2-12-16
Everything hurts
I feel it in my chest,
My lungs start to collapse.
My mind is racing,
Rewinding everything and hitting play
Just to see how hard it can hit me.

I hate that my first poem about you is like this.
It should be about your smile or your laugh
Or these feelings you fill me with.
It should be about how much freedom you hold within your eyes.

But it's not.

Because I'm stuck at a crossroad,
That's why my whole body is in little shards,
Scattered across the snowy gravel.

I can't stand to lose two people I love like this.
I can't stand to look in the mirror and know how destructively this will end.

It's not just you, or her, it's everything.
I've got so much shit in my head,
I can't help but feel I'm going to run out of room,
But I've still got so many holes of empty oxygen in my bones,
Eternally awaiting something to fill the void.

I'm confused.
I'm stuck at a red light,
But all I want is to go go go.
- (m.m)