Seokjin's P. O. V.

The moment the car rolls through the gates of the apartment building I sprang out, speed walking away from Taehyung.

I have had enough of everything! Fine, if he doesn't want to talk I'll just call Hobi and go back to find Kook and ask him. At least he had never been this cruel to me, I bet he'll tell me everything I ask.

The car door shut behind me and I heard heavy steps follow me as I hurry for the elevator.

"Where do you think you're running off to?" I feel his hand wrap around my wrist and stop me as I tried shuffling away. I see from the corner of my eyes two girls head towards us and jerk my hand away freeing myself. I could feel their stares and try to discard my fears of them recognizing him as Tae pulled me back to him. Just then the elevator dinged open and I shoved him away to head in, only to see him follow after me.

The girls look at us funny, their giggles reach my ears making me feel more self conscious but it didn't seem to bother him at all.

"Go away!" I shout as I repeatedly jab at the key to close the doors while keeping the asshole back.

"But you wanted me to talk!" He grumbles placing his feet in between to keep the door open. In utter frustration I kick him and he stumbles back but instantly grabs back at the door and forces his way through, pinning me against the back as the doors close with an annoying ding.

"What are you trying to prove, huh? I know what I saw, you're a shameless liar and I'm not sure how much cruelty you are actually capable of" I bite out the words intending those to hit him, I'm done looking pitiful but he doesn't budge at all to my struggling and holds me trapped.

"Don't ever do that again. Do you hear me" his voice hovers at the side of my neck "you scared the shit out of me, I went mad looking for you! I thought that he took you to Kai" I stood numbed at his words, I swear I have never met such a confusing human before "why would you listen to that petty fucker and risk yourself?!"

I stare at him blankly as he pulls his head back and his eyes find mine, his clenched jaw relaxing as he leans closer.

"How dare you be this reckless Jin, you could have died" he pressed his forehead on mine and sighed "I could have lost you too" his emotional instability is becoming too much to handle for me.

"Who is Kai?" The elevator opened before he could reply and I caught a gasp as my eyes met with my neighbor's and all I could do was give her a weak smile as she averted her gaze from our situation.

Taehyung must have felt my uneasiness and grabbed me to duck past other eyes towards my apartment.

My mouth fell open as I watched him put in the code to the door lock and pull me inside.

How the hell did he manage to know that! Did he hack into it or something?!

I stood by the door, finally breathing and realizing what I had just lived through, I really could have lost my life for being such an emotional fool.

"You okay?" I felt him get closer to me but before his arms could wrap around me I pushed away and headed to my room, the images Kook had put in front of me flashed, towing in flashes of an infuriated Taehyung hurting him without a trace of mercy, almost inhumane.

"I didn't detonate the bomb" his voice was loud and clear "but I did have to kill a few bad guys".

I stopped to listen

"You have every right to be angry Jin, but I'm not lying"

I hear him walk nearer "Will you believe me if I tell you that I wasn't the one who stole the warheads either but it was your dear friend Kook?"

So Kook does work for Axel...is there anyone who isn't lying to me?

"I'll be the bad guy if it means that it will keep you safe"

An eerie silence pierces through the place as I try to process what he is saying till a heavy sigh leaves his lips.

He turns me around to face him "you want me to talk, fine, it's better than having you put yourself in danger" he gulps down and I can see the restlessness in his eyes "but you have to promise me that you'll do as I say once I'm done, no arguments, no going behind my back. I will come clean to you but you have to trust me on this".

I look at him with unsure eyes but it is true that I want to know, all this is too much for me, I can't live with this constant anxiety.

"You better not lie to me anymore" I mumble, apprehensive of what I'm actually stepping into but it's true that I cannot ask him to trust me if I don't.

As I step into the room from the shower my eyes catch him sitting at the edge of the bed, his bare shoulders slumped and head hanging low with his elbows resting on his knees.

