I decided to make some strawberry puffs for the boys, one of my personal favorites. I haven't gotten to make them yet, I guess I just hadn't thought about it too much. These are low in calories compared to other stuff I make, so the boys don't have to worry about gaining much weight.

Jimin has been in the studio a lot more since the incident, and he barely eats much at all. I can't help but pout a bit, since I know this isn't the first time he's done this. All of ARMY was worried before when he got so dangerously skinny, but then again, I don't have any room to talk do I?

I finish filling the last puff with a sigh, feeling a bit revolted by the sight of them. I haven't eaten in a couple days, but I simply haven't felt hungry at all.

The diet Jin made for me kind of went out the window, I told him I'd take care of making the food on the list for myself. I didn't want to burden him any more since he's mostly taking care of Jungkook.

Speaking of, I think to myself, looking up towards the stairs. I haven't heard anything from him at all since I've gotten home, and I've been trying desperately to ignore the heavy weight I feel coming off of him. Maybe I should go check on him, see if he needs anything.

I place a few of the pastries on a plate and make my way upstairs, my shoes scuffling against the hardwood floor. I gently knock on the maknae's door at the end of the hall, hoping that Jungkook won't turn me away. Again.

"Usagi?" I call in a soft tone. "May I come in?"

There is no response from the other side of the door, and after a few seconds I quietly let myself in. The room is completely dark, the curtains closed and blocking out any light trying to come through the window.

I notice a large lump in the man's bed, so I slowly close the door behind me before heading over to the maknae.

"I made some pastries..." I whisper, setting the plate on his nightstand. Jungkook is quietly staring at the wall, his back to me as I take a seat on the edge of his bed. I'm surprised he didn't have the door locked like he usually does, he only ever gets up to unlock it for Jin.

"How was your appointment.." Jungkook asks, his voice barely above a whisper. I blink a couple times in surprise, I didn't even think he knew about it since he wasn't there when I told the rest of the boys.

"I could hear you all talking downstairs," he continues, as if he could read my mind.

"It went well.." I reply with a sad smile. "I still have to rest for a little while, but I can dance and work out and climb stairs without struggling now."

Jungkook merely nods, and the next few moments are spent in silence. I don't know what else to say, but just before I was about to get up to leave I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist.

"Stay.... please.." I hear his voice cracking behind me. I look over to find him staring up at me with teary eyes, the sight breaking my heart just a little. "At least until the others come back.."

I feel the corners of my mouth turn up into a sad smile, nodding my head in response. "Of course, anything for you Usagi."

The maknae loosens his grip a bit, allowing me to shift under the covers beside him. Once I get myself comfortable Jungkook wraps me in his arms, burying his face into my chest.

I fight the urge to tear up as I feel him release a heavy sigh. These boys have been working so hard to keep themselves together, there must be something I can do.

I love you too much
To live without you loving me back
I love you too much
Heaven's my witness and this is a fact

The words come out of my mouth without a thought behind them. My voice barely above a whisper, I sing in the hopes that I can do something for the broken man that holds me in his arms.

I know I belong
When I sing this song
There's love above love and it's ours
'Cause I love you too much

I live for your touch
I whisper your name night after night
I love you too much
There's only one feeling that I know is right

I know I belong
When I sing this song
There's love above love and it's ours
'Cause I love you too much

Heaven knows your name I've been praying
To have you come here by my side
Without you a part of me is missing
Just to make you my own, I will fight

I feel his grip tighten a little as I sing, and I pause for a few moments. I don't want to make him more upset. "Keep singing... I want to hear your voice," Jungkook says in a quiet tone. I smile a little more as I finish the song, never raising my voice any louder.

I know I belong
When I sing this song
There's love above love and it's ours
'Cause I love you too much

I love you too much
I love you too much
Heaven's my witness and this is a fact
You live in my soul
Your heart is my goal
There's love above love and it's mine 'cause I love you
There's love above love and it's yours cause I love you
There's love above love and it's ours if you love me
As much

I look down and find the maknae snoring softly beside me. I must have sung him to sleep somehow, I think to myself, resting my head against the pillow. I close my eyes, and allow myself to drift off into dreamland.

I don't wake up until much later, when Jin comes into the room to check up on Jungkook. He shook me awake and led my sleepy ass out of the room towards the couch downstairs so I could nap.

Jungkook had rolled over at some point so it wasn't that hard to leave the room, but I do wonder why he wouldn't just take me to my room instead.

So here I am, laying on top of a very pissed off looking Yoongi. How I got here isn't that long of a story really. I was so tired that I immediately flopped down on the couch where the little meow meow was laying down.

I didn't even notice he was there until I heard a grunt of protest from underneath me. "I'm sorry, Yoongi-oppa," I say in a quiet tone, Jin covering his smile with his hand as he stands beside the armchair.

"Tajang I love you, but I just got home after a long day," Yoongi growls, shifting a bit as I move off of him.

It's well into the night now, and the boys had all returned home earlier while I was asleep. "For once I'm going to get a decent night's sleep since I have to wake up early. Can you please sleep in your room?"

Jin winces a little as he rubs the back of his neck. "Ah, that's my fault Yoongi. I kind of forgot you were laying there. I'll take her upstairs, so you can sleep."

"Hyung, she isn't a child," Yoongi says with a frown. Meanwhile I'm now standing a bit away from the two, my hands held to my chest as I watch their exchange. "She can walk by herself, her legs ARE working now."

Jin's face turns a bright shade of red at his comment. "I-It's okay Jin!" I chime in, earning confused glances from the both of them. "I appreciate the thought, but you should relax since you're home. Enjoy the rest of the strawberry puffs, okay?"

I bow and excuse myself quickly, making my way back upstairs as fast as I can. I don't hear any footsteps behind me, so I assume that neither of them nor any of the others have followed me up.

I stop however, when I hear a strange sound coming from Namjoon's room. His door is slightly ajar, and I can see him hunched over on the edge of his bed from the small crack.

He doesn't look as happy as he was earlier today, I think to myself, pushing the door open as quietly as possible so as not to disturb him.

Our leader has his head buried in his hands, not even noticing my entrance. His body trembles, and my heart sinks in my chest as I hear him softly crying. He chokes on his sobs, never in my life did I think I would ever see this man break so much.

Never in my life have I realized just how selfish I've been until now.

My feet move on their own, stumbling towards my true soulmate as he continues to crumble. My heavy footfalls alert him to my presence, and he looks up at me with surprised, puffy eyes. His nose is red, his cheeks stained with tear tracks while a pained expression dons his face.

I immediately wrap him in my arms once I reach him, holding onto him as tight as I possibly can. Any sleepiness that I had left had faded away once I saw the pain in his eyes, I can't bear the sight of him being so distraught.

"I'm here.." I say in a hushed whisper. "I'm right here, so please stop hiding your pain from me. I want to help, so please let me be here for you!"

I know he puts on a brave face for me. I know they all do. It's hypocritical of me to tell them to do otherwise, but yet the words spill from my mouth like water in a stream. And I mean every single one of them.

Namjoon wraps his arms around me tightly, his arms shaking even more than before. He cries into my stomach, soaking the front of my shirt with his tears as I hold him as close as I possibly can. My heart began to break as the most wretched sound pierced the silence that followed.

My true soulmate let out an anguished scream as he broke down in front of me completely.

Daily Quote: "Maybe we're all just a bunch of fools, everyone lives with a love that has come to an end." - 'Let Me Know' by BTS

~Author-chan