the bride and groom and we find a spot by the trees outside to sit near

"well that was awkward" i say as we sit

"very"

"i think they all recognised me but just wanted to be nice so didn't mention it"

"my dad saved you that one time when one of my uncles just randomly joined into a conversation"

"he did, your dad is a lovely man"

"true, i can agree"

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CHLOE'S POV

as the sun sets at around 8PM, we sit on the grass near one of the trees outside where it was quite calm

not many people came outside, everyone was in the tent dancing and doing wedding things, we didn't feel like being around a bunch of drunk crazy people, especially ones from my family so we just end up spending most of our time outside near the trees in front of the decorated tent, though we'd pop in every now and again so people don't realise we weren't actually there

this time we run in and grab some cake and sit back down on the grass to eat

"its nice cake" trent waffles in between bites of his cake

"mhm it is"

"nutritionist doesn't have to know"

"definitely not"

he smiles

"what?" i ask as i take another bite of my slice of cake

"you look really pretty in your dress"

i try to hide my face blushing by chewing a bit faster

"thank you i guess, you look quite handsome in a suit"

"i am flattered" he giggles

.

as it gets later and colder, trent realises im beginning to shiver, and takes off his blazer and puts it over me

"thanks"

"no worries"

something feels weird between us, and i don't know what is but for some reason i feel the need to explain

"T?" i say calling him by the nickname i made up for him

"yeah?"

"you know that day where i said i'd explain about Jess"

"mhm"

"i think i want to explain now"

"only if you want to Chlos"

"you deserve to know trent- your one of my best friends"

"alright then"

"right- so i met Jess in my first year of uni in London, we were flatmates actually, back then she was lovely, she didn't need much makeup to look pretty and was overall just sweet and we kinda just became best friends. in my second year of uni, i met a guy in one of my lectures who i'd seen before but i just never spoke to, his name was Andres"

"he sounds like a nonce"

"trust me, he is"

trent giggles

"anyways, he was spanish but he came to London for uni, and his dad owned a large chain of private hospitals all over Europe and had promised him a good job in one of his hospitals in London once he graduates, essentially he was really really rich, i didn't love the idea of him being really rich because ive always been a really simple person and though i grew up in a really priviliged position i still go to aldi's all the time and i will never step foot in waitrose"

"i don't understand why anyone will go into waitrose, its just an overpriced tesco's"

"true, but basically he must of really liked me because he didn't leave me alone until i agreed to take his number, and then he obviously asked me out, i guess i wasn't exactly up for it but Jess convinced me and i thought i just didn't know him well enough, so i went. it wasn't bad at all, he took me out to some random italian restaraunt in fulham and we went to a pub. anyways eventually we start dating, i guess he was my first boyfriend because nobody actually count those weirdos from year 9"

"i agree, i was a big big weirdo in year 9"

"i can tell" i laugh "essentially around that time we started dating, Jess changed a bit, she started dressing a bit differently, more makeup, a lot more skin showing and i could tell she was sleeping around more, i tried to give her some advice but she didn't really take it and i just decided that it wasn't really my business, which is definitely not true because if sofie started sleeping around the way Jess did i would lock her in my apartment"

"so it was bad"

"very bad, basically me and Andres were doing pretty good, maybe a year later i moved in with him, and i thought i was in love. i started moving away from Jess but it didn't kinda work because every time she'd promise me she'd go back to normal but obviously she didn't. then i met sofie, she lived across from me and Andres and her being from liverpool we kinda became friends, at the time though it was more we were friendly than friends, i saw her every now and again and she'd bring us cookies on holidays. i did eventually go back to being friends with Jess, and her being the attention seeker she is, she didn't like me being friends with sofie so i kinda kept it at a minimum. but basically everything stayed the same until my final year of uni, we were about to graduate and me and Andres were so happy together that we were planning on getting engaged. one day though, i come home from a lecture that weirdly Andres said he couldn't come to but didn't mention why, he'd done it a couple times but i really trusted him so i didn't question it"

"oh no"

"its worse than what your thinking of T"

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13.2.21

i unlock the door of our flat and walk in

i look around to see my suitcases moved by the door, i push one to feel its heaviness

its probably full

i walk up the corridor, weirdly my bookshelf is empty and the shelves feel emptier than usual

i can hear the sound of  the TV, it sounds like love island- i thought Andres said we'd watch the new episode together when i came back?

i push the half shut door open

my eyes see a sight i could never even materialise in my mind. not in my wildest imaginations could i ever see this coming

"Jess? Andres? what the fuck is this?" i shout

"i can explain-" he hesitantly says

"no love" Jess says as i feel my heart sink "you don't live here anymore cece" 

how dare she call me that

"its mine and andres' now. your shit is by the door, take it and fuck off, i don't give a fuck if you trip and die now" she shouts

i feel the first of my tears drip down my cheek and hit my cold, dry lips

"i can't believe either of you" i shout as i run towards the front door which i had accidentaly left open

what the fuck am i meant to do now

i guess ill have to go to manchester or something i have nowhere to go here in london

i drag my suitcases outside and to the elevator

as im about to step into the elevator, a door unlocks

sofie

"i heard everything- do you want to come in?"

i nod and move towards her door

she comes out and helps me in with my suitcases

"im sorry about the mess, im actually moving out-"

"its fine"i say as im still beginning to contemplate everything

we sit on her couch, i explain to her what had happened, it turned out that i had left the front door open and she must have heard

i sob, and instead of just watching me cry, she comforts me until i stop

my heart feels only pain right now

"so your going to manchester? don't you have uni tommorow?"

"i don't have anywhere to stay in London, i guess ill just drive down tommorow" i sniffle

"no, you'll stay here for the night, and tommorow the moving truck is coming anyways, so ill take your suitcases with me and you'll come live with me in my new flat"

"its fine though- seriously"

"Chloe, i know i don't know you much but im telling you that heartbreak isnt easy, what are you going to do, do you understand how hard it is to find a flat in london, let alone doing it when your like this, come on, i needed a flatmate anyways- we'll be friends"

i nod

.

"fucking hell Chloe- im so so sorry" he begins to apologise

"why are you apologising?"

"because i ive been so insensitive with this whole Jess situation, i didn't have a clue how bad it was"

"its fine T, im way over them now"

he comes closer and holds me in for a hug

.

we spend some time just staring at the stars in the clear sky, making up random shapes we could see in the stars

"those ones look like a smily face" he says in a hushed tone

"you know what it does, thats the first one i actually agree with you on"

"what about the ones that look like joel matip over there!"

i quietly giggle "no it doesn't look like joel matip you idiot"

"alright these ones look like you" he says pointing to the sky

"hell no trent"

"i didn't mean a group of stars i meant the whole sky"

"how?"

"the sky is so beatiful right"

i nod

"and so are you"

he sits up, and helps me up as well

i smile, and this time i don't even try and hide how much im blushing because no matter what i do, he'll still see how red i am

he places a hand on my shoulder which sends tingles all over my body

slowly we move closer, our heads less than a rulers length away from each other

"CHLOE, COME IN TO SAY GOODBYE" we hear from my dad

we quickly shuffle away from each other thinking my dad would see but thankfully were far enough and its dark enough that dad would have only seen a blurry silhouette

...

—notes

andres is a nonce