7-7-16
You're like a sedative,
Yet my stomach ties itself
In knots
Over you.

I start thinking of what happened,
I have that minute of
Panic.
You're not here, you left,
Im alone, I've
Lost
You.
In my head, I can hear the echoes
Of your words,
How you'd talk slow when you said you love me,
When you told me nothing was going on
And im such a goddamn fool for you,
Just hearing it again,
I almost fall for it.
I believe you.
I believe you even if I know the truth.
I believe those words held truth in them at some point,
I believe maybe they still hold truth.
- (m.m)

And if you don't know where im at,
You should know im up with the clouds.
Physically, down here,
Im gathering pieces,
Picking up broken glass
Like im collecting evidence.
It's all going to look something like
A mismatched puzzle,
With everything from home
Clicking into place.
It won't click, though,
The edges aren't perfect,
But Im working on it.

You should know the taillights
I clean off the pavement
And hold tightly in my palms,
Hoping it'll cut,
Is all a tribute to you.
You crashed into me,
Our bodies and worlds colliding.
I've soaked into the pavement,
Because my machine parts are broken-
Im afraid I have to be human and feel now.
I don't think this was all
Collateral damage,
Like you say it was.
I didn't swerve,
I didn't slow down.
I fucking floored it.

And maybe the bruising on your neck
Makes me want to bruise something else,
But in a less romantic way,
Makes me want to shatter glass,
Because that's what you did to my
Windshield, right?
(Babe we were no "accident")
I know I should be that set of lips,
I know I was that set of lips.
Oh please tell me how I let you get away.
- (m.m)
Idk i think i like this so much because I connect it to very physical actual things in my life, I like the things my life inspires. Even just little things, they turn into something bigger and incredible.

I wake up with yet another nose bleed and that's how I know you're still in my veins, that I'll never get rid of you.
- (m.m)