"Rain. You going somewhere?" Kane asked me.

"Yes." I nod.

"You've been acting weird all day. You okay?" He asked.

"Fine." I sigh.

"Well, good luck, if you need anything-" 

"I'm fine." I hiss.

He draws back. I walk off. Truth be told, this day is a hard one for me. I have a history with this day. This day brings all the hell back. That was Hell when I was the most scared, when I was frozen. I swallowed the memories back. I walk outside the wall.

I walk through the forests and the snow. It's far from here. Not too far, but pretty far. I walk over the flowers and the leaves. I stop when I come across a cornflower. I take it. It will do. I walk to a ruin. A ruin of buildings and skeletons. Webs were there and there was a foul stench. This village was once mine. I grip my heart. Yeah, I take it it still hurts.

I stop at two graves. I put the flower at the bottom of one.

"I'm sorry." I kneel before the graves. 

I remember everything. It's been fifteen years. I remember the horror I've witnessed. I remember my screams. I remember dooming them. I remember hurting them so. I let out a breath.

"I still love you." I say to them. 

I don't know if they'll ever forgive me. I can't forgive myself.