It was so fucking cold. I was shivering everywhere in my body. Relief of getting rid of the flames was gone because I was freezing. I opened my eyes and looked around expecting a snowstorm or something like that but there was no snow or rain or storm. That was when I saw the blackness where the sky should be and remembered that it would have been impossible to have rain or snow here. Then why was I shivering? The events of yesterday filled my mind. Or maybe it was just some minutes ago? Confused, I stood up and realized I was not on the bridge anymore but on a rooftop. With Jai. Looking down from the roof I realized that we are on the roof of the safehouse. As I was going to go down to get some blankets Jai woke up.

"Oh are you awake?" He rushed to me and put his hand on my forehead.

"Yes and I am freezing I am going to go get some blanket" I said

"You are burning with fever Rosalynn, I am not going to let you take a blanket. We need to take this fever down," he responded. So that's why I am freezing. I nodded and sat back down.

In the silence that followed I started examining Jai. He looked.. well not good. He looked like he had recently gotten out of a fight. I frowned when I saw all the burn marks on his body. They were everywhere. I thought of me burning and Jai trying to stop me beside the lake. Wasn't all the burning just a sensation? Did I really catch fire? I looked at my own body but there were no burn marks.

I was afraid to ask but I did it anyway. "What happened to you, you look like you got out of a fight," I said, trying to joke.

"Imm, you happened?" he answered hesitantly

"What do you mean by that?" I was not really sure if I wanted to know the answer.

"Is it ok if I tell what happened to Etetis simultaneously?" He answered me with another question. This was starting to get really awkward.

"Well, yes of course if it is something they should know".

He thanked me and went down to get the rest of the group. While I was waiting I tried to make sense of everything alone. I went out of the safehouse after arguing with Raiden and at the end of the valley I found myself in another place with a bridge and a lake even though I never saw a lake here. I started to think about Jai's scars and my mom and started to get very mad. And then I started to burn. After burning for a while I jumped to the lake and Jai found me. Then I passed out. I thought I was just feeling like I was burning but considering Jai's burning marks I was really burning the whole time. But how was I still alive then? Or how was my skin not burned? There was no sense in this.

The roof door opened and everyone came in. Everyone was looking at me with sorry eyes. What is it now? I tried to catch Raiden's eyes but he was the only one who was not looking at me. Onyx came to me and hugged me tightly.

"I don't really like hugging but Eleni likes to hug when she is upset or sick and you are both so I thought you would like a hug" he said with a childish voice. I laughed, hugging him back. I was kinda used to Onyx unexpected movements but what I did not expect was Xara who hugged me after Onyx.

"If you are just a little bit like your sister I bet you are emotional. In case you need a girl friend I am here" she said.

"I am not emotional," my sister said defensively.

"Guys this is starting to get awkward, I am okay can we get to topic?" I said looking at Jai to save me.

"I totally agree. Let's sit here and let me talk" said Jai with an imperative voice. Everyone sat down without saying anything more and I started to look at Jai with expectation.

"We have a Rheta in our group." He looked at everyone as if this explained everything but seeing everyone was still very confused he shrugged and continued.

"Based on your looks no one read the faeries history book. A Rheta is a faerie capable of opening magical doors to everywhere they want. The last faerie who was ever said to be a Rheta was Etetis and well everyone knows what happened to him. I have no idea how but it seems that Rosalynn can also open doors. I don't think she is a faerie because faeries do not develop their powers before they develop wings and if you don't have two wings you are hiding from everyone you can't be a faerie." Everyone started to look at me with horrified eyes but I was the most terrified of them all.

"What the hell are you talking about Jai I did not open a fucking door to anywhere and what about the fla-

"Yes you did Rosalynn. The place I found you was not LIghtlee. There is no lake in Lightlee." he interrupted me before I could ask about the flames. Taking the signal from his eyes I took the mindwall down and let him speak to my mind.

"Don't say anything about the flames yet, we are going to talk about the later."

As I was going to ask why Eleni said: "Does that mean she can open a door to the human lands and open the pocket doors from there?" That made everyone quiet, including me.

"As awesome as it would have been, that is unfortunately not possible. If it would have been Etetis would have freed us a long while ago" responded Jai, removing everyone's hope. A heavy silence collapsed on top of everyone.

"But why Rosalinda? I don't understand. She is not even a faerie" said Xara, questioning.

