I'll wish you back
I'll wish you back
Sometimes I'm gonna get hurt
But I'll call you until you come back

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Jisung's eyes lazily fluttered open, the clarity of outside's morning sun making him groan lightly and shove his head deeper into the pillow.

Except as soon as he took a deep breath, he realized it was not a pillow.

He gulped, not daring to open his eyes again as the older moved against him, groaning as well and slightly letting go of the hug in his sleep.

Shit.

Jisung let out a shaky breath as he moved too, making sure Minho was asleep and lifting his body up on his elbows to stare at his bestfriend.

The brown haired had a slight smile on, probably either dreaming or just trying to make Jisung go crazy, his heart was messy and fluffy, and Jisung wanted to run his hand through it too bad. He wanted to lean in and capture the lips he had grown used to too bad for what their deal was.

So he got up, shaking, mind running, all the voices up at it again, louder than the usual.

What had he done?

Why had they broken the deal? What happened now?

He grabbed a random hoodie from their room, pretending to not know it was Minho's, and stepped outside, yawning and running his eyes through the almost empty room.

"Morning.", he told Hyunjin, falling down on the couch next to him. "Everything okay?"

"Morning. I'm bored.", he shrugged. "Chan and Changbin are with the doctor, the others are sleeping and Felix is cooking breakfast."

Jisung's head perked up at the information.

"He's at the kitchen?" Hyunjin nodded. "I'll be back then."

Even if he felt bad about leaving the bored guy alone again on his phone, his whole body was screaming for him to go to Felix.

He needed to talk.

He finally saw the taller alone in a whole week, and he smiled a bit at the dancing cook, twice songs blasting on his earphones as he hummed and danced in tiny.

Jisung sat on the counter next to him and smiled at the startled guy, who slapped his tight.

"You scared me!", he took the earphones off, mixing something into a pan. "Slept well?"

"Yep. What are you cooking?"

Felix shrugged, looking back at his phone, a cooking page opened.

"No idea to be honest. Why are you awake this early?"

Jisung looked back at the clock.

"It's 10 am Felix.", he chuckled at the confused face. "I usually wake up earlier to go to the studio but I'm the only 3racha member here right now."

Felix nodded, bitting his lip.

"Changbin's appointment, yes. I couldn't sleep since they left." Jisung hummed, taking a bit of bread from his side and stuffing his mouth. "Hey! Don't! You won't be hungry after."

Jisung slapped Felix's hand away and swallowed what he had, whining about Felix taking the bread away.

He cleaned his throat the second after, remembering what he wanted to do There.

"Okay, you're serious all of a sudden, should I be scared?"

Jisung shook his head, taking a deep breath.

"I'm about to tell you a secret, that no one knows about, not even Chan Hyung.", he whispered, and Felix's smile faded. He nodded, stepping closer to his friend.

"Not even Minho Hyung?"

Jisung's heart jumped.

"He knows but... he doesn't know I'm telling you and h-he can't know.", his eyes darted around the room. "It's just that I really need to talk to someone about it and it can't be him."

Felix furrowed his eyebrows.

"Why? You guys talk about everything."

"Yes, but... well you tell Chan everything."

Felix shrugged.

"Yeah."

"So, imagine...", Jisung fiddled with his fingers, before whispering as he would rap, so fast Felix had to take a moment to understand it in his head. "If you guys were fuck buddies and he started to make you feel weird you wouldn't go and ask him "Oh Dude, my heart is beating fast around you what should I do?"now would you?"

Felix's face contorted in shock, understanding and a thousand other emotions before he reached to turn the stove off and gulped

"No. I'd come to you.", Jisung showed him a small smile. "You and Minho? Oh god, for how long?"

Jisung bit his lip.

"Quite a while. But-"

"And you're only feeling like that now? Sounds fake."

Jisung rolled his eyes, hitting Felix's shoulder.

"He's my bestfriend, of course my heart always acted weird around him when he was cuddly and stuff, but... look we have a deal. This is for stress releasing. There's no cute pet names, no cuddles, no-"

"Fuck and leave?", Felix slapped his own face. "Jisung, aftercare is the most important thing ever! What do you do after... you know?"

The shorter felt his face heat up.

"He leaves to his bed. It's the deal-"

"The deal is stupid and bad for both your mental health's. Why did you even decide that?"

Jisung gulped, his voice small.

"So we didn't catch feeling for each other because we're a kpop group and that's dangerous."

Felix scoffed.

"And how is that working out for you?"

"I'm not catching feelings!"

Felix sighed, taking Jisung's hand in his, the shorter still on the counter.

"Jisung, hearts don't fell weird with bestfriend's just because they are cuddly. That was the first part only and I can already see you are not feeling like that just from now." Jisung let his head fall, eyes closed and heart fastening at the direction of the conversation. "This isn't something you can control but come on! How did you think you wouldn't catch feelings?"

"We're doing well-"

"Jisung.", their eyes locked, and the older held his breath. "Everyone knows you like each other. Since the survival show, even before maybe. You are just stupid for thinking you can act like this and suppress it."

"Suppress what?", they both turned to see a sleeping Minho by the entrance of the kitchen. Jisung let out a squeak that got his attention, and his bestfriend furrowed his eyebrows. "Everything okay?"

Felix squeezed Jisung's hand, smiling and turning the stove on again.

"Great. Just talking."

Minho pouted, walking over to the shorter.

"With him you talk?"

Jisung sighed.

"Min-"

"I'm sorry.", he blurted out immediately. "I'm sorry. I know."

"Min.", Jisung called again, pretending Felix wasn't right next to them, actually g as normal as he could as they would before. "I'm the one who's sorry. Okay?"

The older smiled a bit, closing the gap between him and the counter, pulling Jisung's head closer and placing a kiss on his forehead.

They didn't say anything else, the younger pulled him into a hug, and pulled them to the other side of the kitchen so he didn't have to deal with Felix's looks.

They stayed in the comfortable hug for as long as they could, and Jisung wandered, for every minute, if the older's heart was beating as fast as his own.

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But I'll call you until you come back
Let's go back to those times, our day day
To how it was, turn everything back back back

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He he he