Taehyung’s P.O.V.

Waking up to see Jin cuddling closer to me and falling back asleep in my arms might be one of the best rewards I had received for all the struggles life had made me face. 

“Did Soo wake you up again last night?” He mumbled sleepily into my chest. “I was glad that she let me put her back to sleep every time” I spoke nuzzling into his soft brown hair, God this really is what real happiness feels like. “She even fell asleep hugging me you know, I kinda got teary” I said remembering how difficult it was to pull away from her hands coiled about my neck to let her sleep.

I felt his smile against my skin as I caressed his back “what? I’m not making it up seriously…it just-you know-“ he pulled back to gaze at me with those adoring brown eyes of his and I lost my words staring back at him and unknowingly spoke what came to my mind “I’m just so happy to have this, you and her, and this…us”.

He caressed my cheek, leaning in to press his lips on mine and I pulled him in closer, losing myself in him yet again.

I have missed this…this raw rush that takes over me when I think about him, this need to protect and care when he slides into my arms like he belongs there, knowing how to take care of me even when I don’t say why I am hurting, it’s as if he knows exactly what I am going to say next and takes care to tell me through his actions that he has taken care of it already…such a miracle he is, my silver lining.

I slowly pushed him down, laying him back as I kissed him feeling overwhelmed with emotions and need and the knowledge that he is mine to cherish. He clutched at my shoulder as I forced my tongue inside his mouth, my mind reliving moments of all those times earlier when I had kissed him but I don’t know why it still feels so maddening to hear him groan and the way he threaded his fingers through the back of my head, tugging gently on my hair as he kissed me back breathlessly caressing my lips with his own, moulding our mouths in a hot wet tangle.

He broke away gasping and I dove in to press a line of kisses down his neck, my need kicking in with greater force as he shuddered whining and tugging harder at my hair. He lay heaving under me as I nibbled at his throat, lapping at his skin as if in daze as I felt urgent greed take over to have more and I took the chance to tug hastily at the hem of his t shirt, intending to strip him off of everything and lay him bare before my eyes. He abided, pulling it over his head before coiling his arms around my neck to pull me back into another hungry kiss and I needily grinded down on him, needing friction.

He groaned in between the kiss, moaning my name when I palmed him over his shorts. I was too far gone into the feel of him when he pushed at my chest, trying to break away from the kiss and huffed tapping at my shoulder before forcing me away.

“Soo?” He panted blinking up at me, and I leaned in to kiss him again being totally enraptured by him at the moment. He pushed me back again when I grasped on his jaw, groaning “she’s crying” he shuffled out of my arms, quickly pulling the t shirt back on “she must be up already”.

That was when I tried to listen to what he meant and heard Soohee bawling in the next room. I laid back down as he left the room, the tense breath I was holding in finally gushing out of me as I caught him speaking and consoling her while I was hoping he was gonna come back to bed n we could carry on from where we left.

Instead, I watched him walk in with a half asleep n teary Soo and brought her into our bed as I stared at him feeling betrayed while he very slyly kept his eyes from mine as he began playing with her. The moment he set her on the bed she began crawling about, heading straight to bump into me as she giggled and rallied in her language clutching onto me.

“That was mean of you” I grumbled as Soo crawled upon me, and I set her on my chest, turning my attention to her now as she slapped her palms against my chest to grab my whole attention.

“What do you mean? She was crying!” He reasoned, and it’s not like I didn’t know that but I do kinda still feel betrayed.

“Still mean of you to just run away from me” I can tell I am being annoying now and Jin got up from bed, coming around to peck at Soo’s head. “I’m going to make breakfast, stay with Dad okie?” And I watched him lean down to me after that, a smirk pulling at the corner of his lips as he pecked at my head next “if we’re really gonna start over then you do need to remember that quality time in bed comes after the date”.

He stole a short kiss before leaving me dumbfounded at his cheekiness as he disappeared from the room.

“Your Appa is one hell of a puzzle, but you already know that don’t you?” I voiced out loud and she giggled delightedly pretending to understand my words and I couldn’t help but pepper her with kisses because of how adorable she was.