"Yes Jai, why me of all people? I dont understand it either. Why did it have to be who saw my mom killed by faeries just to realize that I have powers that could have saved my mom? Why am I realizing this now? Why not then?!" My voice got higher at the end of my sentence and a sudden hate wrapped around me again. I wanted to destroy something so badly. No, I wanted to destroy Chaol specifically. I started to feel the burning inside me again. I am going to kill Chaol. I am going to kill him so brutally that no one is going to dare do anything to my loved ones again.

Suddenly Jai raised up and took me in his arms and jumped out of the roof.

"Breath Rosalinda, take a hold of your feelings you are burning again." I tried see away from my hate with Jai's voice but it didn't work.

An image of a crown room came to my eyes. Chaol was arguing with someone I didn't know. With the voice of the stranger something flashed in my mind. It was Dain's voice. Suddenly Chaol started shouting and stabbed Dain with a sword I did not see coming. "I will find a way to kill you Chaol," said Dain. "Dead people can't create miracles Etetis" replied Chaol laughing and the image disappeared.

My mind was not working properly, images of Chaol and Dain were flashing in front of my eyes. Wait not Dain his name was Etetis. But it couldn't be Etetis because he was dead and I could still communicate with him from my mind. Dead people can't create miracles. Dead people can't talk to you. Is Dain Etetis? I started to burn even more and Jai stopped holding me for a second. I started free falling but it didn't make me afraid, I felt like I was the strongest person in the world. No, I didn't just felt like, I was the strongest person in the world. I was invincible. I thought about Chaol and started burning even more. I don't know about dead people but I was going to create miracles and kill him. Kill him like he killed Etetis. Wait, not Etetis. Kill him like he killed my mom.

"Damn it Rosalinda, stop this! You are going to burn the down city down." Someone was saying something to me but I didn't turn around to hear what. I finally stopped freefalling and fell down to the ground. I looked back up to the black ground on top of us, I was going to kill the humans too. How dare they imprison us here? With the sensation of two wings growing behind me I smiled and started flying toward the castle. I am going to finish him today. His death will be so painful that it will be a lesson to everyone who ever thinks about doing anything to me. My burning limbs stopped bothering me and I became completely fire. Then I saw someone. I saw Jaiblynn flying behind me. My smile got bigger and I changed my mind. Capturing Jaiblynn and killing him in front of the King was a better idea than killing the King first.

"NO! THIS IS NOT YOU ROSALYNN! THOSE ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS" shouted Jaiblynn but i just continued smiling.

"You are right Jaiblynn this is not the little weak human you met, I am the best version of myself" Jaiblynn didnt listen to me and took out an arrow.

"I am so sorry Rosalynn but I have to do this" He said and fired the arrow. I responded with a fire wave and burned the arrow before it could reach me.

"Did you really think you could kill me with a pathetic arrow?" I asked, laughing.

"You are like your father, he thought he was so smart and look where we are now" Before I could continue a piercing pain surrendered my wings and I started falling. What the fuck? At the same time I saw Jaiblynn back me with another arrow and he fired it directly at my other wing before I could react. That bastard. I am going to make him regret that.

"ROSALYNN PLEASE LISTEN TO ME, I KNOW YOU ARE INSIDE SOMEWHERE; DON'T LET HIM CONTROL YOU. TAKE THE MINDWALL SPELL UP."

The fire around me stoppet for a second and the hate burning inside me stanced. I looked around me confused and suddenly realized what I was doing. I tried to kill Jai. Horrified of myself I took the mindwall up again and the wings behind me disappeared with the fire.

With a visible relief in his face he tucked his wings behind him and landed beside me. Afraid of myself I went a couple of steps back.

"I-I am so sorry, I didn't mean to. I don't know what happened but it was not me. I promise I didn't mean to attack you" I stammered. I was on the verge of tears.

"I know Rosalynn, I know. I was inside your mind, I saw everything" He answered softly.

"I don't know what is happening to me and I am so scared Jai" I started to cry. He sat beside me and hugged me while wiping my tears.

"It is okay my beauty, there is nothing with being scared"

"What is happening to me Jai? Please say that you know how to cure this because I can not keep living like this. I was literally about kill you and the king"

"I have a idea but I am not sure. But I know someone who can help us with this."

