Do you ever convince yourself to do something because you feel like someone's relying on you, and you need to be a good friend and do it?

But at the same time you're a selfish piece of shit and don't wanna do it and do something for yourself instead?

...

Yeah.

... I feel so awful about it. Either way I go I feel damned.

But at least if I do this for my friend, then no one besides me is upset, right?