5/10/19
I think by now we've established that I'm older than my years.

I'm an old soul.

And I all I want to do, is the most basic things.

The stuff you do when you're 21 without even thinking about it.

Because you have the freedom to do what ever you want, whenever you want.

You have no curfew, you can travel without your parents, you can just randomly decide to do something without having to ask permission.

It's the ability to be spontaneous.

Do anything anytime, because you want too.

I can't even go to grocery store without getting my parents to drive me, if they have time to at all.

I can't just save up money and go on a flight to another place, because even if I have the money, I have to ask my parents.

And sometimes it's not that your parents would say no, it's that it would ruin it to ask.

I want to be able to drive out to random field on a Friday night and stare at the stars.

I want to book the cheapest airplane ticket and go to another country.

I want to be able to be free, spontaneously.

I have a list of things I want to do in life, and one of them is to go on a trip to another country, all by myself, without any clue what I'm going to do there.

I just want to be free to be spontaneous.

I want to go to go places, buy things, call people, curse, all without asking permission.

I want to randomly decide to paint a mural on the walls of my room, pick up the paint that very day and start.

I want to run around the streets of a city without any plans or any schedules.

I just want the spontaneous freedoms that come with being grown up.

Because I want to live on the wind, and follow its every whim just for the sake of living.