The steam from the hot bath condensed on the gleaming mirror. Remus lowered himself into the tub and exhaled slowly as the water slowly inched over his body. He covered his chest on instinct as soon as he was fully submerged. 

Sirius turned from the closet he was searching in with two fluffy towels in his arms. He set them down next to the bath and started to hum a tune. Remus recognised as one of the many songs he had memorized so long ago.

" Would you like me to join you?"

Remus was silent, still covering his exposed breasts with his arms, deep in thought. Sirius took the prolonged silence as a 'no' and started to make his way out of the bathroom. Remus quickly noted his absence and called out in a panic.

" Wait don't leave! "

Sirius turned around and walked over to the tub.

" What's wrong?"

" I don't want to be alone..."

Sirius sighed and sat next to the  tub on a small stool. He continue to hum as he stared at the marble floor of the bathroom.

" You can get in."

" What?"

Remus took a deep breath and repeated what he had previously stated, " You can get in with me."

Sirius gazed at the boy in front of him with a kind, but concerned expression.

" Do you want me to?"

Remus pondered for a moment, before pushing all of his anxieties aside. 

This is what you've always wanted.

" Yes. Yes, I would like you to join me."

Sirius smiled gently and started to strip himself of his ornately decorated clothing.  He slowly submerged his body into the warm water across from Remus, who adjusted to give his companion more room.

The soothing sound of water echoed in the large room when Sirius moved his arms beneath the water's surface.  Remus sucked in a deep breath and reluctantly let it go again. The pop star took his hand and massaged it with his own, causing Remus to let out a soft gasp.

" Just breath, Remus." 

He nodded his head slowly and did what he was told, letting the steamy air flow in and out of his lungs. Sirius gently wrapped his muscular arms around Remus' slender waist and his eyes silently asked permission to move him. Remus slowly nodded, eyes still closed. Sirius moved him so that he was pressed against the rockstar's chest. 

Remus could feel the heartbeat of the man he looked up to against his back, their breaths mingled together and Sirius caressed the pale skin that was pressed against his own. He pressed small kisses to the crook of Remus' neck.

Soon Remus found himself dozing off to sleep with the warm embrace of another comforting him.

~

The young man woke up in the softest linens he had ever felt in his life.  He jolted upright, looking around panicked. He briefly remembered what had happened the previous night and relaxed back into the king sized bed. 

There was a knock on the door and he barely whispered a " come in".  The door swung open and in the doorway was Sirius Black with his long hair tied up in a bun and his face free of makeup. 

He looked gorgeous in the soft morning light. He smiled when he saw the sight of Remus drowning in the oversized sleep clothes he had provided. Remus blushed when he saw that smile, he couldn't help it. He still couldn't believe that he was in the home of someone he had looked up to for so long. 

" Good morning."

Sirius walked towards the bed with a tray of eggs and toast. He sat down next to Remus and placed the food on his lap.

" Go ahead, it's for you." 

Remus reluctantly took a piece of toast and bit into the slightly crispy delicacy. He sighed at the taste of a warm breakfast. In the corner of his eye he saw Sirius with a warm smile on his face.

" What are you smiling about?"

Sirius face tinted pink, something Remus never thought he would see. 

" I just haven't felt this way about anybody in a while."

Remus set his toast back on the tray, trying his hardest not to choke on the contents that were already in his mouth. 

" How do you feel?"

Remus felt to familiar bubble of anticipation in his stomach and Sirius stared at the sheets for a while, trying to come up with the proper words.

" Usually my relationships are with the wealthy or with other celebrities. They never have  genuine feelings built in. It's always been about the publicity, but I feel something different with you.  Something that makes me happy."

" Oh. I wasn't aware you felt like that..."

" Am I the only one?" Sirius felt as if he were walking on hot coals.  Remus gazed at  his beautiful surroundings. He felt out of place, like he was intruding on something that wasn't his. 

" I don't... I don't think I can do this. I'm not rich or famous or talented. I don't belong here."

" You don't have to be any of those things! I like you, Remus. I don't want another fake person, I want you!"

For once in his life, Sirius had his heart on his sleeve. He had never felt this way before and he didn't want to take no for an answer.

" I can't, Sirius. I'm sorry."

Remus was shocked at himself. He always thought this was what he wanted, but now that it was real, that it was happening he wasn't sure anymore. This wasn't just a fantasy, if he did this he would be changing so much about his life. 

So he got up, thanked Sirius again, and left.

He tried not to watch as the tears poured down the other man's face.

He tried to ignore his own salty tears, wiping them away with the back of his hand.

He walked outside of the huge penthouse, back to the dirty streets of New York.

Back to a life of begging and selling himself.

Back to a life of admiring Sirius from afar.

And they both put the meeting out of their minds, pretending it didn't  happen.

And they pushed through the lives they had.

Finding themselves.

A/N

Oooof I know I could've done better with that one shot, but I am lost for inspiration. Maybe I'll do a part 3 if you want me too and I'll try to plan it out better, but I have a list of things I want to write so hopefully I'll work on those things soon. 

~S. Danielle