There's gonna be blood/gore near the end so here's your warning now.
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I don't know who Erza did it.

I don't know what sort of witchcraft she has up her sleeve.

But she some how managed to get the table in a...less awkward atmosphere.

Yup. You heard it right. Once again the Erza Scarlet has managed restore life into a dead end situation; now giving us light conversations with a feathery atmosphere.

I don't know if the food had some part to play in this, but they DEFINITELY weren't lying when they said the food here was great.

Happy had apologized to Natsu, yet he still remained on my lap the entire time practically talking my ear off about all the events that have been occurring at the guild. Nothing much has happended in those 3 days to be honest. I think he said something about Reedus making me a painting. That could be cute.

'Hmm...what do I wanna eat next...?' I contemplated in my mind as I scanned over the menu, yet again. I haven't been keeping track of all the plates that have been coming back and forth from the kitchens to our table.

"Hey (N/n), slow down! You're gonna choke." Gray chuckled as I continued to shove the food in my mouth. I simply looked at him, gulped, and started eating from his plate as well. I did my best to ignore Lucy and Carla's judging glares boring (?) into my skull.

He merely rolled his eyes and I chuckled at his fading annoyance. Happy still resided in my lap, and started to purr in satisfaction as he had gotten yet another piece of fish.

"Hey Happy, don't you think 5 fish is a little too much?" I asked as he began to reached for another. He looked at me and rolled his eyes. "Says the girl who just finished he 7th plate AND you're still eating." He said in a matter-a-fact tone.I shot him a glare before breaking into a fit of laughter.

"Hey (N/n), I've never seen you eat so much!" Natsu commented with a hint of amazement laced in his tone. He then picked up his plate and gestered it to me. "You want some of mine?" He asked with a smile on his face.

I nearly choked on my food as I had just processed the situation. Natsu Dragneel.... THE Natsu Dragneel is offering to share his food? I must've hit my head on something because this does not make any sense to me.

"U-uh..." I stutter out as I continued to eye the plate and Natsu. My felt my cheeks heat up as I realized that I was staring. 'Does this mean that Natsu does like me? Like, does he like me as more than a friend?' A shimmer of hope began to blossom in my chest at the thought of him giving me a chance.

"O-oh! Uh...yeah... Yeah sure." I flash a nervous smile before reaching for the plate. I was only a few centimeters away before the plate was snatched from my awaiting grasp.

"It's ok Natsy, I'll eat it for you!" Lucy says as she held the plate in her pampered hands and placed it beside her first plate that has barely been touched.

"Hey what gives!? That plate was for (N/n)!" Natsu exclaimed as he stared at the blonde. "And you haven't even touched your plate at all! What's that all about!" The pyro finished.

Lucy merely scoffed and rolled her eyes. "C'mon Natsy, I was hungry and I didn't wanna eat my food." She lied. "And besides," she says before turning her heated gaze towards me, " I think piggy over here has had enough to eat. Isn't that right (N/n)~?" She concluded.

The way she said my name. The way it dripped with poison as it passed her tainted pink lips. The way her deadly chocolate eyes pierced my being as she spoke every word had sent unnerving shivers down my spine. I could hear muffled snickering in the distance, in which I could only assume was Carla.

I had to shake the unnerving feeling she gave off and act like I was unbothered by her piggish comment.

"Well Lucy," I began. The entire tables atmosphere began to change as it started to grow dense and unsettling as everyone's eyes had begun to watch the scene unfold, " if you bothered to take you tongue out of Natsu's throat then maybe you'd care enough to get to know your fellow teammates." I began.

She merely scoffed and rolled her eyes before a lightbulb seemed to go off in her head. "Why are you so focused on what I do with him? Are you jealous or something?" She taunted with a smirk.

My eyes grow wide as I try to open my mouth to retaliate before she cuts me off. "Oh sweetie, don't think I haven't noticed your little innocent act. You've always had a little thing for Natsu haven't you~?" She says.

HUH!?! Is it that obvious?

I felt a small tug at my shirt causing me to look down to where my eyes met Happy's. "It's not worth it (N/n). Please don't try to argue with her. It's not gonna end well." He warned me. I wanted to take his words into consideration. I really did. But....I couldn't.

"It's not like that! I-" "You what? Are you upset that I figured you out? Are you upset I won? That I got Natsu before you and you were left to be forgotten~? News flash (Y/n), he's mine." She finished with a triumphant smirk plastered across her lips.

Then the table fell into a silence.

It was like no one had dared to speak in the eerie and cautious silence.

My throat had began to torment me again as the irritating itch came back along with the obnoxious need to cough in that very moment.

I had started to burry my face in the thick wool of my scarf in an attempt to muffle small coughs and sniffles that blotted scarlet dots into its (f/c) fleece. I did my best not to show pain on my face as the scarf began to rub against the cheap bandages and irritate the throbbing wounds that lie underneath.

I could feel Happy's shaking paws grip my shirt almost like an apology and a warning as he watched the irritation grow on our teammates faces. I hated every bit of this lunch.

"Uggghhh, why'd the table get so boring!" Lucy complained. "Is this because of what I told (Y/n)? Look if it's gonna be that much of a problem then I'm just gonna leave." She said as she begun to stand up before noticing the hopeful glint in my eyes that caused a devilish expression to grow on her features.

"You know what," Lucy begins as she forcefully tugs Natsu's chin in her direction, "I'm really bored Natsy. Can we leave and go do something more...interesting?" She teases in a babyish/seductive tone. She doesn't give Natsu any time to respond as she sloppily slammed her lips against his.

He noticeably squirmed uncomfortably as if he was feuding with himself, but didn't retract himself from their sloppy make-out in front of everyone.

I felt Happy shift away from the scene as he began to softly nuzzle himself into my chest. I guess Happy didn't want to be here either.

