12-7-15 forty six days clean
I watch you from feet away.
Why does it feel like thousands of miles stand between us?

You say you'll change and I believe it when you fill me with guilt (god, we were the one thing I didn't want to fuck up),
Making me believe I'm hurting you,
But you never change.
It seems you want to control my emotions.
I don't need that shit outside of my house.

You leave me like everyone else does.
I'm sick of watching people walk away.
I want something to last.
It makes me sick that I can't fall asleep and tell you I love you. I'm going to hold onto bands, writing, and youtubers, and drown everything out.
I'm going to be so wrapped up in chasing my dreams that I can't even see the rest of the world.
I don't give a shit right now;
I'm alive for me.
- (m.m)

This turned more positive bc Throne came on my shuffle and I yayed. That's my warrior song. I just love bmth though so.. lol