Feeding her was a doable option now that she actually considered me someone to grace her attention with, and yet I knew I had a lot to learn as I watched the mess we had made.

There was probably more baby formula on her bib than what she had actually gulped down, and kept spitting out her food whenever she decided I wasn’t being fun enough. One thing I’m very sure about, they weren’t lying when they said she’s too moody for her own good. I mean, I have had encounters with lethal enemies and even those weren’t as typically difficult as feeding my daughter.

“I think you need a bath…” I spoke picking out food from her messy hair that had grown beyond her little shoulders.

“Oh all done feeding her?” I saw Jin walking up to us looking fresh, his skin held a blushing colour after his shower and I found myself casually falling into a daze yet again.

“Looks like she needs a shower too” he spoke bringing me out of my trance. “And I need to clean up here now, she made an ugly mess” “It’s ok, leave it to me, I’ll take care of it” he says picking her up as he walks back into the shower and I begin cleaning having nothing else to do.

When he came back after a while, setting an cleanly dressed Soo in her playpen where we could keep an eye on her, I made sure to hover nearer to him.

“Think we can get any of them to keep her for the evening” I spoke as he worked alongside me.

“I was thinking about Kook or Hobi but then Jimin called n he was telling me that Jae was lonely, so I was thinking about dropping her there to let them play together” he spoke with a soft shrug and I was particularly hopeful that we could get the evening to ourselves after all.

And, I still had a date to plan.

Everything about ‘us’ has been so unplanned that I feel oddly conscious and under a lot of pressure thinking about how to make it perfect. Although we have been bound by emotions we have barely even had time to truly know each other’s like and dislikes…I know who Jin is but I have no idea about what’s his favourite food, or what’s his favourite flavour of ice cream, or what does he do when he feels extremely happy or how he spends a lazy day…I know how much he means to me, and how ardently he feels for me but I don’t know what to get him to wear neither do I know about what he likes on me.

I guess I’ll just have to trust my instincts on this and go with it. He will tell me if I mess up and I can fix it on our second date n if I still get something wrong, I’ll fix it on our third…we got time to fix things now, so we can make mistakes n try again.

I could tell Jin knew that I was thinking about something as he edged closer to me, pulling the mop out of my grip as he stared at me, making me gaze back at him as I tried to understand what he was trying to do. He gave a slight laugh checking at my tee, dusting off the mess Soo had sputtered on me.

“Let’s just go out and have dinner and talk…it doesn’t have to be anything fancy you know” his voice was gentle, a soft blush creeping up his cheeks and when he finally looked at me I could see his eyes dripping with a new delight, a glimmer of child-like glee. I caressed his cheek seeing the way he always tried to stand by me through every possible thing “you scared I’m gonna mess it up huh?”

“No! I’m not thinking about that” he giggled lightly pushing his face into my touch and I cupped his jaw grabbing him to make sure he couldn’t run away again.

“Then what?” I asked pulling him nearer to me and saw him gulp and pull his gaze away to brush non-existent dust from my tee.

“It’s just I know you’re not used to it either, must be difficult for you to get into all of this overnight. We can take our time you know, n we can enjoy this slowly…it doesn’t have to be picture perfect, all that matters to me is it’s us, together” he looked at me with a fondness that seemed boundless, adding a smile as I stupidly stared at him thinking that in the midst of all my reckless actions, I must have done something very right  to have him.

This is unreal…how can he read through me so easily?

I kissed him feeling hopelessly enamoured.

The evening came rather early though and we hastily dressed in easy casual attire, grabbed Soohee and called Jimin on the way to tell him we were gonna drop her there for a few hours. Jimin sounded delighted, teasing about us going out on a date finally as well as telling me very subtly(or so he thought) to take the night to enjoy ourselves while he assured that Soohee will be glad to spend the night there and gushed about how happy Jae would be to get to play with his ‘li’l frr-end’.

Although Jin wasn’t very sure about it having never have stayed away from her for such a long time, he told he’d think about it, and urged Jimin to call first thing if she was upset about staying away so long.

