We all were going to die today. Get crushed under the castle. After everything I went through I was going to die here helplessly. No. I won't allow it. I will not die before I get my revenge. I looked at Jai one last time and took my mindwall down. A scream filled my mind. Dain's scream or Etetis's I am not sure. I tried to reach Etetis's power with no success. It was shouting at an empty room all I got was echo's of my effort. I thought about humans and Chaol and tried again. It still didn't work, nothing reacted. With hopeless eyes I turned towards Jai. As I was about to apologize Jai held my hands and I felt something rush through me. I felt my clothes being ripped behind me and two wings raised. Jai hugged me and I finally found the door at the empty room. This time when I tried to reach Etetis's powers it worked. Before the room we were in collapsed I opened a Rheta door and we all went through it. Then everything got dark.

*****

I am in a dark room with ruins of a building. It is nothing else than ruins and a chair in the room. Not remembering where I just was, I look around confused. That's when I saw Dain. I recognize him the second I see him. How could I ever mistake him for Etetis. Even though it was the first time seeing him it felt like I knew him my whole. And I did know him my whole life, just not his face. Everything about him was just so familiar, so safe that I got ashamed for thinking Etetis was Dain. With slow steps I neared him. He didn't react. He was looking at something behind me. Suddenly I lost my confidence and looked behind me. It was nothing else than ruins of a collapsed building.

"What are you looking at Dain? Aren't you happy to see me?" With my shaky voice his face turned to me with a sharp movement. Something was wrong. His eyes were unfocused and bloodshot. He began walking towards me with crushing steps. Something was very wrong.

"Why are you looking at me like that, Dain?" I took a step back. Stumbling on a rock I fell backwards. Dain stopped for a second before starting to walk even faster towards me.

"What is happening Dain? You are scaring me, just say something." He didn't listen to me. When he reached me I closed my eyes not wanting to see what he was do. But nothing happened. After several seconds I slowly opened my eyes and saw him sitting beside me. I righted myself and looked at his face. He was crying. Dain was crying. His silent tears were just so sad that it crushed my heart.

"Why are you crying Dain?" My voice shook and I started crying unwillingly.

"Why are you here , my darling? Did you come to watch your father die? It is very kind of you to not let me be alone but you should go. You can't handle this after your mother." My crying turned to sobbing uncontrollably.

"What are you talking about Dain? Who are you actually? And why would I watch you die? You won't die. You can't die. Don't you dare leave me after mother!" My confused glances were all gone and I was screaming now. Even though I understand everything, I didn't want to. I couldn't handle this. It should be a end to this, shouldn't it? Why do I keep losing people right after I find them?

"I know you know who I am, my darling. I am your father. All my life I tried to protect you from here but I can't do it anymore. The more I am alive you are going to get hurt. He is using our connection against you. But if I die he can't control you anymore. He can't put thought into your head but you can still use his powers if you bond with the right person. I know that you are upset but I have to do this or you won't be the only one to suffer. He is going to kill all the humans, he is going to make all the faeries his puppet."
"I don't care dad, you can't leave me. Not right now. Not when I just found you. I want to live with you, I want to take you to our town and show all the girls you. I want to say; here is my dad, I am not fatherless like you guys call. I want to shout; here is my dad and he loves more than anyone can. Please, you can't leave me." My sentence turned into begging and I knew there was no turning back from this. I needed my father to be with me. I couldn't bear losing him after so many years of longing. It was unfair, it was so fucking unfair. It was so unfair that I wanted to turn the world to ash just so that I don't lose another person. It was so unfair and I could not do anything about it. Just like my moms death I was doomed to watch him fade away and I couldn't do anything about it.

When I saw him raise I took a big rock to my hand and wiped my tears.

"If you leave me I promise I will smash this rock to my head and come with you. I mean it when I say that I can't bear it anymore dad. I will be ruined if you leave me too." With pained eyes he bent down and took the rock from my hand and hugged me tightly. He was so warm and so caressing that I promised to never let go of him. We both could die here in this ruin hugging each other.

