A week went by as I cried and cried now, I didn't know what else to do, he would silently look at me as I kept on crying.

Losing sanity slowly, I don't know what I should do with my life at this point.

I want the life I had before, I'm not asking for something impossible although it feels like it's impossible now.

I've become suicidal now!

I thought as I stared at my reflection in the Washroom and I felt miserable, I just wanted to kill myself, die then and there.

I walked out of the Washroom and had a blade in my hand as I just sat on the bed and started making cuts all over my arms.

I increased the pace and was making more and more cuts, I threw the blade as it hit the wall and fell on the floor while I screamed in frustration.

I just sat there holding my hair in my hands crying while my arms were all bloody red.

He came into the room as he looked at the blade on the floor, picking it up he came and sat beside me as he stared at my face silently.

I sat there silently beside him, my eyes lost in the emptiness of my life.

"Please kill me Namjoon, I don't want to live anymore."

I said and looked at him as he just stared at me, he got up and left the room while I looked at him leaving and laid on the bed, crying silently.

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I woke up as a new morning came into my life with the same heart breaks, it didn't greet me like it did before.

But something unexpected happended today!

I found the painting I bought for him and smiled at it as I hanged it on the wall in our room.

I stood on the balcony and looked outside at the beauty of nature.

The Winter came.

I stood there in silence, closing my eyes as I felt the cold breeze against my skin.

I didn't realise when he came and stood beside me as he looked at me and kept staring.

Something in him was changing, the way his stare went from an aggressive one to a soft one now.

We both stood there looking into each other's eyes, looking for the love we held before although it never left us.

The cold winter warmed our cold hearts, it gave us the comfort we were looking for, it reminded us of the past, the beautiful memories we made before.