It sucked to feel this way
as I did for more than half my life.

However...

There will always be a sun
and no matter what ..
life... it still goes on.

Over analyzing ...you learn a lot.
You learn that you, yourself
you're all you've got.

You learn that even the most
sincere people will let you down.
That someone will tell you they love you..
and then break you down.

You learn to take things with a grain of salt
because at the end of the day..
broken dreams are all you've bought.

I wanted to love so fiercely that it consumed utterly.
I wanted to feel safe with the one who pursued me.

Instead, I pay attention to every single little detail. I learned to hide disappointment and I've learned to do it very well.

I've come to realize that for almost all..
I was the maybe option.. the
"for a good time call."

I'm a reckless driver in a steadfast hurricane..
I'll take the blame for damn near everything.

I've learned that someone says only half of what they mean and even then it doesn't mean anything.