This is so long omg

A bit smutty skip if you please

3rd person pov

Millie woke up before Finn did. She woke up from a bad dream, but she shrugged it off as soon as she saw the boy next to her, hugging her body onto his. She smiled at his cuddling, and looked up to his face.

His eyes were closed and his breathing was long and paced, meaning he's still sleeping. Millie lightly brought her hand from resting on his back to his lower stomach, pressing down lightly and making her way up and stopping at his chest.

He's so warm. And soft.

She felt Finns body immediately tense up against her, Millie herself getting tense in fear she woke him up, which she did.

She looked from her hand on his chest then back up to his face, his eyes a little open looking down at her.

"Whatcha doing?" He asks, making Millie smile. She loves his morning voice.

"Just admiring the now nineteen year old boy in front of me." She said, Finn smiling at her.

"I'm a man now." Finn said, making Millie laugh a bit.

"You don't act like it." She said, and he raised his eyebrows at her.

"Oh really?" He said, jokingly. Millie smiled and nodded, feeling his hands slide to her waist, and started tickling her which came by surprise.

Millie started laughing and squirming away, trying to get out of his grip.

"Finn stop, I can't breathe," Millie said laughing, trying to catch her breath. Finn laughed, and let go of her.

"So what's the plan for your birthday?" Millie asked him, rolling over to lay on her stomach. She turned her head to face him on his side.

"I'm not sure, I usually just spend it with my family. Some of my friends are out here but I don't want to bring them over if you're here." Finn said, Millie furrowing her eyebrows.

"You should have them over. Who are they?" She asks, looking at the mop of messy curls on Finns head.

"Jack, Malcolm and Ayla." He said, and Millie nodded, interested in this part of his life Finn hasn't talked about.

"How do you know them? Well, besides Jack obviously." Millie asked, Finn smiling.

"We were in a band." He said, which had Millies eyes wide.

"Ohh, so the other band members. Bring them over!" Millie replied, smiling. He agreed.

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The day quickly turned to night, as everyone was in the living room and kitchen enjoying each other's company. Millie really likes Ayla and Malcom, they are super nice and sweet.

Finn was talking to his mom and Malcolm, meanwhile Millie, Ayla and Chloe were in the kitchen talking.

"To be honest we were starting to think Finn was gay," Ayla said, Millie laughing.

"I could see that. That's odd he never had a girlfriend." Millie said, furrowing her eyebrows.

"He was honestly really focused on music and work and that stuff, I guess he just never really thought about it." Ayla said, Chloe agreeing. She has watched Finn for three years, and she can see where Ayla is coming from. Millie felt her phone keep buzzing, like it was all day. She tried to ignore it, but it was just irritating her at this point.

"I have to go up, I'll be back in a few minutes," Millie said to the girls, leaving them in the kitchen. She walked upstairs into Finns room and shut the door behind her, taking a deep breath out. She sat on the bed and opened her phone looking through all of the messages.

Jacob: I remember like it was yesterday. You should've came back so we could make another moment like that.

Millie stared at the texts, setting her phone on the bed in front of her. She sighed, and looked down.

She picked up the phone and fidgeted her thumbs around the letters, thinking of what to type. He does this every year. Every year from the last time that they had sex.

He acts like I consented to it.

He made me feel guilty for it.

"Just try and want to do it more next time. You weren't acting like you wanted to and it put me in a bad mood, can you just fix it for next time?"

He manipulated me. But I still feel guilty about it.

The phone dinged again, Millie looking to the newest message.

Don't worry, we can just see each other when we get back to campus.

Millies heart dropped, and she set the phone down in front of her. She tried to take deep breaths, but they were shaky.

All I want to do is be alone and cry. But I feel so guilty. It's Finns birthday and I'm being so selfish. I-

Millies thoughts were interrupted when she heard the door open to Finn looking in, Millie immediately wiping her tears and putting her phone by her side, shutting off the ringer.

Finn noticed her wipe the tears from her face as soon as he opened the door. He furrowed his eyebrows with concern, lightly closing the door behind him.

"What's wrong Mill?" He asked, walking over to the bed and sitting down in front of her. He studied the look on her face; a look he couldn't seem to figure out.

