There was a light tap on my window and I rushed to open it. Chat slid into the room and dropped his transformation. His face brightened seeing me before it fell again.

“What’s wrong?” I asked, my brow furrowed in concern.

“You, love me, right? And you know that I love you too?” I nodded, not sure where exactly he was going with this. “Well, if it’s okay with you, I think we should break up.” I covered my mouth in shock. “Give me a second to explain!” He said hurriedly and I nodded for him to continue.

He gave a tired sighed. “How do I put this?” he hummed though fully, running his fingers through his hair. “Okay, so, you know how I was akumatized?”

“Yes?”

“Well I don’t remember anything so I’m relying on what everyone tells me and they all line up, all the stories. And in each one, I was terrible to you, I was relying on you too much and you didn't deserve that. Once my father was gone, I was lost, I didn’t know what to do so I turned to you and that wasn’t fair of me. I became Chat to give myself freedom but even then, I still had to be Chat for a reason other than my own, I couldn’t just be Chat for my own happiness, i needed someone like my dad to tell me what to do and once he was gone I needed someone else to and I accidentally put that burden on you.” he started pacing nervously.

“I love that being Chat means that I get to help people, that does make me happy and I fell for you because I was Chat and you make me really happy, I wouldn’t change any of that for the world. But what I don’t like is that I was still trapped as Chat by my father, the person I was always trying to escape. The only reason I got the miraculous is because he started akumatizing people. I love you, but I want to learn to be happy by myself. My whole life was never anything I wanted, like I never wanted to be a model! Even going to school was hard and I had to sneak out at first.

“So if it’s alright, I’m asking you to wait for me, you aren’t in any way obliged to and you can see who ever you want while I figure out who I am, I only hope that you will, again, you don’t have to and I’d completely understand if you didn’t want to because you’re an amazing girl and any one would be a fool not to ask you out-”

“Of course.” I interrupted him.

“You’re going to move on?”

“No, I mean of course I’ll wait for you. I really love you Chat and I think that’s a good idea. You do whatever you need to, I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself, you have done so much, you deserve this.” I grinned, a bittersweet feeling stirring in my stomach.

“I’m sorry about my long rant.”

“It’s okay, as long as you got that all off your chest” I shuffled my feet. “So how’s your aunt?”

“She’s alright I suppose-” He was cut off when I suddenly wrapped him up in a hug, burying my face in his chest. He said nothing as he did the same.

We stood in that silence for a long minute, neither of us talking, just enjoying the others' presence.

After what felt like ten minutes, I pulled away. “I’m sorry, I just- I wanted to do that”
“It’s okay princess, this isn’t our end, but I am going to miss this while I’m, you know,” He looked down at his shoes. “I should go now, my aunt will worry.” He made his way over to the window and threw one last glance at me before jumping out into the night.

I rushed to where he disappeared. “I’ll wait for you!” I called into the darkness. “No matter how long it takes, I’ll wait.”  I muttered, my shaky hands clutching the windowsill. I looked up at the starry sky, this time, nothing happened, a jolt of fear ran down my spine but that was it.

That night, my sheets pulled up over my head. I clung to my pillows, there were no tears, no heart ache, so why didn’t I feel fine? Why did I feel sick all of a sudden?

I love him, and I know he loves me back. I couldn’t be happier for him. Am I a terrible person to want to be selfish and go back in time to say no? Or instead, beg him to stay and not leave me?

I know I’ll be fine, I’ll pull myself together by tomorrow morning, but tonight, I’m going to let myself feel sad.

‘It’ll be alright’ I blinked, startled by T’s voice.

“I know, i just, is it supposed to feel like this? I knew heartbreak would hurt but I- I don’t know.”

“Marinette, I’ve had many holders.” I tugged down my covers to find Tikki sitting on my pillow next to me. “Love is one of the most amazing feelings ever and because it feels like that, it hurts that much more when it’s gone, but you still have it. It’s normal to feel hurt right now and you don’t have to get over it instantly, but I can tell that, it doesn't feel like you think it should because deep down, it’s still in your heart, both of your hearts’.”

‘She’s right you know, I can feel your emotions, cherish what you still have but give yourself a chance to mourn tonight. Besides, it’s not like he’s gone forever.’
“I- thank you, that means a lot.”
“Get some rest.” I nodded and laid back down.

When morning came, I awoke to a small book resting on the pillow next to me. I sat up, reading the title. It was the book I was reading before.
On the first page, I recognised Adrien’s neat handwriting.

‘Hey purrincess, I noticed you left this at my house and have yet to finish it. My mom used to read it to me, it was one of my favorites, I hope that this will keep you company while I can’t. I love you,
-Chat Noir’

I smiled at the note before shutting it and setting it aside to start the day. I was feeling noticeably better this morning from the rest and the note.

“Tikki? Spots on!” I was engulfed in a bright pink light. It be nice to just run through the city.

I was just approaching the eiffel tower when I was stopped by a reporter. It was Nadia and she was clearly out of breath from trying to catch up.

“Ladybug, I have a few questions if that’s alright.” I nodded and she continued. “First, How do you feel about your partner, Chat Noir being Adrien Agrest and his own father, Gabriel Agrest, being Hawkmoth?”

“Well, I don’t have much to comment on that. I’m glad we’ve finally found and caught Hawkmoth for the sake of Paris.”

“Would you say that Chat is still a danger to the city after being Chat Blanc? Do think it’s possible he could be working with his father?”

“No, of course not. He’s a good person and anyone could be Akumitized, being an Akuma doesn't make someone a bad person.”

“What about his father being Hawkmoth?”

“He is not his father, he is his own person who makes his own choices.”

“He kept a civilian locked up! Her name was Marinette Dupain-Cheng-”

“Yes, I’m well aware of that but she doesn't blame him for any of that and she stayed willingly. He gave me-her multiple chances to leave but she loved him so she stuck by him.”

“Lastly, Ladybug, now that Chat’s identity has been revealed, will you reveal yours?”

I was taken aback by that question. “That- that’s personal!- No comment! I’m still a teenager myself and don’t feel comfortable with that question.”

“My apologies Ladybug, thank you for your time, before you go, would you and Chat Noir be willing to stop by our studio to answer a few questions at say, 9?.”

“I’ll um, I’ll ask him.” I threw my yoyo as hard as I could, hoping to put a good distance between me and Nadia.

I finally rested once I got to the notre dame. My chest heaved as I drew deep breaths, trying to calm my racing heart. Should I have revealed my identity? I wanted to talk to Chat about it first but at the same time, I didn’t want to bother him with my silly problems. Besides, he has a lot on his plate already.

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Hey! Sorry this was late, I completely forgot and I'm sorry but at least I posted it! Also, happy pride month everyone! You are all amazing and valid and I love you! I hope everyone has an amazing day, thank you all so much for reading!