Seokjin's P. O. V. 

When I woke up in the morning in an empty bed and a lonely room, last night felt like nothing but a dream and it would have been so if not for his blood stained clothes in the laundry hamper and my head full of worries.

Taehyung must have left early, and as I lay staring at the ceiling and feeling giddy thinking about the memories of him ardently holding onto me and kiss me that little knot of longing overpowered my senses making me feel super morose and awfully lonely.

I wish I could actually help you...

I cannot just sit back and accept that all I have to offer is that I am here for him, words must always be backed by actions, right? I had helped him find safety once, cannot I try doing that again? If he is important to me it is on me to ensure to help him find a way to get away from the thing he hates right?

How do I get him away from Axel? From death and violence when he has surrounded himself with it willfully? But he did it to keep us safe, why must he be the only one getting tormented then?

I dragged my fingers over the side of the bed he had slept in, wishing to catch a bit of his lingering essence there, just a bit of his warmth, his caring touch or that smile he hides away so severely.

I promise I'm going to find a way to keep that smile on your lips...

My eyes went to the laundry hamper again where a corner of his bloody shirt has been peeking out and suddenly my stomach retched thinking how he must have beaten up  and made someone bleed, does such rage and cruelty deserve love?

Although he had done that under pressure but it was with his own hands he had hurt someone to the brink of death!

Am I taking his status of being an assassin and a wanted criminal too lightly?

A flash of his pained eyes, the desperation in his actions to make himself feel that I'm there for him and his silent wails to make me believe in him gripped my heart and I got lost yet again in my zeal to help him.

But how do I help you? How do I prove that you have been forced to be part of Axel? An unwilling aid those vile psychopaths have trapped to take the blame of their dirty crimes!

I beat my legs in frustration and pushed off the blanket to the ground to get up. Why are things always so hard for us?! Why can't we be just like normal people? Have normal dates and be with each other like normal people do?!

I too want flowers and chocolates and cuddles just like normal people trying to date, but my fucked up fate just can't get it right!!

I walk up to my closet and pull open the doors planning to shower and change, grabbed a pair of black sweatpants and a loose grey hoodie but just before I was about to shut it my eyes caught on the top left shelf where the camera Taehyung had given me sat hopefully, as if waiting for me to put it to some use again. And almost instantly a crazy idea took over my head as I watched the device with my mouth agape.

Maybe I could prove his innocence if I can film him being forced to hurt someone by Axel, show the officials  that he is but a puppet in the hands of those terrorists. It could work right? And he won't have to do this anymore, he could just walk away from all this if the public believes in him. The officials would help him out of this mess right?

Throughout the shower all I could think of was how I was going to keep track of Axel's whereabouts. I definitely cannot ask Tae about it because I know for a fact that he won't let me try my idea if he learns about it. So nope, not telling him.

"I called Hobi and Namjoon" Jimin says as I enter the kitchen to fix us some breakfast. He was on the couch going through a bundle of what looked like pamphlets on barista course of various institutes. "I told them about Taehyung coming here last night" his voice was stiff and he was he was avoiding my eyes, I can tell he's worried about how I'm going to react.

"It's not ok for him to be here at your home Jin, things are not how they used to be, he isn't one of us anymore" and it jabbed right at my heart as I was reminded of the night we drank and sang and danced together, how pretty everything seemed back then, how hopeful and happy we were. The feeling of Tae's whiskey drenched lips, the drunk sloppy kiss we had shared that night and an involuntary smile curved "I wish things could stay just like that". I pressed shut the waffle maker glad that Jimin finally looked at me and disregarded the pity in his eyes.

I'm gonna fix this, you'll see...I'm gonna bring him back and make him one of us again...I promise!

"An-and you won't believe" "Those dicks just can't understand" "Those freaks think they can boss me" "That I am a special force soldier" "who do they thin-" "Fucking Idiots!" Jimin and I kept glancing between the two as they loudly relayed weeks worth of experience and events at the investigation center, and I can tell the poor things are losing their minds in that place. Hobi and Kook huffed, and lucky for us decided to pause, their faces red with breathlessness and probably a lot of pent up frustration but still absolutely adorable even in this state.

"It must be so difficult for you" I saw Jimin look at them with soft sympathetic eyes and in the next moment asked with a smile "want some waffles?"

"Again??" Kook's eyes grew wide but instantly soothed down as he sheepishly looked at me "umm...l mean, I'd love some" "Not you, l made some sandwiches for you, the waffles are for Hobi" I smiled seeing the thankful expression on Kook's face.

Sometimes he's like the most adorable person to ever exist, come to think of it in all this time that I've known him there hasn't been one incident he has been rude or hurtful to me or any of us for that matter, everything about this boy is just so endearing, those cute bambi eyes, that baby bunny smile and that careworn and loving gaze...wait what?!

And I realize our eyes were still locked and Kook is actually looking at me with those eyes, that yearning gaze. What is going on? What is that gaze?  A frown grows involuntarily and I see him raise his brows at me in question, as if silently asking me what I am thinking about and I hurriedly shake my head assuring him that it was nothing.

