7-20-16
THE PEOPLE ARE DROPPING LIKE FLIES AND FUCK IT ALL BECAUSE IS SHE REALLY GOING TO BE THERE TO HOLD YOU AND MAKE YOU FEEL SAFE? IT'S ALL I DESERVE, BECAUSE LOVE IS PAIN AND THIS IS SO MUCH PAIN FROM TOO MANY SOURCES AND I FELT IT ALL COMING AND HOLY SHIT.
WHEN YOU CHEAT AND GET CHEATED ON.
WHEN HE WALKS OUT BECAUSE YOUR ANGRY MANIA IS SOMETHING HE CAN'T HANDLE
WHEN WORDS SOUND SWEET
BUT ACTIONS SPELL DECEIT.
WHEN YOUR MOM KICKS YOU OUT
AND PUTS YOU THROUGH HELL
YET YOU CAN'T LEAVE,
WHY IS IT SO HARD?
WHEN YOU BATTLE DEMONS IN YOUR HEAD
TRYING NOT TO LET IT SUFFOCATE YOU
WHEN YOU RISE THROUGH IT
TELL YOURSELF YOU'RE STRONG ENOUGH
CLING TO THE FUCKING MUSIC
AND START TYPING.
WHEN YOU KNOW YOU'RE NOT THE KIND OF PERSON
THESE LAST FEW DAYS HAVE SHOWN,
WHEN YOUR WORDS ARE NEVER LOUD ENOUGH
LOUD ENOUGH LOUD ENOUGH
I'LL SCREAM TILL MY BONES SNAP AND SHATTER
LOUD ENOUGH YET?
MAYBE YOU'LL FUCKING BELIEVE ME.
WHEN THE BODIES BLUR TOGETHER
AND YOU KNOW YOU'VE GOTTA CHANGE SOMETHING
BECAUSE THIS WON'T END GOOD

PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME YOU SEE ME
THE REAL ME
THAT I'M NOT LOST TO MY MISTAKES TO YOU.
BECAUSE I SEE ME HERE
AND MAYBE ALL I AM IS ANGER AND EXPERIENCE
AND I'M FASCINATED.
THE LAST SIX MONTHS HAVEN'T SLOWED DOWN YET.
I REPLAY IT FROM THAT HAZY WEEK OF LATE NIGHTS
PILLS AND TOO MUCH SLEEP.
TO THE MESS OF PEOPLE
TO ME SITTING HERE AS THEY FALL AWAY.
I GIVE IT MY ALL
YET I'LL BURN YOU DOWN IF YOU DO SO TO ME.
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME,
BECAUSE IT'S GETTING REAL HARD TO BREATHE
AND IT'S GETTING HARD TO SEE HOW IT ENDS GOOD
BUT I'M IN IT BECAUSE I CAN HANDLE IT.
THEY SAY I'VE CHANGED AND I KNOW I'VE GOTTEN MYSELF INTO QUITE THE SET OF CIRCUMSTANCES,
I'VE REALLY OUTDONE MYSELF HERE.
WE'LL TAKE IT DAY BY DAY,
AND WE'LL BE ALRIGHT,
BECAUSE YOU CAN READ THIS
OR YOU CAN FEEL THIS.
AND IF YOU CAN FEEL THIS,
THANK YOU,
WE IN IT FOR LIFE
BECAUSE I'M NOT LEAVING IF YOU WON'T
AND IF YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH ANYTHING LIKE THE SHIT IN THIS POEM,
WE DON'T FUCK AROUND WITH THAT STATEMENT.
TELL ME YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SPITTING OUT IS TRUTH.
- (m.m)