We were too stressed and hungry when we had come in, thus decided to eat and freshen up before we sat down to talk.

He picked his head up at the click of the door shut and looked at me with sad eyes, I'm not going to lie but I am scared about what he will ask me to do. "Come here" he extends a hand to pull me in between his legs, I fumbled a bit, not sure whether to still hold my anger or give in to the tingles at his fond warm touch on my waist.

"First, I need to warn you about trusting Jungkook, I know I'm not in a position to call him crafty or unstable but please, just be careful, I know that even if I tell you not to, you will go to talk to him and I think it is better that he answers your questions about him" his eyes are much calmer now, I can tell he is being genuinely open and I really appreciate that.

Another long deep sigh, and I am starting to feel more nervous now.

"I'm sorry to not have shared this earlier with you, it's not like I wanted to hide but I'm ashamed" he coiled an arm around my waist as he pressed his head to my stomach "don't hate me please" he pleads massaging the hand he had not let go. Involuntarily my lose hand found it's way into his still damp hair as I let it pet him before it skimmed down his neck to his bare shoulder, softly grazing over the long healed bullet wound there.

If only you knew that I can't hate you, knew how powerless I am to you... 

"Hyuk was my half-brother, we've different fathers"

My hand stops as he begins to speak.

"You know how I lost my mother right?"

"Y-yes" I am a bit confused about why this is even relevant "she was killed by Axel" "Byun, that's the name of the man who killed her. He is my father" I feel an unnatural void replace the air in my lungs as all thoughts clear out of my head.

"He played the perfect role of a lover to eek out information from her about the crime bureau and the case files on Axel, by the time she realized the truth she had fallen in love with him and found that she was pregnant".

His short pause gave me the scope to finally breathe.

"She had to watch people she called friends fall into Axel's traps and get killed because of the information she had unknowingly given, she believed it was her fault that Axel slipped past efforts of the bureau to arrest the terrorists". He chuckles pulling his head away from me "I understand now how she must have felt to have singlehandedly taken over the duty to investigate, crazed with the need to bring justice fueled by pain and rage".

He finally pulls his head up to look at me "Hyuk and I joined the special forces to destroy Axel but everything went wrong and I lost" I trace the profound pain and hatred in his eyes "I'm going to kill them, I can't keep doing their dirty work, it's making me go crazy. I need to avenge her, avenge all their deaths, this is the only way I can bring them justice, I need to carry on with her fight."

My breath hitched at his words "wh-what are you talking about? You cannot fight them alone Tae! What are you thinking about? Double-crossing them? It's too dangerous" he pulls me down on his lap and makes me straddle him.

"You need to go and stay with Hoseok and Yoongi, you cannot stay here alone from now on" he caresses my face as he leans closer and my heart feels heavier fearing where this is heading "I need to let you go, I won't be able to keep my promise to you" I clutched at his shoulder and my mind went blank "I cannot bear to ruin you for my battles baby".

I feel like an arrow just went straight through my chest, and pain, real bone-crushing pain shot down my spine "n-no...Tae?"

"I can't put you through this Jin, I know I was being selfish but I couldn't help it. It's true Jin, you became a target because of me, your life is at risk every minute you spend with me. Imagine if it wasn't Jungkook who kidnapped you, if it was someone who actually wanted to hurt you because of me? I can't lose you love, I can't bear to even think what I'd do" his hands cup my face and the fondness in his eyes is so much more confusing than sweet right now.

"N-no...no...I won't..no...I'm not listening to you...why are you being like this suddenly?!" I couldn't hold back the sobs anymore and sat frozen as tears spilled out, I feel like hitting him for being so mean.

He kissed my face and ran his soothing hands all over me "please baby, you know how hard this is for me...I can take every torture but I'm gonna break if they hurt you Jin" I croaked out broken words of denial in between my sobs "look how much of your life you have been losing because of me, you have dreams to achieve and wishes to fulfill and I'd love to say that I'd stand by you while you grow as a photographer. I don't want you to lose it all being trapped with me. I'm a ruined soul baby, there's nothing left of me but you, and I don't want to lose you too".

