(⚠️ mentions of sexual assault⚠️)
(⚠️panic attacks!⚠️)
(⚠️abuse⚠️)

Y/N's POV

Another white hot bolt of pain jolted her body as the blow met it's mark, her spine.  Tears warmed her face and ran into her nose, her mouth, her ears. Her fathers yelling was drowned out by the howling in her head.  Her hands and feet were bound to the bed, as they had been many times before.  She hated it just as much now as she had then, but now it was a punishment for not excelling at combat in the way Thor or even Loki did. She was a healer, she wasn't meant to harm but to sew back together. She had put her brothers back together more times them she could count. Fighting and holding a sword seems Foreign to her.

She fought back a sob as rough hands tore through the fabric of her fine tunic. She didn't ask for this. Who would ask for this?  What did she do? Why can't she please him in any other way then this? Even this didn't please him. It just soothed him enough to be tolerable.    
Why couldn't she be more like Thor? Odin even liked Loki more then he like her.

His hands were squeezing and pulling and touching. Every touch felt like it burned, like someone was sticking a fire poker into her thighs, her stomach, her-

Then she was gasping, trying to breath through the hitching sobs ripping through her chest. Franticly sitting up and moving to the edge of the bed and into the warm safe feeling of her older brothers arms.

Loki's hands stayed firmly in the same place on her upper back, between her shoulder blades. Even as she was nestled safely under his chin as he whispered to her. Even as her sobs slowly calmed to hiccups and her breathing returned to normal, his hands stayed. They stayed until she gently moved back, looking at the ground in shame.

"Y/N. Are you alright?" One of Loki's hands was now on her shoulder, the other gently moving through the knots in her hair.

"I don't think so." She moved to hug him again and he followed. They moved to lay on the bed. Loki swearing to watch her in the night.

Well wasn't that chapter super fucking late. I'm sorry lovelies! I really did plan to get this out sooner and I'm sorry I didn't. I'm also sorry its so short. I can't promise that update will be more frequent because I know myself and that's not true. But I do love you all and I hope you have a good day/night/evening. Byeeeeeeeee