You'll never earn your wings they said
You're not good enough they said
You'll never find love they said.
You will never be beautiful they said

So they said

You'll never succeed
You are a disappointment
Why are you still here?
Go away
We don't want you
We don't need you

So they said

For days on end, those words would haunt my head,
Fill my brain with terrible thoughts,
Cause me to act out in anger
Shut myself out
I didn't care anymore
No-one else did, so why should I?

They would want you to let go
They wouldn't want you to feel this way
They would be angry with you

So they said

Yeah, I said
Well "they" are dead
So do not tell me what they would and would not think
Do not tell me how to feel
How to think
How to cry
When they left,
Do you think I DIDN'T know how they'd feel?

For days...Weeks...Months...I shut myself out

But...

Then I realized...

Who cares what they think?
It doesn't define me

Who cares what they know?
It won't change my views

Who cares what they say?
It's not going to change me

So why am I letting it?

I am putting all of these "so they saids'" into a box
I am locking and throwing away the key
I am opening up my eyes to the world around me
I am opening a door I have never opened before
I am scared, but I can do this

And this time, So I Say