Written 3-19-16
You lit a cigarette and I fell in love,
Driving in your car, streetlights above
You became my drug
And i couldn't get enough

I remember the night back on fifth street
When you kissed me
And sparks ran through my blood
Yet again, I fell in love

I remember the downs and the ups
I'd lie and say you were my only drug
And true, I was so in love
Love love love but I was slipping

You bit your lip and your eyes met mine
I'll say it for the millionth time-
I was in love.
You smelled like smoke and safety,
we watched the lights of the city
Baby I was burning down,
But your lips took me to solid ground
- (m.m)

Don't know why that's in past tense, really lol again, I'm mixing reality with the shit in my head ;)

3-21-16
I'm connected
But disconnected.

One second I'm here, alive, living,
I'm one with the trees and the sky and the stars and my life,
But the next,
I'm vacant,
The walls feel empty and all I see is white.
Either way, I'm somewhere in my head,
Even if I'm half present.

If I let you in, the rooms get cold
But these conflicting emotions are getting old,
You may be toxic, or so I've been told,
But you're so damn tempting.
So trigger me, throw me out to sea,
I wanna start sinking.

I hate that I have so much to love,
So much to not throw away for a bottle and heavy thoughts.

Take me back to the start tonight,
I'll remember why I'm in it for life,
I'll remember what that pain felt like,
But I'll shut it off before the ache kills me.
Actually,
Let's not do that.
Let's look ahead at the open road before us,
Forget the pain of the past and the future and everything in between.
Let's live.
Without regret.
- (m.m)

Not sure where that went or where it was supposed to go but it's there and it says a lot. So yeah. :)