Yeah..... I started re-writing this book again. I hope you like it. Let me know any suggestions and feedback. Enjoy.

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Everything suddenly changed around me. I was happy. I was smiling again, and it was only for him. He brought back the life in me that I never thought of capable of getting back. The pain was still there, in some part of my mind, but it wasn't hurting that bad. A new hope-filled my mind with so many thoughts. 

After I came back last time, I was smiling. As I walked inside the door, my mom looked at me with a quizzical look and asked-" Who made you blush like that?"

I was being brought back to attention quickly as I tried to hide the flush that had all over my face.

"Uhm... No one..."

I ran back to my room, as I wanted to avoid her. 

My mother was a crazy woman. Utterly romantic and supportive. But she was a little hyper too. This is the reason I didn't want to tell her everything right away. I knew she would come to know eventually, but still, I would want to hide this matter from her until and unless I was sure about it.

I didn't want to make mistakes like the last time. 

I was close to my mother more than my dad. Usually, daughters used to be daddy's princesses, but here I was my mother's only queen. My dad was the exact opposite of my mom. I wonder sometimes, how the hell did they get a love marriage like that?

My mom was a beautiful fair-skinned lady. Her light brown eyes and warm smile made her my favourite. She was an overdramatically hyper lady. This is why I usually am scared to share everything with her. 

But at the same time, she is one of my best friends that I can rely on. If she knew about him, she would have definitely asked me to make her meet him, which I wanted to avoid right now. 

My dad was a serious type of man. He never talked much unlike my mom who starts her radio when she woke up no matter if anyone is listening or not. I never had really seen him laughing much. But what I knew was he cared for us. He loved us dearly. In the fact, my dad was the most honest man I have seen all my life. 

He was the one who taught me to be a self-independent woman and a better human. He always had taught me how to fight for myself whereas he also taught me how to grow independently. He showed me the value of life and how we should utilize it. He valued his words so much. 

Most importantly he taught that love can be done silently too. You don't need to show it out loud to the world to show off when actually you can care for the person whom you love. I adore this quality of him the most. 

I came back to my room and I closed my door quickly. My heart was still beating so fast from what happened earlier. I was panting to be sure. I kept my hands on my chest and saw my heart was not in the mood to calm down tonight. I dropped my bag on the nearest chair as I let myself fall back to the soft mattress of my bed. 

I was happy after a long day. Since the day Sanjay had left, I had spent most of my days crying. And for the first time after these days, I was feeling happy about my existence. He was magical. The evening was magical. Everything about today felt like a fairytale to me. 

I was smiling like an Idiot. 

While the kiss repeated in my head my phone rang bringing me back to reality. It was Attu.

"Shit"- I cursed myself as I totally had forgotten about her. I was supposed to call her 45 minutes ago. She left end numbers of messages and calls while I haven't been replied to her anything back. Stupid me. 

I immediately picked up the phone as I said from those sides of the phone-" Hey... babe... I am so sorry. I just reached home. I am safe. I was in the cab and my phone was not silent and before you ask about him. Yes, he was just like magic" I blurted out before she could speak anything. 

I know she was angry, and I was waiting for her long lectures, but instead, she squealed in joy and replied-" Seemed like you had fun tonight!!! tell me everything ' in details ' before I just kick your ass off for avoiding me"

I rolled my eyes at her though she cannot see me. I replied-" well... I don't know where to start but he made me feel like an I'm in a fairy tale"

" Did he take you to the moon on his campus? Damn that was kinda hot"

" Jeez!!! That was not it, but we.... did make out... In the terrace..."

" Shut up... You did not!!" I know it was hard for her to believe. 

" Well... I kinda did so..."

"Tell me everything bitch"

I laughed as she did too. I told her everything that happened that evening. I was excited to share everything with her. Well, I was kinda nervous about what kind of guy he will be... or will he be accepting me as I am? But she was right... there will be someone who'd accept me as I am, without judging. I was happy to finally meet him. I told her everything that we had and how I felt. I told her about his little gesture which made me feel special.

I was never been touched by a man before in a sexual way. I wanted to wait. Wait for the right guy that would steal my heart before stealing my virginity. Sanjay never forced me. I was thankful to him for that. We kissed a few times but that was it. 

I use to wonder sometimes if that was the reason why left me? Did he got fed up if my excuses?

