CHILD AGAIN

I want to be a child again.
When there were no duties, no expectations, and no favours to gain.

I want to be a child again.
Where didn't exist insecurities, neither did heart-wrenching pain.

Oh, how much I want my beautiful childhood back!
But again, grim reality appears, breathing down my neck. 

Fool enough to be wanting to fly when I was a child, 
When merely living is a miracle, imaginations are no longer wild. 

My father used to guide my ways, help me in every step, every situation. 
Foreign are these memories. Now he just wants to avoid my commotion. 

Father, will you bless me again with "Hush, my little girl! I've got you. It's ok to fall"? 
I've been waiting, waiting for your another sweet call. 

I wish upon a shooting star for you to see my best tries,
Even in my greatest mistakes, my struggle lies. 

Don't unsee my need for your love and your guidance,
What more can I do to be more than an annoyance? 

Why can't I act without anyone's judgment? 
Oh, I'm too tired of being an adult, too much adjustment.

Isn't it ironic how my deepest desire was to be old when I was a child? 
Now I seem to lose myself in the race of career, but where is it to find? 

My thoughts now mock me as I envisioned adult life to be easy. 
It's the adult me who is always worrying as life seems so busy. 

I rest my urgent pleadings to my fate.
Money doesn't bring happiness, it just brings us to the gate. 

The gateway to happiness seems to be too far
When I was a child, the door was open ajar. 

Can I be a child again? 
To have a new life to begin. 

Can I be a child again? 
I think of it always, and there goes my thoughtful train. 

A/N: I do feel like shit sometimes and that's when nostalgia hits hard. I do feel like my parents don't appreciate me enough but it's not always that case thankfully. My poem is just a bit too dramatic.

If you happen to read it, I hope you liked it :)