I didn't know it was supposed to thunderstorm tonight

I even checked.

I check every morning for storms so I can mentally prepare myself for them.

But guess what just rolled into town ;-;

I hate storms

I thought once Angel passed away, I'd get less anxious about them (I figured that her being anxious was what was making me so nervous about them) but I'm still super nervous about them.

So I tried my hardest to try and think of why I'm scared of storms, because I used to love them. I would literally beg my mom to let me go outside and watch the lightning.

And I remembered this one time when I was playing soccer for my middle school team (like, a little over three years ago), we were playing Novi, and we could see the storm coming in the distance, but we didn't see any lightning, so we kept playing.

And then it got windy.

We kept playing.

Then the tornado sirens went off.

Which by itself, wasn't that big of a deal... I mean, thinking about it now, its really scary, but in the moment I was just angry that we wouldn't be able to finish the game (I'm very competitive), but once we got inside and they locked the doors I looked around and realized that my family wasn't inside.

I remember I called them at least 10 times trying to contact them and once they answered I found out they were still outside in the car and I was super scared that the tornado would come and take the car away.

Thinking about it now, tornados here hardly ever get passed F1 level strength but I wasn't really thinking about that I thought was gonna lose my entire family.

So thinking about it now that might actually be why storms make me anxious now.