If only I could've done the same.

My body froze at their forceful liplock as I felt Wendy's spell become useless. In mere seconds my body began to reject the scene in front of me as I broke out into a fiery of coughs, gags, and hacks.

Everyone's attention had snapped into my direction, even Natsu's for a breef moment before Lucy clutched his jaw and forced him back into their heated make out. Her twisted brown eyes bore into my teary (e/c) ones.

I knew that if I stayed any longer then the group would be revealed to the reason why I've been absent from the guild these last few days, and I'm not ready for anyone to know that.

Still coughing and gagging, I shove Happy off of my lap and run towards the exit; ignoring everyone's (especially Gray's) shouts and pleas for me as I bolt away from the restaurant.

I could hear someone's shouts in the distance, but that only caused me to pick up my speed. I did my best to navigate my way through crowds as hot tears began to blur my vision.

I couldn't tell you how difficult it was to successfully find my way to FairyHills, but I couldn't be more grateful to be blessed with it's enormous presence.

I jogged through hallways and panted as I stumbled up a few flights before recognizing my dorm's number residing on its assigned bronze plate sitting atop the door's frame.

I began to hastily pat my body down as I frantically searched for my keys that I remember misplacing. I heard it's clattering reside in my back pocket before I shakily took it out and tried my best to fit it into the lock.

My hands were shaking as they continued to fidgit as they grasped the door's knob. The second I heard the lock click (indicating that it was unlocked), I forcefully burst through the door and collapsed on the floor; definitely forgetting that I left my door open.

My body began to violently convulse and twitch as the aftermath of Wendy's spell had finally wore off. I lie twitching, coughing, and gagging as I felt a harsh substance crawl through my chest and claw at my throat.

This feeling caused a unbearable pain to strike through my entire torso, as it began to claw at my insides. I attempted to scream, but nothing surfaced except for sickly gargling sounds as I began to choke on my own blood. Tears began to well up in my eyes as I feared the worst.

I was gonna die

I attempted to use all of my strength to pull me into a crawl-like position, where I was propped up on my hands and knees thinking that the new position would help the petals subside faster. And it worked....

But not the way I wanted it to

Yes, the petals came faster, but so did the substance.

I could feel it rushing through my body quicker than before, and it quickly began to shed my throat. I attempted let out a pathetic scream, but my voice came out raspy and broken.

I began to use my left hand to tear at my scarf, and it successfully allowed me to tear and claw at the bandages that resided there. I kept clawing, not even stopping when I felt the warm and torn flesh that and begun to ooze down my arm. But I didn't care.

I thought this pain would distract me from the agonising torture that now rested at the back of my throat.

I had had enough.

I took my left and plunged it into my mouth as an attempt to rip the pain out of my body. I didn't care what it did to me in the future; I just needed it gone now.

Without hesitating, I began to tug and the mysterious object, flinching as I felt it....poke me??

The more I tugged the louder my sobs and screams grew. My vision was completely blinded by hot tears that uncontrollably poured from my eyes.

'I don't know how I've managed this long, but I'm not ready to give up yet.' I told myself as I shut my eyes tightly before yanking the object out of my throat.

I let out an ear-piercing scream that came out weak and gagged as I completely collapsed on my floor.

My hand was gripping the object as tightly as possible, but it hurt... Alot.

My eyes were blurred from both tears and my consciousness fading in and out every passing second. I could taste the overpowering metallic liquid pouring past my dry and chapped lips, as it began to pool on my floor and stick to my cheek.

My entire upper body was screaming for me to stay still and lie there, but I had to see what was causing the pain.

Rolling onto my side, I weakly lift my left hand. I immediately notice that it was completely adorned in crimson from my finger tips to elbow; but then again, it'd be hard to miss so much blood covering one being.

I look at the balled fist, and look at the dark wire-like threads. I knew they weren't wires, I'm not stupid.

They were stems

I wanted to cry and curl up into a bawl, but my energy was completely depleted; so I just lied there.

I let go of the stems, and hiss at the sudden pain I felt as I watched the stems fall limp to the floor. I looked at my palm and noticed a few gaping holes in them that began to ooze down my already bloodied arm.

Looking back towards the stems I examine the raised pointed peaks in its crimson-drenched state.

They were thorns

Not only were there just buds anymore, but there was now stems and thorns.

Just my fucking luck.

See here I lied. My throat oozing, my neck oozing, my hand oozing, with an incurable disease.

I'm living the best fucking life if I do say so myself.

At this rate, I was gonna bleed out; and I was completely fine with that. I wanted to do so much in life. I wanted to go ice-skating. I wanted to bake my first cake alone. I wanted to go on a shopping-spree. I wanted to cuddle with Happy and Wendy. I wanted to try and have a non-lethal conversation with Carla. I wanted to have more movie nights with Gray.

I wanted Natsu to love me.

But none of that was going to happen. It's clearly not in the books for me. I was clearly meant to die for having feelings that I couldn't control.

So I used the rest of my strength and pulled myself into a ball as I hugged my knees, and being to let out pathetic, raspy, and croaking sobs. It didn't take I genius to realize that I had completely demolished my vocal cords.

So I lied there and cried.

My bawling was immediately tune out as I heard another sound echo over my own. It sounded muffled and strangled as if it knew it wasn't supposed to be there. Then it hit me...

I never closed the door

Fear pierced through my body as my blood ran cold. Someone was there. Someone was watching this all unfold. Someone knew about my disease.

There are a handle of people I didn't want to know about my disease, but two people were at the very top of my list.

Natsu and...

I mustered up all my remains strength to turn my entire body towards the doorway.

And there she stood...

The second person I didn't want to see me like this. She was standing right there.

I'm sorry...

I'm so so sorry...

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Wendy....
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