Third Person’s P.O.V.

“The reports of the blood work seems fine but..” the doctor spoke just when Jin left the room to change out of the hospital gown and Jungkook slightly flinched before he was turning back towards the voice “he’s very very stressed out, and it’s messing up his blood pressure which might end up becoming a problem altogether, especially for him”

Her words were a warning and Jungkook gulped not knowing how to assure that he could take care of Jin and make it better.

“He’s not sleeping well either, his vitals are fine but this is affecting the baby. He should have been able to feel her movements by now” she looked at him with worried eyes “make sure you keep him in a lighter happier mood, you know, go out, pamper him, spend time with him more…he seems to be terribly missing out on physical affection, which he actually needs right now. I’d suggest sex could help-” “Uh-I’m just gonna go check on him” he pushed up off the chair, face flaring red as he looked everywhere else but at her. 

“O-Oh-ok-ay” she got equally startled at his reaction and before she could say anything else Jin entered the room making Jungkook stare at him with wide startled eyes.

“Ah Seokjin, I got something to suggest to you too” her words made Jungkook snap his head at her and he fidgeted, desperate yet politely tried to tell her that they had to leave and would make sure to schedule another appointment soon.

“Sure, but I’d suggest you take leave from work. You’re already close to your third trimester and your baby’s heartbeat is a little rushed than normal…must be an effect of your own stress. Nothing to worry about though” she gave him a smile “just make sure to stay happy” and as they checked the necessary meds and got ready to take their leave she spoke to Jungkook again “even a belly rub might help him, or you can just sing to him you know…help him relax” she smiled trying to soften Jungkook’s stiff discomfort at her words, realizing slowly that the two probably weren’t partners.

Jungkook drove him back home, peering time and again at the other while Jin remained completely lost as he gazed at the new ultrasound image, dreamily pondering over how fast his little girl was growing.

At home Jin got a delightful surprise to see Jimin and Namjoon there, and instantly went ahead to cradle Minjae who made grabby hands at him but was stopped by Jungkook midway who opted to cradle the kid instead.

“You should try and be more careful Jin…didn’t you hear the doctor?”

The words obviously drew Jimin’s concerned eye as he gathered to huddle about the two to inquire.

“Why? What did she say?” Jimin’s worried voice perked up.

“She just told me to get more rest…apparently my stress is affecting her” he spoke caressing his tummy, which had grown quite considerably and was easily traceable even under his over-sized hoodie.

“This isn’t good Jin-“ “Apply for the leave instantly” Jungkook’s voice was quick and stern.

“I will at the end of this week” he nodded acknowledging the advice but Jungkook didn’t seem happy with the response.

“No, do it today. You don’t need to go for even one more day-“ “I said I will Kook, stop getting so worked up” agitation was clear in Jin’s voice and Jimin realized he had to step in.

“Why are you being so casual about this? Even after the doctor warned you…this happened in the first place because you don’t listen to anything we say! How many times have we told you not to torture yourself about things that are beyond your control?!”

“Umm guys…let’s not-” “Well I can’t help it! He’s in a fucking prison! Surrounded by people who want to hurt him! How do I not worry?!” Jin was fuming as well.

“He chose this for himself! What good your worrying will do huh? It’s only hurting you more…you’re the one who’s in danger but your stupid stubborn brain can’t simply grasp at the fact!!”

“Jungkook Jin … this isn’t helping anyone” Jimin tried to speak to them but it didn’t seem like it had any effect on either, and just then Namjoon came out of the study along with Hoseok, both of them being completely unaware of the whole commotion.

“Jin, I got a happy news for you” the Colonel beamed to see their eyes turn to him “you can go to visit Taehyung, he’s been moved already, and he told me that he wants to see you”

But before Jin could even answer being too taken in by his delight Jungkook replied “he’s not going there for now”

And the words brought visible hatred on Jin’s face against the guy “who the hell do you think you are to boss over me huh?”

Jungkook returned Minjae to Jimin, seeing the child begin to weep being affected by the agitated exchange of words and turned to face Jin with an equally rigid frown “I’m not barring you forever but you’re not going for the next couple weeks, till we're assured your health is better”

“I don’t care about what you think…you have no idea how hard it is for me” “I’m only saying it for your own good, it will stress you out more! It always does!”

“Well, I don’t care!”

“Well, I do!”

“Then don’t! I never asked you to!”

Jungkook froze at those words and the only sound in the entire living room were Jin’s enraged breaths as he still held his glare at him. 

“Fine…” Jungkook bit back the twisting pain in his gut to wear an ice cold expression “do whatever you feel like, she’s your baby after all”.

Everyone watched stunned as he simply walked out of the house, slamming the door on his way out.

Hoseok silently nudged Jimin to understand what just happened but stilled to see Jin turn to him with glossy, brimming eyes.

“Will it be possible for you to drive me to see Tae tomorrow?” His voice was shaky as he tried his best to hold back a sob, secretly sniffling.

“O-Of course! I’ll take you” Hoseok replied instantly before they all silently watched Jin peck at Minjae’s head and hurry upstairs.