"It's nothing, really. I'm fine, let's go back downstairs." Millie said, starting to sit up but was pulled back down by Finn.

"Tell me Mill. I don't want you upset." Finn said, eyeing her. He doesn't want Millie to be upset, he hates when she is upset. She hesitated before she spoke.

"Just my family. As much as I love being here I miss spending time with my own family." Millie said, partially telling the truth. She doesn't want to bring up Jacob, and her family was on her mind too.

"I know, mill. I'm really sorry about what happened, it seems really rude, what they did." Finn said, Millie nodding. He studied Millie again, feeling as if something is still off.

"Everything else okay?" He asked, Millies eyes looking up to his. She nodded, Finn slightly smiling.

"Good. I don't want you to be upset." Finn replied, looking down to her lips. He quickly leaned in and kissed her, then stood up and took her hand to lead her back downstairs. Millie smiled at the sweet gesture.

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Finn got out of the shower, looking at himself in the mirror. He sighed, running his hands through his damp curls. He threw on a T-shirt and some shorts, and walked back downstairs to his parents.

"Goodnight mom, goodnight dad." Finn said, his mom turning towards Finn and smiling. She stood up and walked over to him, giving him a big hug even though she was smaller than him.

"My baby is all grown up," she said, squeezing him. Finn looked to his dad and they both gave each other a look; his mom does this all the time.

"Mom I'm not going anywhere," Finn said, his mom releasing him from the hug he could barely breathe.

"I know, I know. Just look at you! So tall and handsome. And a girlfriend! You're really growing up Finn," his mom said, Eric shaking his head.

"I better not see any tears when you turn around, like he said he's not going anywhere." Eric said, Finn laughing.

"Goodnight again," Finn said, walking back up the stairs. What his mom said really had him thinking for a little bit.

I do have a girlfriend now. I'm nineteen. I'm in college. Time really does fly.

He opens his bedroom door to see that the lights are all off, Millie already sleeping on one of the sides of his bed. He smiles at the girl in his bed, and closes the door again once he's inside.

Hopefully Millie doesn't mind.

He thinks back to the first day they got here, confused as to why she wanted the door open.

His thoughts disappear when he hears Millie shuffle on the other side of the bed, turning the side of her body towards him. Millie opens her eyes and looks at Finn, who's back is against the bed and staring at the ceiling. He looks over to her, able to see her face in the light from outside his window that is giving the room some light.

She's beautiful.

"Did you have a good birthday?" Millie asked, Finn smiling at her.

"The best." He replied, watching Millies lips curve into a smile.

"Good."

"Good."

The two watched each other for a couple seconds, not breaking eye contact. Finn turned his body over to his side, so they were both facing each other now, closer than they were before.

Millies heartbeat picked up a little, Finn coming closer to her. She felt the light touch of his hand come in contact with her cheek, tracing his thumb around it.

"I'm so lucky to have you." Finn said, which shocked Millie. She never thought in a million years that Finn would say that. Not because he wouldn't be, but he doesn't usually talk sweet like that. Millie really likes Finn, she has always liked him.

She noticed him lean his head closer to her, their lips inches apart now. Millie felt nervous, even though she has kissed him before.

This moment, for Millie, feels more passionate. She's never really experienced a lot of passionate moments in her life.

Finn decided to close the gap, connecting his lips with her soft ones. Millies heart fluttered by his kiss, the two pulling apart after a couple of seconds.

They both smiled, and went back in, this time a little bit faster than their first kiss.

Millies skin felt like it was on fire, feeling butterflies everywhere in her stomach. Finn noticed this effect he had on her, enjoying it. They both slowly repositioned themselves, Millie rolling onto her back and Finn over Millie.

Millie felt Finns lips find hers again, and she let her hands rest on his back. Finn loved the feeling of her hands on him, they were warm and soft.

Millies lips were left cold when Finn pulled away, looking into her eyes.

He's amazing.

"Are you okay?" Finn asked softly, moving one of his hands and placing it on the side of her face again.

"Yes." She replied back, Finn nodding. He leaned down and kissed her cheek, slowly making his way down her cheek to her jawline, then to her neck, then to behind her ear.