"B-but I-I can't" my tears rolled down his glistening skin as I hid my face in the crook of his neck "don't d-do this Tae...p-please" I could feel the wetness of his cheeks as he pressed his face on mine "I love you so much, I love you so so much".

I roll my head to a side and open my eyes to see him look at me with unbearable grief "I have no idea how to hold myself together without you but you need to understand, it's for your own good" he rolls us around slowly backing us onto the bed "you cannot pull such stupid stunts again, don't you dare follow me or I will tell Hoseok what you have been doing and you'll be put under house arrest."

His threats came as soft as his lips on my skin and I stare up at him, taking in every little detail as I feel tears run down the corner of my eyes and meet the sheets.

So...this is it? Just like that? What do I even call this? Is this really a break-up? Or just him abandoning me?

I trace the way the light glints off of his eyes, the way he looks at me and speaks to my soul and try to keep it all in a little safe place in my heart. I watch as a tiny smile draws on his lips. "What?" My voice doesn't even sound like mine.

"You are so beautiful, I cannot believe I'm doing this...don't hate me Jin, please"

"Tae?"

"Hmm?"

"What are you planning? And please don't lie to me I can tell you are hiding again, at least you owe me the truth"

He fidgets eyeing my lips as his thumb traced over them and in the next moment tries to lift off of me but I wrap my arms around his neck to make him stay startling him and he stared back "Kim Taehyung you may have the guts to kill but you are a very bad liar and a coward".

His face hardens and I see him gulp "Jin..I-" "You are just choosing your revenge over me, that's what this is right?" My jibe is intentional and I want him to hurt, want him get angry but tell me the truth!

"I know what you went through is unimaginable and you want to make them feel what you have felt, your anger shows that" he watches me with frozen features as I continue "and you just proved that you never really needed me to help you or bothered to see how I wanted to be a remedy to help you through all your pains" "No baby, you're going to get hurt, I really ca-" "Don't baby me!"

I push him off "I don't care! You think this doesn't hurt?!" I am so frustrated with everyone deciding what is good for me or treating me like a stupid kid, I am not stupid.

He stares at me wide-eyed as my hurt pours out in a flurry of anger "you think it's fine to do whatever you feel right? Don't you understand why I keep forgiving all your crimes and all your faults?! Don't you see how much you mean to me!!"

He comes back to straddle me as I huff and fight him.

"Calm down, please. I know! I know and that's the reason I cannot let you suffer for me! I cannot bear to see my broken self and my pains become selfish excuses to ruin your life!"

"Just go die! That's what you're planning aren't you? That's why you don't need me anymore right?" He stills and doesn't utter a word making the ache in my heart deepen "Fine! Die, kill yourself for your revenge! I don't care anymore" I roll trying to get away from him but he flips around and makes me straddle him, our hands still dueling "I don't ever want to see your face again, do you hear me! You don't have to lie to yourself about caring about me".

My spiteful words bring an angry frown over his eyes and a touch of hurt, exactly what I had wanted "okay, if you feel better then do it yourself" he grabs at my hands and pulls me forward placing them on his throat "kill me, end it all, give me my peace and I'll be thankful to you".

I freeze at his words yet tightened my grip wanting to threaten him, I don't want to be the weak one all the time, I get angry too.

"Do it" his voice is grim as he orders me and I tighten my grip further, watching his Adam's apple dip at the pressure and hear him choke out a cough. I loosen immediately and was about to let go when his large hand grabbed at the back of my neck "but if you can't do it, I'll do as I please with you baby because that's what I always do right? Never bothering to care about you" his voice was a threatening growl "and when I'm done, you're going to listen to me and not make stupid decisions on your own ever again".

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