"With what Jai? I dont understand anything and it is making me crazy. Please tell me everything you know." I said desperately.

"I am going to Rosalynn but first I need you to tell me about Dain," he asked and I stanced. Everything got silent. The wind stopped howling. Animals stopped moving. The birds stopped chirping and I stopped moving with the name. Dain. My dear darling Dain. It was him. It was fucking him who did this to me. I thought about the rage I felt inside me, the hate. It was him. All this time the unnatural hate was his, not mine. I thought about the image I saw, the one about Chaol killing him everything fell into place.

"It was never me, wasn't it?"

"No, darling. It was never you. It was Etetis or Dain as you call him" All my life flashed before my eyes. All the times where Dain comforted me, all the times we laughed together. He was always there when I needed him. He was the dad figure I never had.

"But why me? There are plenty of other people he could mess with to take his revenge. Why would he choose me? I am not even a faerie" I tried to summon fire by myself and confirmed my theory. I didn't have any powers when I was me but when Dain-or Etetis, it was so weird to call him that- took over he lent me his powers and apparently his wings too since I didn't have any wings now. Just when I started to think that I was strong enough to take my revenge it was crushing to discover that it was not my power.

"Because the dead can't create miracles. " I started looking at him blankly but he was looking at me like I should understand him with just this one sentence. Unfortunately I didn't.

"I was in your mind all that time Rosalynn, I saw the image too. Don't you remember what Chaol said to Etetis before he killed him?"

"Yes I do remember it but what is it supposed to mean?" Dain was obviously dead and yet he was creating miracles, controlling my mind. Unless he was..

"Wait, do you think that he is alive?!" I asked horrified. Even if he was the last person who ever tried to lift the curse and free the faeries, even though Eleni and the rest of the group worshiped him so much that they named the group after him I could not imagine him being alive. After feeling his feelings, his rage, I knew that nothing good could come out of it. There was also the human problem because when he possessed me I also felt a big desire to kill all the humans which was not good at all. No, he can't be alive, that will mean disaster.

"I don't think he as a person is fully alive but I do think is some piece of him is still alive and I think that's why he chose you to take his revenge for him"

"And where is that piece of him that is still alive? We can just kill it and be done with it" Judging from his glances, I felt like it was not that easy but I waited for him to answer. He continued to stare at me and I stanced. He couldn't mean that could he?

"I am fucking not that piece Jai!"

"Look, I am not sure but everything leads to that. You don't know who your father is but you have different fathers with Polaris. You mom spends her whole life imagining saving faeries from pockets and you hear Etetis voice in your mind from God knows when. Then your Mom dies trying to save the faeries and you start losing your body to Etetis and his hate for Chaol grows crazy suddenly. Don't you think all this is a little too much to be a coincidence? Dead people can't create miracles but if you leave a living piece from yourself you can create all kinds of miracles."

"So you are suggesting that my lost dad is a fucking human hater? And I am a human? This doesn't even make sense because Etetis died a century ago and I am definitely not that old." I don't want it to make sense. I want to continue my life thinking my dad was an amazing person and that he at least was a human.

"We do have a hole there but I genuinely find any other explanations Rosalynn. He can't control anyone he wants from his grave and considering you can pull his powers the only logical explanation is you being his daughter and somehow have a living piece inside you"

"What do you mean pulling his powers? I thought he was totally taking my body and I became him and that was why I had his powers and wings?"

"He can't take over your body just because you carry a living piece of him. Even though he was the strongest faerie in the history there are limits to his powers, he can only control your mind and make you think things you originally didn't but he cannot become you. He can't give his powers. You took them with force" So I took the wings and powers of the strongest faerie in the history? Me? Fuck this, I cant even control my own mind. The power and wings bit was exciting but the fact that I can't have them while I have my mind was ruining it. The fact that I already hate Chaol was making this even more trickier. I looked up longing to see the sky but without success. I wondered why Etetis started to talk to me in the first place. If he was just using me he could let me live until he needed me. That way I wouldn't be friends with him and this betrayal would not have hurt that much. Was it always our loved ones that hurt us most or was it we who got most hurt by our loved ones? Realizing I have to let him go was not easy after all this year. Recognition of an abuser was not easy when you also had good memories with him. With the tear that escaped my eye I turned to Jai and hugged him.