I guess Jin was right about it being difficult, it’s hard for me…not the family time, I love it, it just doesn’t get better than this. That is not the part I’m complaining about but yes getting back to this ‘normal’ lifestyle is hard.

I could feel my heart racing as we entered the restaurant, Jin said he loves their steak and wanted me to try it too. It was dinner time and quite rightly crowded therefore, and we meandered through to choose a table. Jin made light-hearted conversation with people he was familiar with and turned to introduce me whenever their eyes shifted to me.

And damn did my heart boast pridefully every time he called me his boyfriend. I had to literally look down and curse myself for blushing like a sixteen-year-old when I heard him say it the first time.

But it got hard when they asked the next question.

“Oh! What do you do?” And I was left to an odd silence as I tried to answer that.

“He was a Major, and has just been let off the hook after a long mission…so he’s finally home” he spoke knowingly, giving them a smile as he checked on me from the corner of his eye and truthfully I don’t have words enough to explain how grateful I am to him for being this understanding and supportive. I edged my hand across the table to hold his and he instantly wrapped his fingers around mine, smiling and nodding, secretly assuring me that all my secrets n insecurities were safe with him. He was going to be there even if no one else would. 

After dinner he urged to take a walk around, and we aimlessly ambled along the streets hand in hand, passing by snack bars, book shops, bakeries and convenient stores.

He wanted to get a few stuff from the convenient store to stock up at home, and I begrudgingly agreed not wanting to waste this time together in the store. We hastily grabbed what we needed and came out and a certain stall across the road caught my eye instantly while he busily unwrapped the ice cream he had just bought, calling after me if I wanted mine too n I nodded telling him to wait a minute right there while I had to grab something.

“How much for these?” I grabbed at a lovely bunch of roses, wishing to surprise Jin with these, although I’m not even sure if he likes flowers. I checked on him before turning to see that she had wrapped them in a pretty bouquet, adding a few strands of buckwheat flowers too.

“I’m sure he’s gonna love it” she smiled nodding towards Jin standing a few metres away, and I smiled listening to that. Hopefully he will.

I walked back across the road, suddenly feeling oddly embarrassed and completely stupid to have gotten him flowers, thinking it was a futile idea when it’s not even a date per se.

But well I had already bought those for him, so here goes…

I cleared my throat to get his attention and he whipped around “where did you go?! I was getting worried” he voiced on breathlessly as I shifted and unsurely mumbled.

“Now I have eaten all of it n if you have your ice cream I’ll have to watch n I’ll feel like having another one-“ he was rambling and whining on his own so I decided to just hand the flowers o him n get it over with, I hope he doesn’t think I’m sappy or something. Shit! What if he is allergic?

“Umm Jin?” “Hmm” he blinked at me and I gulped again “are you allergic to flowers?”

“No, why though?” He asked with the most innocent little raise of his brows and I just brought my hand up and held them up to him.

“I’m not really sure about your favourite-“ “I love them!” He squeaked cutting me off and grabbing the bouquet to hold it close to himself, his eyes shining in delight as he looked at them.

He looked happy and I saw him get a bit teary till he looked at me “it might sound stupid, but I had kinda forever wished for chocolates and flowers as gifts from the one I’d date…call it a little boy whim” he chuckled rubbing away the single tear “thank you for these, I really love them”.

He giggled and hugged me excitedly, and I laughed along feeling overjoyed the same as he taught me in slow steps to realize how little it actually took to be really utterly happy.

For me, he could just do it with a smile, effortless and uniquely beautiful as always.

“Jimin didn’t call, maybe Soo is happy there” he spoke against me and I wrapped him tighter “we can go and get her if you feel worried” I suggested as he silently laid his head on my shoulder, thinking.

“Or we could go home, and take up where we left off this morning” he spoke after contemplating and the slight chirpiness in his voice told me he was teasing me, making me smirk at him.

“Well, we could do that too” I said catching his smile growing.

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[A\N] Borahae 💜
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