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Dear Deanna a.k.a Deonne,

It's funny how fate played us too well. Maybe if my dad allowed me to visit you beforehand, maybe you wouldn't extend to that limit where you have to pretend to be someone else just so that you can talk to me.

My phobia is back and I told dad to send me to a psychiatric hospital. By the time you read this, I'm already there.

You know I love you Deonne and you have all the time in the world to tell me but you didn't. Through your journal, I realized that you do intend to tell me that night, but you were too late. Fate beat you to it. Your entries were all lies and a single page of self-made prophecy that never happened.

I bought you that Jasmine ring you wanted. Do you know that Jasmine means to love? I hope you keep that as a reminder of me and so I will keep mine too.

The last page of your journal, I believe you have it now. I'd rather remember all your beautiful lies that morphed into a dream rather than have a page that tells what the reality really looked like.

I would've forgiven you if it hasn't been this way. I told you I'd do anything for you, I want to. But my fear of women and fear of you, are factors I should consider.

I know you're thinking that you might be able to help me again, but how Deanna? How can you help me if you already broke me once?

You're the only man or woman that I fell in love with and I wish nothing more but pure happiness and safety for you. That's why I'm doing this and nothing could ever change my mind, not even you.

Maybe we're not destined after all. We've come a long way and we've come to see the end of the road. This has to end.

Our story has to end.

Don't worry it was a beautiful one and I'll forever cherish them even if I sometimes tremble in fear whenever I reminisce those times.

Just like what my grandmother said, maybe in another life everything will be better for us.

I love you, Deanna but I'm sorry I fear you more.

Love,

Jungkook