This chapter is a bit of a tmi situation so be warned

So, I went to Pink to get my cup size measured today because over the last month or so my boobs have been spilling out of my bra and I decided it was getting really uncomfortable and I wanted to see if I was crazy. I had suspected that they had gotten bigger but I'm thinking to myself, "Shelby, you're 18 years old. Your boobs are done growing, don't be weird."

Nope, I'm now a 36DDD in Victoria Secrets, which is around a 36/38DD for any other bra

And you know what that means?

It means I'm getting fatter, despite my recent efforts to lose weight

... I'm really starting to lose hope here. I thought I could do it but those awful thoughts are knocking on the door and I just want to be skinny ;;-;;