1/29/20

I've learned that matters of the heart, can't be scheduled.

You can't put a date on your next love.
You can't put a date on your next heartbreak.
You can't plan out the ups and downs.

The heart doesn't like to be constrained by time.

Especially when we need it to be.

So, I can't force my heart to behave.
I can't force it to stay still.
I can't tell it not to feel.

Even when I want it to.

The heart is a terrible friend.

It's unreliable.
It's unreachable.
It's unrestrained.

It won't stop its skipping.
It won't answer your calls or call you back.
It won't stand your criticism.

It won't stop its damn beating for anything you need.

It doesn't cheer you up.
It just sits there and only thinks about itself.

You can't walk away from it though.

Because for all of the pain it causes you
. . . it makes you just as happy.

The heart is a terrible friend.
But also the best one.

It's spontaneous.
It's supportive.
It's selfless.

It won't stop its fluttering.
It won't let you be alone.

It will never stop its beating, because it refuses to stop cheering you on.

It doesn't let you stop feeling.
It just keeps you going.

You can't walk away, because it would never let you walk alone.

So it's awful.
But it's so lovely.

And yes, it is so forgetful.
And yes, it can't follow the plan.
And yes, it can't remember the dates.

But it will be there when you needs it.

It will send you all of its love.

It will never be on time, but it will try to make it up to you.

So, stop telling it your dates and times,
because it knows better than you when the time is right.

Stop it. It's got you.

It may seem like it's abandoning you,
but it's just waiting for the right moment.

You can't schedule matters of the heart,
for it refuses to be tamed.