1-5-15 forty four days clean
I know you used to love me
But can't you see I'd be dead without you?

You're stuck inside your head
And I'm afraid you'll watch me disappear from your grasp with a sickening smirk.
And it'll kill me.

All of these questions swirl inside of my head.
I think that you'll never love me.
I think that you fell out of love with me as easily as I fell in love with you.
Trust me, I can see your motives.
We come from different worlds and I'm nothing compared to you.

Sometimes, when the air is cold and the sky is pink, I feel you at my fingertips, an icy wins breathing through me. I wanted us to last but the winter air doesn't stay forever. Funny how I'm still stuck here in January when your Arizona blood says December is enough. I'm used to winter here.

You're fine without me.
That's not hard to believe.
The hard part about it is the fact that you can live without me while I watch myself decay for you.

"I know you're gone now
But I still wait for you,
Wait for you" - PVRIS

- (m.m)