"If you leave me after this you are the most cruel person in the world. You can't just let me taste a dads warmth and leave me forever" Even as I was saying this I could feel him fade away. Something warm dropped to my hand and I realized it was blood. No. No, no, no, no. I tried to raise my head and look at him but he held my head and didn't let me see him. Instead he hugged me more tightly.

"NO NO, GOD PLEASE NO. YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME DAD. YOU CAN'T LEAVE LIKE THIS. PLEASE DON'T GO, PLEASE, I AM BEGGING TO YOU. I CAN'T BEAR THIS ANYMORE. Please dad." My voice broke toward the end of my sentence and with the redness surrounding us I realized it was way too late. It was too late as always. It was too late as it was with my mom. It was just late

"I love you with all my heart my darling please know this. Beware that dead can't create miracles"

*****

"I fucking hate this sentence. I FUCKING HATE ALL OF THIS!" With my shouting everyone turned towards me and I realized I was not with my father anymore. He was gone and I was still here. He was dead and I was alive. I couldn't hold my promise again. All those promises were ruining my life and I couldn't hold one of them. My father was gone and I was still here. All my parents were gone and it was my fault. I was a fucking helpeless human and all I did was ruining my loved ones lifes. Polaris came to my peripheral and I immediately hugged her. I started sobbing with my never ending tears. We two were the only ones left to each other thanks to me and I would let him go from me. From now on it was no me it was we.

"Dain was never Etetis Polaris. He was my dad. I saw him, I hugged and then I buried him. He died in my arms. Why am I killing our parents? Why am I so bad?" I felt her surprise but she didn't say anything. Instead she continued to hug me.

"Are you going to leave me too? Is that why you are hugging me so tightly. Dad hugged me too just before he died."

"Oh my unfortunate sister, I am never going leave you. I am hugging you to show you that. I won't leave you even if you want." I looked into her eyes and hugged her more. As my sobs increased she continued hugging me. Everyone around us got silent and I felt Onyx nearming us. One by one everyone came closer and hugged us. We stood in a green field hugging each other. We were six wounded children hugging each other. We were six children who didn't care about being a fae or a human. We were six wounded children and we would do everything we could do to ruin those who ruined us.

****

"Are you better now?" Xara asked with a unsure voice. I was not. I would never recover from it. I would never recover but I would draw strength from this to put everyone who was responsible 6 feet under.

"I am not and I will never be so it doesn't matter. What matters is that we get to work immediately and end this suffering for everyone." Everyone moved uncomfortable but no one commented.

"My dad-" I wiped my tears that came automatically with his mention and continued. "My dad said that Etetis was using him to control my mind so that means he doesn't have a direct connection to my mind. He also said that even though Etetis's connection ends with him I will still have access to his power if I bond with the right person." I stopped and looked directly at Jai. "That right person is you Jaiblynn. When we were in the castle I couldn't reach to Etetis's powers until you held my hand."

Everyone got dead silent. I knew what bonding meant for faeries and it was a big thing. If you bonded with someone both parts could reach to other parts mind and powers all the time. If bonding is with someone else than family it unites both parts lives together which means if one of the parts gets hurt the other part can feel it too. And if one of the parts dies the other part dies too. Bonding between a fae and a human was more complicated. If a human and a fae bonded and the human survives the bonding human becomes a fae too. The only problem was the survival rate of humans in bonding was very low. Like very very low. Because of my father I was haf fae but it was still a very risky thing to do. I didn't want to bond my life to someone else. Especially since Jai would die if I died. And I will not bring one more person to death.

"Calm down everyone, even though my dad said that we would have to bond, I don't think it is that necessary. I can still access Etetis's power if I hold your hand Jai. We would probably need to bond if I want to have access to Etetis's powers when I am away from you but I don't want to risk a bonding when we are not sure what will happen to me. Pluss I am sure you don't want to bond with someone like me."

"I would love to bond with you Rosalynn, what are you talking about? But you are right about the rest. I never heard of a half fae bond and I am not sure if you can survive it." Well, this was awkward. As everyone continued to stare at each other awkwardly Onyx cut in.

"Ehm guys I don't want to ruin this very awkward stare contest but does someone know where that Rheta door took us to?" With Onyx's question everyone started looking around and I realized that I never thought of where I opened the Rheta door to as long as it took us from the castle.