Idea: Sirius starts crying over something and Remus snaps at him saying it was annoying how Sirius would cry over anything and how childish it was and Sirius freezes and runs away. When he comes back the others notice he isn't crying anymore and Remus says it's good. James asks what the fuck is wrong with him because he knows Sirius only cries with the people he trusts and now he has stopped crying around everyone. Remus realises what he has done and gets flash backs to when they first got Sirius comfortable enough to cry around them. Remus feels really guilt. He tries to apologise to Sirius but he doesn't believe him. Sirius breaks up with Remus because he can't handle what he actually is.
Words: 1062
Warnings: a lot of angst, crying

Sirius walked into the dorm. He let his tears finally fall after holding them in for so long. He saw Remus looking at him, but the boy did no movement to help Sirius. Sirius sniffled and slowly walked towards him, "M- Moony. It hurts.. I fell down the stairs. It hurts so much" he whimpered. He tried to show Remus his bleeding hand, but Remus barely even looked at it. Remus crossed his arms and glared at him. Sirius sniffled again. He had noticed how much less empathy Remus had started showing him and it hurt.

"Fucking christ Sirius, stop being such a baby. You are so dramatic. It's so annoying! You are always coming to me with every single problem that you have! I never imagined you'd be such a burden. Fuck, I miss when you didn't cry over everything. You are 16, not 6. Grow up and stop being such a fucking crybaby!" Remus yelled.

Sirius's eyes widened and he stared at Remus in shock. He took a couple steps back and pulled his bleeding hand to his chest. Severus had pushed him down a set of stairs out of nowhere and Sirius had even fainted for a few seconds. He would have wished to seek for comfort from Remus, but it was clear he wasn't going to get any, so he ran away.

Sirius didn't talk to Remus for the next two weeks and Remus didn't mind at all- Who are we fooling here? He did mind, a lot. He had missed Sirius a lot but Sirius refused to speak with him.

James had brought it up once in the dorm. "Are you alright Sirius? You haven't been upset for a long time?" James had asked. "That's good. He finally shuts up" Remus stated. Sirius didn't hesitate at all running out of the room and slaming the door shut after him.

"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU LUPIN?!" James screamed. Remus's eyes widened. "What? You have to admit you found it annoying too how he was constantly crying?" James spat on him. "Fuck you! Of course I didn't! He wasn't given any kind of comfort his entire childhood! Do you not remember how hard it was to get him to cry around us?"

Yes, Remus did remember. They had only been 11, but they had all decided to help Sirius to start crying again, to let it all out. They repeated to him over and over how it was completly okay, hos he had nothing to be ashamed of.

"He trust us! That's why he cries around us! I don't know what the hell you have done but we have lost years of progress because of you!"

Remus quickly stood up. He hadn't realized how important it was for Sirius to be able to let it all out. He hadn't realized how crying was Sirius's way to show how much he trusted someone. He had trusted Remus so much he'd cry daily around him. HE trusted Remus to give him help and comfort, to calm him down. He trusted Remus would love him. And Remus had fucked up. Sirius didn't even trust him enough to talk to him.

"He doesn't cry at all anymore and it's your faulth! You better fix it!"

Remus ran after Sirius with the help of the map. He was in the Astronomy tower.

Sirius was crouched down to a ball, shaking on the ground. Remus crouched down next to him. "Hi." Remus whispered. Sirius flinched and moved away, looking up at him. He had clearly been crying but he was trying to hide the fact by drying his hands on his sleeves. "I came to apologise" Remus whispered. Sirius stared at him blankly.

"I'm so sorry Sirius. I didn't mean it. I meant none of it. I love you. I care about you. It's an honour that you trust me that much." "Liar" Sirius hissed, "You didn't care shit. You said it yourself, I'm a burden! No wonder mother taught me to make a fake personality. The second I show my real one, you start hating me. And yeah, I did trust you. I don't think I will ever, ever do that again to anyone! They will just leave me and hate me!"

Remus swallowed hard, "I have no excuses but I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. None of it is your fault."

Sirius chuckled darkly, "Yeah you say that. You say how much you love me. You tell me how sexy I am. You tell me you would do anything for me. And for some fucked up reason I believed it all without realising you were trying to bait me to stay with you so that you could keep fucking me!"

Remus's eyes widened, "No I swear, I'm not with you because of your body! I love you!"

"If you loved me you wouldn't have said all what you did. Do you even know what I was crying about when you snapped?!"

Remus shook his head in shame.

"I got pushed down the fucking stairs and my hand was bleeding. Thanks a lot for the comfort you gave me, dickhead" he spat on Remus and stood up. "We are fucking done, you hear me?" then Sirius walked away.

Remus stayed in the astronomy tower. He knew he fully deserved it, but he still had the childish need for Sirius to come back to him so that they could cuddle. Sirius hated him. Worst part was that he was right to do so. Remus felt tears running down his cheeks, oh the irony.