“What just happened?” A clueless Namjoon spoke to break the silence.

“Apparently, Jin’s not supposed to get stressed and somehow that’s exactly what just happened” Jimin mumbled shaking his head.

The next morning Hoseok and Yoongi blearily woke up to hasty knocking at their door and Jin’s over-excited ‘Get up! Get up! Get up!’

“I think Jungkook was right, remember how depressed he got the last time he saw Taehyung…he couldn’t sleep for days” Yoongi spoke laying back down as Hoseok groggily got out of bed.

“Try telling that to him, I don’t have the guts” he spoke walking into the washroom to freshen up.

Jin had woken up early, or probably hadn’t slept at all last night and feeling anxious decided to cook breakfast. He was waiting for Hoseok so that he could drive him to see Taehyung. Even the thought made butterflies flutter in his stomach, he was practically counting the seconds now.

“Oh…you seem all dressed and ready to go eh?” Hoseok came out of the room, eyes scouring over the table to see the meal Jin had prepared “holy shit someone seems over-excited” he chuckled and was thankful to see Jin beam happily.

“Yeah…I kinda-guess I couldn’t sleep” he voiced weakly, chuckling at his own stupidity.

“Jin…you know you have to take care of yourself more, I know Jungkook might have sounded rude but he wasn’t wrong…this could get dangerous for both you and the baby” he tried a softer plea, hoping this would work better on Jin.

“I did apply for the leave from work” he meekly replied “I promise I’ll try harder not to worry but-but sometimes…sometimes I just cannot help it”.

Hoseok saw his fist clench and tried to ease the anxiety “it’s ok…I know it must be very hard, but lets’ just take things one at a time hmm? For now just focus on your little girl” Jin profusely nodded at the words “you think Taehyung wouldn’t be upset to know that it’s because of him you’re both hurting?”

Jin sheepishly rubbed away an unruly tear that had dribbled down his cheek and nodded again.

“You promise you’ll be more careful from now on?” “Y-Yeah I will” he replied and Hoseok smiled ruffling his head.

“Good, now let’s go…don’t wanna be late do we?” And the utter bliss in Jin’s eyes made his heart melt and feel sympathetic to him yet again.

Jin couldn’t wait till the wardens were done with the security check and by the time the frisking was over and he was led inside and told to wait at a table, he was literally bursting with excitement.

It had been almost six months that he hadn’t shared a single word with Taehyung, except for the letters he had written. The same letters that had gotten him in trouble and hence he had decided not to write him anymore letters. He huffed anxiously, clutching on the envelope he held in his hands and cursed inwardly at how much time it was taking while in reality it had probably been mere seconds since he had arrived.

But when he saw the doors slide open and Taehyung being led into the large hall, his hands still cuffed in chains and his face bruised with palpable purple and blue blotches, his heart sunk.

He had to bite down on his lip to hold back the sob that build up at the back of his throat as he stared at him and felt his gut knot up in pain while Taehyung simply smiled at him, too happy and completely lost in Jin’s eyes to care about those aching bruises.

The wardens let him settle down on the chair on the other side and stood at a distance, keeping an eye on them.

For a while they just stared at each other not marring the moment with words as they simply took in the fact that they were actually sitting right in front of each other.

“You’re glowing” the affection in the deep voice made Jin snap out of his trance and he blinked to feel Taehyung’s fingers gently caress his as he softly edged his chained hands nearer to his over the table. Jin’s eyes dropped to their hands and he remembered about the envelope hidden underneath his palm.

“I’m due in 12 weeks” his voice was stiff as he avoided looking at him “and you’re gonna miss her birth” his eyes grew watery as he battled to not cry.

He felt Taehyung’s grasp tighten around his palms.

“You’re gonna miss her first cry…her first smile…you’re-” “I’m sorry…I’m so sorry…I-I..I don’t know what else to say…I’m ashamed of myself”

Taehyung tried to look at Jin's face as he sobbed and sniffled, shoulders shaking as he held his head down, denying to let him see his tears.

“Jin..?” Taehyung begged him to look at him, and seeing no response but vehement sobs he cupped his face and made him look up “baby please forgive me”

“I miss you so much” Jin broke out into fresh new sobs to hear him beg like that.

It took everything in Taehyung not to jump off his seat and scoop Jin into his arms, caress him the right way to help him pacify.

“You don’t know how I survive…it’s just you and our little dream that’s keeping me alive” he tried to thumb away the never-ending lines of tears Jin kept spilling “just a few months more baby be strong for me, I swear I’ll do my best to give her everything…please give me one last chance to prove it to you” he was too close to breaking down himself and his jaw stiffened to see Jin try to hold back the sobs as little hiccups slipped out of his lips, softly nodding at the plea.

“I love you so much Jin…you know that right?” His voice became a soft whisper as he looked into those pools of honey brown “I feel like an idiot for not telling this to you seven years ago, things could be so much better for both of us if I just had been brave enough”

“Well, I managed to find you again and like an idiot told you I fell for you” Jin mocked smiling through the tears

“I am thankful that you were stupid enough to accept my heart” Taehyung joked trying to ease the pain within as he gently went back to caressing Jin’s fingers.