But I didn't want to remember him tonight. I was happy to be finally back in my own world. 

" Wow..." Attu said but that was a little off tone. I don't know why she sounded like that? Was she not happy for me?

"Why do you sound like there is something you want to tell me but you arent"- I finally asked. 

She sighed before she replied-" Well. I don't want to be the monster who tells you to stay a little safe on the day when you are happy for the first time in this month."

"what do you mean?" I was confused by her words.

She kept silent. I was getting impatient as I asked again-" Will you tell me already? You are making me sacred"

She took a deep breath before she tells me-" Well. You are naive about this Wendy. And I want to warn you before you fell into the traps of these mean social cultures. From what you told me, it looks like he is a player... And I don't want..."

"Shut up!!! He is not." I fired back. I was offended by her reply.

"You didn't even see him or met him. I did. He was a good guy" I answer in a little fury.

" Wendy I didn't mean it like that. It's just that I met a lot of people more than you did so... it was not rational for a boy like him to fall in love with you over one night!!"

"Are you telling me that I was too bad to even get someone's love?" I spat.

" I didn't mean it like that okay?". She tried to make me understand but I want to have her bullshit right now. 

I disconnected the call and throw my mobile somewhere in the bed. I was pissed off by her. Sometimes she behaves like my mom, more than my mom.

Shubbu was nothing like that. He couldn't be. All these cannot be a lie. 

I walked up to my full lengthed mirror as I looked at myself. I don't look beautiful like her, but I was me. I was happy to be me. No makeup, no hiding. Just real me. And I always hoped that the guy I will fall in love with me must love the real me. 

I changed to my nightgown as I cane back to my bed. 

"I am sorry" Attu texted me.

It was true that I couldn't stay angry with her for more than 10 minutes. 

"I am sorry too" I replied.

"Let's meet tomorrow in the evening in our cafe?". She asked.

"Agreed"

"Love you bitch"

"I love you bitch". I replied with a smile and closed her text.

It was 10:30 at night. I didn't have dinner today as I was already full. I opened his text as I saw he was online. But he didn't text me anything. 

Was Attu right about him? Was I just a passing hookup for him? Was he the same as others?

My heart sank as I kept watching his profile with a sad face. 

Happiness didn't really is for me... is it? I was being stupid all over again. I closed my screen as I stared at the ceiling with all these silly and complicated thoughts in my head. I was back to being in the dungeons of sadness and grief. 

"PING"

My notification popped up and I opened it in a second. I was hoping it would be him but rather it was Sumit.

"Hey I am so sorry I stood you up today"

"You better be. I was feeling like a fool"

" I know and I am so sorry about it. I promise if it was not an emergency in my office I wouldn't be acting like a jerk"

"You could have texted me at last"

"My battery died"

I have seen the text but didn't know what to reply to. 

"I promise I will make it up to you. I have to leave for Bangalore tomorrow morning. I will be back next month. Let's meet up then? I promise I will make up for this time too"

Next month was far away. I didn't know what could happen in this one month. 

"Okay," I replied.

I was a little sad about not getting any text from him. So I turned my screen off and was about to keep the phone on the nightstand when another notification chimed. 

I lazily opened and this time my heart skipped a beat when I was it was from him.

"Hey... I am sorry for such an ass. I was really nervous to text you. I am sorry for today if you felt bad about what happened earlier. I should have taken permission from you. I didn't mean to be jumped all on you. But I gotta admit that you are tempting"

A smile crept up on my face when I read his texts. So that was the reason why he didn't text me back. he was nervous too. 

I don't really know what to reply to him. Was he thinking that I didn't like him? It was the opposite. I need to tell him. I mastered myself and wrote a really long text.

" Thank you for today. I don't blame you. I was carried away with you too. Tonight was really amazing. I really haven't laughed so much in this month and today you made me so happy. Thank you so much for this amazing evening. You feel like magic to me. I was being such a baby not being able to say you anything, probably because of how nervous I was. I haven't had any date before like this. Thank you for making it so special."

The message was seen immediately. But it took him really long to reply to me back with two smiley emojis.

Now, what the hell does it suppose to mean?

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

Alrighty, she is in love again and I can feel this gonna be a long one. Guys grab your popcorns cuz this book has a lot of drama.