The next few nights Seonghwa goes to bed at a normal time, knowing he won't run into San because of this. Seonghwa's mood has hit an all-time low. His friends are getting even more worried. Jongho and Yunho especially have been trying to take extra good care of Seonghwa when they're together. Something is wrong and they know it.

Seonghwa's dreams still have San's sleeping body in them. The first few nights, he kept him there - looking at him and thinking about what he's done. He forces himself to look away, unable to face reality.

After a week, Seonghwa began turning away from San while he dreams. He can't face even his sleeping body like this. Seonghwa's heart aches for San, but he convinces himself it's for the best.

San has been heartbroken since that night when Seonghwa was crying in his arms. He wished he could fly back right then and run to him. His dorm has become flooded with portraits of Seonghwa and theories and reasons why he hasn't appeared in his dreams the past few nights. Where is he...?

San misses Seonghwa badly. He wishes he could know what Seonghwa was feeling. He wants to help him. How could he let the man of his dreams, literally, be feeling like this?

After a week and still no sign of Seonghwa awake in San's dreams, he starts thinking that Seonghwa started sleeping at a different time.

That night, San tries going to sleep earlier, but still, Seonghwa is not awake in his dreams.

A few days since San tried going to bed earlier, he tries going to bed later. He would've tried the next night, but his roommate has been on him about getting enough sleep for finals coming up.

Tonight, San goes to sleep later though, unable to continue going without being able to try and find Seonghwa again.

Seonghwa has been turning his back to San's sleeping body the past few nights, but he can't help but look back at him. He can't take it anymore... Tonight, he will touch him. Just so he doesn't have to be reminded every night for a while... Seonghwa realizes how horrible that sounds.

Seonghwa lays facing San, his eyes glassy as he admires San's face, remembering his incredible smile and handsome dimples. Seonghwa shakily holds out his hand, getting closer to San's face.

San wakes up that night, seeing Seonghwa facing him. He notices Seonghwa's hand about to touch his cheek and he's not wearing his gloves. San's eyes go wide, not wanting to disappear from each other, but it's too late.

Seonghwa gently caresses San's cheek as he sees San's eyes open to look at him. He looked so surprised and then so scared... Seonghwa couldn't help but gasp as San disappeared from him. Seonghwa feels a pang through his heart. San saw him do it.

Seonghwa and San lie alone in their beds, without one another.

San holds onto Seonghwa's pillow, putting his face into it. Why is he doing this? San wonders if Seonghwa is afraid of being with him. San is most afraid of how long it's going to take for them to see each other in their dreams once again.

Seonghwa lays back on the bed, staring up into the abyss that should be the ceiling of the dream. He's done it. He has done it... Did he do the right thing? If so, why does he feel so horrible...? He feels as if he's been shot right through the heart.

The next few nights, Seonghwa is afraid of going to bed. San has figured out what he's been doing. The jig is up. He saw him. Actually saw him going to touch him so that he would disappear. Seonghwa is unsure of when San will reappear, but it's been haunting him.

San goes to bed the next few nights, knowing that Seonghwa won't be appearing for a while, but he still writes on his arms a message for Seonghwa when they finally reappear to each other.

San wants Seonghwa to trust him. He has known something hadn't been right for a while but hasn't known what he can do to help Seonghwa. God, he wishes he could be with him during this time... Everything would've been much different. San is much better at helping people when he is physically there and able to.

 San prays that once they reappear to each other that Seonghwa will open up to him... That he will let him talk to him.

San wants to tell Seonghwa that he is utterly in love with him.

The night they reappear comes.

Seonghwa opens his eyes that night to see San, but San isn't awake like he thought he would be. He found him out that night, Seonghwa thinks. So, why isn't he waking up with him?

Seonghwa shakes his head. No, this is exactly what he wanted in the first place when he did what he did. He doesn't get to be upset. 

Seonghwa can't help but admire San though, admittingly having missed not seeing him. How could he not? He's all he can ever think about. His brain is so confused with all of these feelings he's been feeling. Why must life be like this? Seonghwa just wants to be happy.

Seonghwa sits up, looking over San's body. He was in the purple pajamas his grandparents had gotten him for while he was in America. This makes his heart warm. He remembers that night when he was wearing them and he smiles. They truly bonded that night. They opened up a little bit.

Seonghwa is taken aback, however, when he looks down to see the writing on San's arm.

Please come back to me, it says in black marker.

Seonghwa feels a tingling run through his body as his eyes began to tear up. How can San still want him? Seonghwa realizes that San wants him to come back to him on his own terms... That must be why he didn't wake up with him tonight.

Seonghwa doesn't know what to do...

End of Chapter Six