“She’s growing so fast” Jin pushed the envelope towards him “feels like yesterday when she was the size of a peanut” he chuckled to himself and watched Taehyung hastily grab at the envelope and pull the image out.

He gazed keenly at the image, memorizing the growing features of his tiny daughter and Jin was more than sure he saw tears gather at the corner of his eyes.

“Please take care of yourself and her” he spoke still gazing at the image “I curse myself all the time for not being able to help you through this time, and I know I’ll never be able to make it up to you for missing this but I swear I’ll go crazy if something happens to either of you…promise me that you’ll always remember to put your health first”

Jin nodded to the words and Taehyung grasped back at his hands “no promise me”

“O-Ok..” Jin looked up at him confused but the wild intensity in Taehyung’s eyes made his heart hurt “I promise I’ll always make sure she’s safe and healthy”

“And?” He smiled to see his baby so adorable and abiding

“And always take care of myself” Jin voiced with a half smile

“And?” Taehyung asked again, caressing his cheek with the back of his hand and Jin could see a thousand emotions echo in his eyes

“And I will always love you”

For a moment everything felt frozen and the only sensation Jin felt was the soft press of Taehyung’s mouth on his, the warmth between their lips was like spiking lava and yet the chill the little act had on him was unlike anything else.

It lasted only for mere seconds and Jin’s vision cleared to see Taehyung settle back in his seat as nimbly as he had leaned in to steal the kiss.

Jin’s mouth slowly fell open as he tried to understand whether he had imagined it or did that really happen, and if it really happened then why couldn’t he have some more of it.

“Don’t look so surprised” he heard the deep voice as he stared at a grinning Taehyung languidly tasting his own lips as he tried to catch a hint of his taste “I have stolen a lot more from you”

And Jin smiled to see him be a flirt in this situation.

Their conversation slowly veered to different topics, starting from Jin rebuking and grumbling at him for losing his temper and getting into a fight. Teared up again as he spoke about how those bruises hurt him to think how much pain he must have gone through while Taehyung tried his best to assure him that those didn’t hurt at all compared to the hurt he felt for being a pitiful father to his unborn daughter.

They spoke about Jin’s visits to the doctor and how Jungkook was the one who mostly accompanied him, and although the way Taehyung went a bit silent to know that made his dislike to the information evident but he denied revealing that to Jin and rather encouraged him to be regular and punctual about the appointments.

“I chose to take some time off from work” Jin spoke fidgeting “the doctor says I need to take it easy”

Jin decided to keep from him the issue about the pregnancy he was facing and neither did he mention how high his stress levels were flaring because of everything going around which was affecting their child’s health. He couldn’t say these to him seeing how awfully he blamed himself already and knew he’d worry and only blame himself more if he knows.

It was almost an hour later when the warden warned them about the nearing end of their time and Jin told Taehyung he could keep the image with him when the other begged him to forgive him for his stupidity last time and write to him again.

Jin felt his own feeling reverberated when Taehyung told him “most of the nights I cannot sleep, so I spend the empty hours reading and re-reading your words…they calm me like no other and I feel hopeful again to look forward to the next day”

And how could Jin possibly deny him when he spoke like this, so he promised to write to him again.
Right before they led him away, Jin stood gazing at him again as Taehyung smiled widely, his eyes lovingly set on Jin’s bump.

“She’s indeed growing so fast” Taehyung spoke in a hush while gently brushing his palm over Jin’s loose shirt “when will I see you again?” He inquired almost inaudibly, still busy eyeing and caressing Jin’s belly.

“Hopefully soon” he replied and that was when he first felt her kick and instantly set his palm atop Taehyung's. Jin was staring at him wide-eyed only to see him stare back equally dumbstruck “I-I felt her”

“I did too” Jin gushed, tears gathering in his eyes with how ecstatic his heart felt. He had been so scared when the doctor had told him that it wasn’t very usual for a child to have no movement at all being this late into pregnancy, and he knew she was only trying to assure him not to get worried when she said it wasn’t anything serious and probably was something minor.

“She kicked” Jin giggled half in tears and despite the warden’s warning Taehyung couldn’t help but pull him in a hug as he pressed a kiss on his temple before he was being torn away from him and led back inside.

“I’ll wait for you” Jin rubbed away his tears and smiled at him to hear the words, nodding in assurance.

And all through his ride back home he couldn’t stop talking, gushing and giggling about how he had felt her kick, how she must have known that she was near her Dad for the first time and Hoseok couldn’t tell him to calm down fearing he’d get upset again, more so because it had been months since he had seen Jin this overjoyed.

Everything was going great till right after lunch as he sat telling Hoseok about how difficult it must be for Taehyung and how hard things were going to get when he won’t be able to have him around during the birth of their child. Jin began hyperventilating and Hoseok tried to calm him down, trying to pacify his concerns by assuring they were there with him but before he knew what else to do Jin felt his vision blur and stumbled out of consciousness. 

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[A\N] I feel like I'm on a writing spree this week

Borahae💜