My hands shaking..

Trying to comprehend what to do..

As I look at myself in the mirror..
Eyes fill with unshed tears..

Lips apart but no voice coming out...

I close my eyes and gulp down harshly to swallow this suffocation...

But the more I swallow,the more it comes back..

My heart is in pain..

I open my eyes and look at the face which is just blank and tired..

I look at closely in the eyes and see a tear sliding down ..

Just one..

Nothing more ..

Just one...

My throat, closing up..

I want to scream but no voice coming out..

I can't do it anymore...

I take a deep breath in an out ,trying to calm my racing heart..

They all just hurt me..

They don't care bout me..

They don't even want to understand me..

I hate myself for saying this,

But I hate them..

I hate them with all my heart..

I can't do it anymore..

I am just letting go...