How absurd Jin!

I let the thought dissipate and was assured that it was just one of my passing whims when I saw Kook go back to being completely himself. But things got really really grim when Hobi brought up Taehyung's name. I know they're only worrying about me, but we must all worry about Tae!

"What?!" Kook grabbed at my arm, and this was the second time that his grip felt oddly tight. "He's stalking you! Why didn't you call me?"

"Relax, it's nothing that serious or anything. He just needed someone to talk to" I said biting into a piece of waffle as I avoided their gazes upon me.

"I'm not calling him dangerous, but the people he works for are ruthless, they won't spare a second glance before killing you if need be and I don't want you or Chim to get hurt. And I bet Taehyung wouldn't want that either. His words pull open an eerie silence upon the table.

"Yeah, they can do just about anything simply to prove a point" Kook softly says as I feel his grip loosen from my arm and go back to rest beside his plate. I see his troubled eyes fix on his fork and the cut on his cheek draws my attention anew.

"Are you sure that doesn't need stitches?" I know he had said it's fine when I had asked him about it earlier, and said that it doesn't hurt that much but somehow his eyes seem to show a hint of pain and unease as soon as the words leave my mouth.

"Y-yeah, don't worry about it, n-not a big deal, really" he swats away the question and focuses on his sandwiches.

"Such an airhead! How do you not see a car in broad daylight?!"

"It wasn't broad daylight, I told you I was going for a run early morning and it hit me while backing around a corner. Not my fault you see!" He speaks with his cheeks puffed out as he carries on with his munching. I giggle at how adorably cute and bunny like he looks right now and run my hand over his head, to which he stuns a bit and turns to watch me.

"Aish, Jin...stop it" he pulls his head away as far as he could but I see him smile widely, his front teeth cutely peeking out and his eyes crinkle. The living room filled with twinkling laughter that morning and for a little while things felt easy, beautiful and almost normal, just as it should have been.

"So you guys investigate on the issues, connect the dots from the information you acquire and then what?" I asked trying to get an idea about how things work, but more so because I'm desperate to find if I could get some info on Axel, or Tae if possible. However, Kook's being an ass!

"It's on the crime bureau, we only do as we're told" he says as he walked out of the washroom throwing the towel somewhere as he eases onto the bed to grab onto his laptop hastily punching in the password to get on with our plan to watch a movie. I suggested watching it on the bed, coz let's face it, it's way more comfortable than the couch and Kook has hurt his ribs in his not-so-dangerous accident in the morning.

This is the first weekend that I agreed to spend the Jin-Kook way after all the dreaded events which had occurred a month ago.

We'd watch movies or some series, apparently according to Kook it's his turn to choose today, eat garbage and drink poison, flop around the apartment, eat more garbage and simply laze away the day.

Jimin went out with Namjoon, Hobi went out to get Yoongs and promised to join us soon.

"What was the scariest stuff you have found in your investigations?" I asked edging closer to my urge to get the necessary info out of him. "Well, to tell you the truth, humans scare me. The rage we can harbor within, the cruelty our hands are capable of and the selfishness we overlook saying we have no hand in it is scary."

I stare at him since I suddenly felt like I don't know this Kook, when did he become so thoughtful, so deep.

"Darkness isn't that dark if we are willing to bring some light to it" he says as his eyes delve into mine "people seem to forget that as much as we are capable of inflicting pain and hurt on others, we also have an equal choice to do good, to care, love and be loved".

"Damn! Who are you? And what have you done to Kook? Did you hit your head and suddenly turn philosophical?" I asked dumbfounded and he chuckled lightly "'you don't know so much about me Jin, I often worry if you'd want to be anywhere near me if you ever come to know me completely".

"What do you mean? What do I not know?" He's being awfully unlike himself today, it's driving me nuts!

"Let's enjoy the movie for now, shall we?" He clicks on the icon and I see the movie begin. "Someday I'll be sure to tell you everything."

I stare at the side of his face when I suddenly realize " your eyes", his eyelids flutter at my words and he turns to look at me "they're not black". I don't even know why it suddenly bothers me. "Ummm...yeah...I-I m-must have left my c-contacts on your bathroom sink" he says visibly stuttering and then giving me an unsure smile as he tried to hurriedly head for the washroom.

"Urghh.." he grabs onto his ribs and plops back down on the bed. "Are you crazy! Where are you rushing to? Wait, I'll get those for you if you're so desperate" and instantly I feel his grip on my wrist "I...i-its ok, I don't need those, for now" I watched him with confused eyes.

"Yeah, they're not black, does that bother you?"

"Noo! Why would that bother me stupid! They're beautiful, it's just this is the first time I'm seeing you without contacts." I see him chew on his bottom lip and smile "You think they're beautiful?" His burnt sienna eyes grasp at me again, not frightened but hopeful now.

"Yeah I do"

"I never liked them"

"But why?"

"I'm nothing like him, I don't want anything that makes me feel like him".

