Nina

I can't sleep. My head is throbbing with pain. I'm tired, very very much. You know sometimes I can't understand myself, I mean I was good at forgetting the past, literally every memory related to it but now.....

Every time I close my eyes I can only see him. I get frustrated when I'm desperate. For me being desperate is far worse than being sad. After all these years we are back to square one. Damn

why?

why?

why?

I was better off forgetting him.

People say that the fruit of patience is very sweet. But Alas! can someone tell me how much patience? How much one has to wait? I feel like I've been waiting my entire life. I waited all those years at high school, then this 4 years, the last week and then when I'll meet him again tomorrow

I'll still be in the waiting list

Alex

Man, tomorrow it must snow or else I'm gonna kill this weather forecasting people, I swear. Well I don't know why am I being so superstitious and kind of girly but I guess I just believed what I read-

First snow is like first love

For me its not first love but it can be a new beginning. Tomorrow is the day I've been waiting for since I first felt my heart race at the mention of someone's name. I am not scared because for once I want to know just the outcome whether it is positive or negative. I've struggled all these years fighting hard to keep my mental balance, I was nearly on the verge of losing hope. But one lesson I learnt is-

Silence can cause a lot of pain, more pain than a sharp knife can.

So ever since I have never remained silent, I've spoken my heart out not fearing the outcome.

But then again sometimes I wonder how my life would have turned out if I had not taken admission in that school again. I wonder.......

what have you done to me?

what have you done to me Nina?