You were the dream

You were the fantasy
Everything I had wanted as a boy
You gave

Kisses
Hand holds
Being able to fully call you "Mine"
"Babygirl"
I could show you off
Smile at how blessed I was
Actually take you on dates
Dance with you
Call you short
Smile when you said "Shut up"
Add that I loved it

But you were also the broken glass
The sunlight shined through your broken pieces
And the rainbow was scattered everywhere
Scattered on everyone
Except you

You never saw how beautiful you were
All you saw were the shattered pieces
Your incompleteness
But the greatest irony was
Had you seen the beauty in the brokenness
The pieces would have started to mend

But you didn't
You didn't see the beauty
It was almost as if you didn't want to
You closed your eyes when I tried to show you
Shut your ears when I tried to tell you

It ended in pain
It ended with me on my knees, tears down my face
Blood in my hands
Stunned silence
Silent screams

You had tried to stop me from cutting myself on the glass
And so you pushed me away
You were scared that I would hate the glass
And so you pushed me away
But what you didn't know
Was that I had hoped to love that glass back into something whole
That I never lied when I said there was beauty in the brokenness

I always dreamed of being the knight
I always dreamed of slaying the dragon
But when the dragon is within your heart
I know not how to fight it
I know not how to save you from yourself

You taught me that I can't save everyone
Maybe that I can't save anyone
But you also taught me that it's not my fault
That when I do my best
No more can be asked

You gave me what I had dreamed of
But reality struck
And I finally learned
Maybe my heart needs more
More than just a dream