Millie loved the way Finn kissed her, it was like something she's never experienced before. It was so soft and gentle, feeling the tiny kisses he was leaving her left her with goosebumps all down her arms and neck.

Millie moved her hands down to the bottom of his shirt, slowly riding it up, feeling his bare skin which was warm. She felt his lips come up from her neck, and he helped her take his shirt off of him, tossing it on the floor next to them. He looked back down to Millie, who was lifting up the shirt she was wearing, which was Finns shirt. Finn watched her as she did so, completely taking it off and setting it on the bed next to them. He looked from her chest down to her stomach, seeing the lining of the shorts she was wearing as well.

He immediately leaned down and placed a soft kiss on her stomach, leaving Millie surprised. She watched him as he kissed her stomach, making his way up to her chest, then up to the back of her neck.

Finn heard Millie let out a shaky breath, making him slightly smile. Millies skin felt like it was on fire, trying to cool down.

Why does he have this much of an effect on me?

He actually does things so I can feel it, not just for his own pleasure. He does things for me. That's why.

He kissed her neck one more time, coming up to place his lips against hers again. Finn felt her take a deep breath in and out, then felt her hand on his waist. He felt her slightly push his body towards the center of her, in between her legs. Finn was surprised, but excited that she decided to make the next move. He felt her legs run up his side, pressing against him.

Finn let out a breath, trying to breathe in. Finn doesn't usually get effected like this.

But it's Mill.

He's done this before, but it wasn't with her. Nothing he would ever do with anyone else would compare to her.

Millie dove deeper into the kiss they were sharing, and Finn felt her small hand take his own hand, and lead it somewhere he honestly was not expecting.

She lightly placed it on the top of her knee, and lightly traced his hand up her leg, reaching the ends of her shorts, which rode up as she led him further up her leg, all the way to her waist.

Finn was nervous to do anything, but Millie was living for it in this moment. She's never experienced something like this before, and she wanted to experience it with him.

Finn moved his hand back down her leg slowly, then back up, multiple times actually. He could tell Millie enjoyed it, and he wanted her to be okay.

The next time he did it, Millie let her grip on Finns side fall, letting her leg fall next to her, more open than it originally was. Finn caught on immediately, his heart racing uncontrollably. He pulled apart from her lips, looking at her.

Millie looked up to Finn, seeing galaxies in his eyes. His pupils were wide, wider than she's ever seen them.

Millie nodded, knowing what Finn was asking. He kissed her one more time before going back down to her neck, Millie then feeling his hand move from the front of her leg to the side, inching closer to the place Millie never let anyone touch.

Finn lightly traced his hand up, his fingers going underneath her shorts towards her underwear. Millie let out a deep breath, Finn still lightly tracing around her, and moved his hand out from underneath her shorts. He moved his hand up from her leg to the center, finding the strings to her shorts. He slowly undid them, and slid her shorts off of her, leaving them on the ground next to his shirt.

Millie was so hot she felt like she was going to die, but then the goosebumps arrived again once Finns hand started tracing her leg again.

Finn was focused on making Millie happy and okay, which she seemed like she was. He released his kisses from her neck and looked down at her body, eyeing it carefully. She was in a bra and underwear.

"You're beautiful Mill." Finn said, looking back up to Millie, slightly smiling at him. She pulled him back down to meet her lips, which he did.

As they were kissing, Millie led Finns hand back to where it was, and he continued from where he was. He traced his hand up the inside of her thigh, and up to the center between her legs, letting Millie get comfortable with his touch before he went any further.

His hand was placed on the most sensitive place she has, but Millie felt okay; she trusted him. And she hasn't felt that in a long long time.

A couple seconds later, she felt Finn start to move his fingers lightly on her area, driving Millie insane. Finn could tell it was, so he pressed down a little harder which he could tell immediately that Millie liked due to the soft noise she made.

This was new territory for Finn, as it was for Millie; trust is what they needed to do this, and they both have it.

He moved his hand back up to her hip, but moved his lips down, all the way to the line of her underwear. He left soft kisses, trailing up again in a straight line, coming back up to her lips.

"You're positive?" Finn asks her, brushing a piece of hair away from her face that must have fallen.

She smiled and nodded.

"Yes." The two smiled, as they connected their lips yet again.

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