4-26-16
The fact that these days are over,
That every date I write down means another day down,
Used to send me into panic,
But now it only brings relief.
I want this over.
These days are so full of dictating emotions,
Yet they're so repetitive, it makes me sick.
Everything starts to spin.
- (m.m)

I'm so sorry, I promise, my friends are so much better in my head.
- (m.m)

You see, I didn't ask for this,
I can't help it.
The war inside my head is getting so fucking loud,
I worry that maybe somebody can hear it.
(Losing your sanity never feels quiet enough)
But maybe somebody would get me out.
That's my thought until I realize that's so impossible,
That I can't fucking get out.

It makes me scream and pull at my hair,
It takes the breath from my lungs and honey, it's not romantic,
It burns everything I touch,
It isolates me,
It takes over my sleeping schedule,
It kills me,
It's the cause for the decay in my bones,
It pushes me over the edge,
It makes me want to get destructive,
It takes over.
What is it?
I should be able to fucking take blame sometimes
But if I do that,
I won't love myself.
This is just a demon that lurks and lingers and has hungry eyes.
- (m.m)

And I need you to stay
Because you're all that I've got these days.
- (m.m)

This feeling has to go away sometime,
I've gotta learn to breathe
I've gotta learn to sleep.
But right now,
Everything slowed down
And I'm content with that.
---- same sort of concept, different subjects and reasoning I guess----
So let's breathe the air,
Let's stargaze like we do,
Let's stop everything
And maybe it'll get slow for a second
Because your eyes seem to take me home.
Tonight,
The skies are as clear as rain,
And I'm in needing of being saved.
- (m.m)

Obsessed with I'm Low On Gas and You Need A Jacket by Ptv like i never fully obsessed but now it's just gaaah <333 bands honestly keep me alive and idk what I'd do without my music tbh