7-22-16
The way your hands fit on my body
Is addictive.
No strings attached,
But loving you is instinctive.
Somehow it feels your hands are at my neck now,
And im begging you to take me,
To just fucking have me.

How much fault can I fit in the spaces between my fingers,
How much until it's too much?
Too much too little too late
Im on the floor screaming
But still I stay here and wait.
They say im changing..
Scary thing is, I see it, too,
But I don't see it at all.
It's like a hallucination
(Those have been frequent you know)
Because I don't know what went wrong.
I don't think im different
I think I've just been fucking things up.
I mean, isn't that what I've done all along?
And I know I haven't lost myself
Because I still accept my fuck ups
And I've been working my ass off writing raps, and doing what I love.

Maybe these ideas aren't as crazy as they seem,
Maybe you aren't looking to pick me apart,
Destroy my every seam.
Maybe you need somebody
Just as bad as me.
Maybe this is a mess,
One that I can't clean.
Is my mistake
The fact that im doing it single handedly?
I've stained your carpet
Im a fucking machine.

The lines blur together
And your body feels safe
Im shaking like a motherfucker
But you hold me tight anyways.
The streetlights put us on display,
Sometimes I wonder your motives to stay
Because im your fucking hero,
Yet I just need to be saved
I walk alone and im fine with that,
But it'd be nice if someone would look me in my goddamn eyes and say
"I'll stay.
I mean it.
I know life is complicated,
You don't understand its meaning
Because you've lost yourself
On that road to st eden
But you're still inside,
I know it I can see it
You're still up in the clouds,
Man, you're still dreaming
And I know im only human,
But I've got this superhuman feeling
You feel it too?"
- (m.m)

I'll update again soon. Maybe tonight? I'm working on a poem that I'm in love with, I just know I'll have more to add to it before today's over, so yeah that'll be up soon. I love you and I appreciate you reading this, taking that much out of your day for my art.

Also fuck shit up :D