This year Christmas won't be the same without you,
and I know I must face it alone. My eyes won't light up like they used to, at the first sight of the winter's snow.

Your laugh was so contagious, I admire how your presence was felt through out a room. I fear that what was once our favorite holiday, will now be filled with nothing but gloom.

I'll miss the music that filled the air,
there are memories that now flood my mind.
How much I pray to just feel your spirit somewhere.
I wish so badly, I could turn back the hands of time.

You were my hero in ways you never knew.
I had so much left I wanted, needed to tell you.
But the cancer had other plans and took you away from me too soon.

I hate that this world still turns without you in it.
It feels like that's so wrong.
If only I had just a few more minutes, maybe it'd hurt a little less knowing that you're gone.

My biggest fear is that I'll forget the sound of your voice. I'll forget your once contagious laugh. My heart breaking a little more everyday without choice. My mind trying to search for other feelings, but only finding sad.

To me, you were timeless, someone who would go on living always. Like the lyrics in that certain song, "Forever is our today." It's like a broken record in my mind, "what is this thing that builds our dreams, yet slips away?"

I can't even hear the heartbreaking voice of Patsy Cline and all the songs you taught me how to sing.
I fear my love of music will pay the final cost, it's like I'm no longer listening.

I miss you more than words can say.
I think about you
every second in every minute of every day.