"Let's just fly"
*****

We flew all the way back to the safe house but when I didn't say anything he turned back and started flying away. Which was all I wanted at the moment. I wanted to fly away from everything, I wanted to fly away from this world. I wanted to let him go and fall to the ground. I wanted to start falling and never stopping. I wanted to stop the time right here and never think about everything that happened just fly with Jai to the end of the world. Fly until I die, fly until I see my mom, fly until I manage to escape my mind.

"I wonder if this is how birds feel, flying all the time. Maybe the only place they want to reach is peace."
"I don't know about birds but we will reach peace, my beauty. Even if I have to carry you to the end of the world we will fly together and find peace in the vicious world, I promise"

Frowning, I said: "don't promise". Promises were no good to anything. It was just a stupid and all it required was; an innocent mind to believe, a liar tongue to say and two beating hearts. But when one of them stopped beating there was nothing the other part could do. Promised breaked hearts, I was better without them.

We flew in an empty infield for a while until Jai stoppet and landed abruptly.

"Why did we land now?"

"We are going to the wise tree. He is not there to help people find books, he is also the answer to all the questions in the world"

"One, I do not have a death wish so I am not going to go into the castle and we don't know what Etetis might do when I am so near Chaol just because the mindwall is stopping him doesn't mean it will do forever." Before he could say anything I raised my arm and cointuned. "Two, we are as far away from the castle as we could be, how in the world do you think we were going to meet the wise tree?"

"The mindwall spell you have on is no ordinary spell so he cannot break it even if wants to and I know you don't have a death wish but I promise you we won't get caught" I raised one eyebrow at that.

"Okay, I don't promise but there is a very low probability that we get caught because we are going to use a Rheta door to get into the library so we will be in and out before anyone sees us."

"I thought Rheta was faeries with ability to open doors to other places, I didn't realize there was Rheta doors other faeries could use"

"There is just one of them and no one but me and my father knows it is here. My dad thinks Etetis made this door in case he someday loses his abilities."

"Can faeries lose their powers?" I asked cruiselly

"No faeries i know of ever lost their powers but Etetis was a leery faerie"

I looked down to the ground looking for a door but I didn't spot it until Jai opened it. It was very well disguised.

"I know you are impressed that I found the door on the first try but the reason you can't see where it is is an illusion. We faeries can see through illusions if we consciously want it so you couldn't see it except you know how to see through illusions" But doesnt this mean that I am not a faerie? My unknown family relations are starting to tire me. Before I could say anything Jai took my hand and dragged both of us into the door.

One second we were at an empty field and the next we were inside the castle library. With all the emotions appearing in my head I realized that it was not a good idea to come here before I was a little bit settled about everything. I considered asking Jai to leave but decided it was not worth it especially since we already were here. I might as well get some answers when I am first here.

Before I started going towards the wise tree I looked up to take the sky illusion in. God, I missed the sky so much. Even if it was fake it was enough to make me happy. I am never going to take the sky for granted again. Smiling, I turned towards the tree and started walking. Jai followed me and handed me a knife. I slit my palm and let the blood drop to the leaves. Even though I was more prepared I still flinched when the tree started to laugh. Only if I could be as joyous as this tree.

"Don't mistake my laugh for happiness foolish human, when you live as long as me you just realize there comes no good from crying so you start laughing"

"Did I say that out loud," I asked Jai. When he nodded I blushed with shame but Jai didn't mind me and started telling the tree our theories.

When he finished tree just stared at us as if trying to see if we were serious. When we didn't say anything the three started laughing again.

"Did you really think you were the daughter of Etetis? It looks like I disdained how foolish you were. You are no daughter of Etetis, neither is your dear Dain Etetis. They are completely different people. You do not have any piece from Etetis in you, that is the stupidest thing I have heard in my life. But Etetis does have two sons. Your dear Dain has shown you the biggest clue when he showed you the event that happened in the crown with Chaol and Etetis but you guys are reading it completely wrong. Remember; dead people can't create miracles."

As I was going to ask tree what he meant we found ourself back in the field with more questions we had before we went in. We both turned back and stanced with the person in front of us.

"I see that you are making it a vane to sneak into my library human girl. The wise three is right my stupid boy, dead people can't create miracles but I am fully alive and I can't create with them as I wish," said Chaol. With a snap of his finger we found ourself in a very dark cage.

I turned to Jai and said "promises, indeed".