It's becoming more and more confusing for me, and truly I'm beginning to feel like I don't know much about him. "Kook, what's going on? What are you talking about?"

Something suddenly changed in his eyes and he jumped off of the bed "Are you hungry? I'm gonna get us some spicy chicken wings from that shop you like, ok?" He was by the door to our apartment in the next moment. "Go ahead and watch the movie Jin, it's gonna take me some time to get back" and just like that he left, while I sat completely surprised with what just happened.

However the one good thing that came out of the entire awkward situation was...He had left his laptop completely open to my hands and I set ahead to pry for the necessary information I have been craving to acquire.

That Morning...

Third person's P. O. V.

"You are worthless, I hope you know that" Kai yells in frustration at the boy standing in front of him "It disgusts me to call you my son, so fucking stupid and how dreadfully weak can you possibly be??! You just had to kill one man and the deal would have been in my hands by now!!"

"I TOLD YOU ALREADY I DON'T LIKE HURTING PEOPLE!!" The boy fumed with his fists clenched, his doe eyes desperately guarding the tears threatening to spill out, his sienna eyes burning equally enraged as his fathers'.

"Pfft! Just a pitiful pretty face that's what you are" Kai sneered "I wish I could just exchange you with Byun's boy, that boy is defiant but he isn't an absolute weak ass like you! I might as well make him my heir!"

"Yeah, just do that, do that and leave me alone!!" A single tear trickles down the young boy's cheek, his lips quivering "I never wanted to be a part of all this shit! I hate lying to my friends, hate doing your filthy jobs, hate hurting people who love me and actually care about me! So, just go give whatever the fuck you want to whoever the fuck you want!! I don't fucking care!!"

A loud thud echoed through the penthouse as the boy goes hurtling towards the floor grabbing onto the side of his face as he groaned out curses.

"Don't fucking talk to me like that!!" Kai's words thundered as his rage soared sky high.

A chain of loud grunts spewed out of the boy on the floor as the outraged man's feet smashed against his ribs.

"Kai!!" Sunmi hurried inside the condo as she steps out of the elevator to hear the loud events. She grabs onto her man as she tries to push him away from hurting the boy any further "calm down, control yourself! We decided to talk to him remember, can't do that if you beat him senseless".

She crouched down beside the boy "You should really learn how to control that  reckless tongue of yours, you can't treat us just as you feel! You gotta obey your parents bub!"

The boy controlled his abrupt fit of coughing and opened his eyes to look at his mother "funny hearing you two call yourself parents, huh" he chuckles to himself. Sunmi dragged him up and helped him sit on the seat beside the plush couch "behave yourself if you want to live".

"I'm sending you on a mission, you're going to get a package for me" Kai says as Sunmi sits by his side busy in pressing an ice pack on his knuckles. "Fail this one and I swear I'm gonna put you back in that little gutter I pulled you out of" he said putting his legs on the low table.

"Now get me a drink, bourbon. I hate ruining my mood first thing in the morning". The boy tried his best not to limp as he walked to the side of the large living room which had been designed as a bar and poured the drink for his agitated father. 

"But I already have a job, how do I learn about the investigations if you put me on other stuff?" He grabbed a napkin and wrapped a handful of ice in it to press it on his throbbing cheek.

"I need you there to get the package because although I'm confident about V's capabilities, I cannot trust him yet" the boy slowly makes his way back to the couch as he hands Kai his drink "besides he needs to be there to guard your identity, any leak on media will effectively portray only him being there". He sternly eyed the boy, his patience running really thin at how cocky the kid had gotten with an year's ease.

"No! I-I can't work with him, he can't know about me dad!" The boy froze as the napkin fell from his hand and little bits of ice scattered on the floor. "It will blow my cover!" "He's one of us now, there's no need for the cover!" Sunmi says getting frustrated with the boy's absurd reservations and frightened face.

"No....No! They'll hate me mom...." His eyes became ardently pleading.

"How does that even matter! The mission for which I had put you up with that uptight Wang is over now, code or no code, I'm not sorry with how things worked out. I got an actually brave, well-trained soldier with a real knack for killing, right in my hands! I'm gonna train and temper him to become my very own weapon!"

Kai straightened up from his seat and marched up to tower over the boy, his poise stiff and angry, fists ready to hit if the kid would dare to utter a single word against his decision and glared at him.

"And if I say you're going with him, then you're going with him! That's it!"

The boy's burnt sienna eyes countered equally riled up but he held onto his silence, and after a moment decided it'd be better to just leave.

"You got four days, if you're not here at 10 p.m. Wednesday I'm gonna come  looking for you" Kai turned around to look at the boy's back who had halted in his steps to listen to his father, his raven hair a perfect match to Kai's own "I bet I'd love to meet your loving and caring friends for whom you'd even try to lie to your own self" he could trace the shudder run through the boy.

"You'll never be one of them Jk, no matter how hard you try to be good to them".

[A/N] I know it's kinda boring, bear with me please 😪

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