Whaaaat is this? An update... No, it hasn't been like 3 months.. Idk what you're talking about. But honestly tho.. This update shouldn't give you hope cuz I'm still gonna be bad at updating js.

"The words were dark but they kept on, craving an answer."

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"The empty?" I repeated incredulously. "Where exactly is 'the empty'". I emphasized the word, who gave it that name anyway, it didn't exactly give me a clue to were I was.. Unbeknownst to me that it told me everything I needed to know.

He just looked at me for a moment, probably wondered why he had to explain such things to a lesser being, but nonetheless he took a breath and spoke in a voice that was so disconcerting coming out of Castiel's mouth.

"It is neither here nor there, its not a place.. The empty is all around.. The place you now can call 'home'. Simply put, It where you go when you die, angels..demons. All of you come here. "

I huffed, I wasn't buying what he was trying to sell.. It was insane on a cosmic level. There was no place for angels after their task.. They just.. Wither.. And die.. We had no soul, we had no place. We were merely soldiers made for a cause.

Another thought also whispered into my mind, I couldn't be dead... Could I?

I could barely pull together my thoughts, my memories lay scattered.. Times in motel rooms.. Fights.. Music.. Monsters.. Everything was a puzzle and I can't pick which part had come last and which ones were first, everything was on one straight timeline that I couldn't distinguish.

"I'm not dead." I responded, staring into the darkness below me.

"Indeed you are, my dear." He responded promptly. "Have been for quite some time actually. Which does beg the question" he clenched his teeth, a forced smile glued to his lips. "Why are you awake?" His voice rose ever so slightly with every word and yet with every word it felt like a slap across the face.

"I.. " I stared at him, his previous words still needing to settle, and neither could have given him an answer to his question.

I am dead, what was left after death... This black hole that I had to stare off into for the rest of eternity, how is that right.. After everything.. I would surely go insane.

"I can't be dead." I almost whispered.

He gave an exasperated sigh. "You're just like him you know.. Refuse to believe you're dead. refuse to accept your new place in life. Let me guess.. You want me to send you back just like him, right?"

My eyes snapped up to the form of Castiel, his eyes weren't their usual striking azure but yet they had a dark glimmer to them. "You can do that?" I asked, a slight starting to simmer.

He looked explicitly bored with this whole conversation and like he debated killing me.. Again, apparently. "Of course I can. I am the empty after all.. But.. I won't."

"Why not?" I asked a little forcibly. Giving me the hope of escape and pulling it away.. It reminded me of Lucifer.. At least I knew how to converse with that idjit, I was beginning to feel the anger push up, why wouldn't he let me go. What could I possibly give him that he could want?

"Because I let you go.. Another awakes." He took a menacing step forward, tilting his head slightly but not in the angelic way that I used to see it on Castiel. "We.. We're going to find out why you are awake and then.. Well.. We are going to crush it."

A smirk tugged at the corners of his lips, a crazy look falling from his eyes as he gently put his palm against my forehead even though what followed was so far from gentle...