I used to be a shy nerd back in my school and college Jimin. I hardly had any friends. Taehyung, your ex boss' husband, is my only childhood friend and he too became my friend because he is my elder brother's best friend and so he used to come at our house a lot, resulting in our friendship but soon we left the city.

Coming to my college life, my life was pretty much the same- A shy nerd who had only one friend Mina. Then there was this college heartthrob and Mina's biggest crush named Daniel.

I was often bullied in college by other students who said that noone would ever fall in love with me and this used to hurt me a lot. Everything was going the same until one day Daniel proposed to me.

I was pretty shocked and didn't know how to answer while Mina on the other hand, like a true lover, told me to accept the proposal so that her crush won't be insulted. Since I was bullied a lot, I thought that accepting the proposal would help in it and Daniel was rumored to be a gentleman. I accepted the offer and started dating.

Daniel: I love you Y/n. Thankyou for coming in my life.
You: *smiles*

He then started asking me to sleep with him. Since I wasn't ready, I refused but he kept on asking me continuously.

This continued till one day I saw him kissing a girl in front of his friends. I lost my temper and shouted at him and then I got to know that he had been dared by his friends to kiss the girl.

But the fact that he agreed to do it was enough for me to break up with him. I was hurt because he cheated on me. And then I got to know that he never loved me. He proposed me because he made a bet that he will make me fall for him.

By this time I was broken. I thought that I finally had someone who truly loved me but I was wrong. My bullies were right, noone would ever love me.

On the other hand it seemed like Daniel actually fell for me. He kept on trying to get me back while I kept on refusing him. I even told him that I never loved him but he still followed me.

One day I was at my father's company when something happened. I told my father that I was leaving the company and went outside his cabin but first I went to the washroom which turned out to be my worst decision. When I wanted to leave I found out that someone has locked the door from outside and I was stuck inside for a pretty couple of hours. I forgot my phone in my father's cabin so there was no way of contacting anyone.

After 2 hours the door opened revealling someone I didn't expect- Daniel. I asked him how he came inside and he said none of the big companies can refuse him to visit them.

He was drunk and started trying to forcefully kiss me. I somehow ran and hid in my father's cabin but for no use since he found me.

??: I will make you mine today.

You: *crying hard* P-please leave m-me. D-don't do this p-please.

??: *smirk* I won't stop babygirl. You won't be able to resist me after today.

You were continuously crying while he started sucking your neck. You tried your best to push him away but nothing worked as he was way more strong than you.

You: NOOOOOO!!!!

My screams were somehow heard by the watchman outside and I was saved. Since then I have been depressed.

I couldn't think straight. I felt disgusted with myself. But he didn't stop.

He mixed something in my drink and made me lay down in such a position that I was on him and it looked like I was the one who tried to do "it" with him which was not true.

He took our pictures in that position and started to threaten me. When I still refused he leaked the pictures telling everyone his fake story that I was the one who blackmailed him and everyone believed him... even Mina. She started hating me and the only friend I had in college was lost.

I walked down the hallway with my head down as I could hear the students whispering.
Girl1: Isn't she the one in the picture?
Girl2: Yeah who could have thought she would turn out like that.
Boy1: She is a perfect example that we should not judge a book by it's cover.

I tried to make people believe me but noone trusted me. It was clear from the picture too that I was not the one who did that.

How can I take pictures when both of my hands are visible in the photo and only one hand is visible of his? It was obvious that I didn't take those pictures. He is the one who took it but noone believed me.

Daniel kept on saying that he would make everything alright if I agreed to be his girlfriend again but I still refused. I even filed a complain against him but he was proven not guilty because he bought our lawyers.

I was depressed Jimin... I was betrayed, my friend left me, I became alone since everyone thought I was a bad influence, I was tried to be harassed and I was blackmailed. All of these things made my mind go blank.

I kept on having negative thoughts. Suicidal thoughts covered my mind and so my brother took me to hospital for meeting a psychiatrist but Daniel came there too.

It looked like he was obsessed with me. He came inside when the doctor wasn't there and forcefully took me outside... If I say in easier words.. I was kidnapped. My mouth was taped and my tears were continuously falling.

This made it hard for me to breath and I eventually fainted. When I woke up, I found myself in an unknown room but I was alright and nothing happened.

When he kidnapped me, my brother followed us from behind and so I was safe. When I woke up, my brother was beating the shit out of him. After that he stopped being like that. He didn't do any such things but he still tried to contact me and I didn't have any other option but to leave the city.

But I was depressed. The flashbacks often came in front of my eyes and that would scare me out of my wits and I would end up fainting.

People hated me because of what Daniel told everyone and this is why I started youtube. I wanted people to love me. My dream was always to launch an app and I still worked on it but I took up youtube too so that I can prove others that I can also be loved.

And it worked! People loved me, they appraised me and that helped me a lot in coming out of depression but I wasn't completely alright even then.

My fans are the reason I smiled again but I still had those flashbacks now and then. The line that none of the big companies can refuse him stuck in my mind and that is why I prefered being in an average company for my app launch and not in a very known one.

He made me believe that love can be obsessing that is why I couldn't risk being in a relationship again. He is the reason why I decided to start youtube.

Also the reason why I didn't tell you all of this is because I couldn't risk talking about my past. I feared that if I do, the falshbacks will return and I will faint.

But you know what? You are the reason why I finally believe that love is not obsessing.. Love is beautiful. I just recovered completely from my depression like a few days ago.

When you saw me coming out of the hospital that day, smiling like crazy, I completed my treatment Jimin. I am no longer depressed.

Also, the guy you showed me the picture of today, he is Daniel, my ex. I didn't tell you at that time because I thought you are anyway going to know through this letter so there was no point in telling you and having a mountain of questions being fallen down my head.

You know, I never had flashbacks when I was around you.

You know Jimin, when I first saw you outside Bella's house, you got my heart beat fast in the very second and now that I look back at it... I fell in love at first sight with you.. I love you Jimin.. And I hope you will believe me.. You will trust me and you won't be like others who left me..
                                                     ~Your Y/n

Once I completed reading the letter, I immediately took my phone and looked at the pictures. She was right. If we look at the pictures clearly, it can be seen that they were taken by Daniel and not Y/n. I felt my legs giving up as guilt took over my body. This is when I heard my Dad,

JIMIN!! COME HERE RIGHT NOW!!

I rushed outside and what I saw stopped my heart.

The television was on and news was showing up with the headlines

FAMOUS EX-YOUTUBER JUNG Y/N FOUND DEAD ON ROAD.

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Just wanted to inform you all, Y/n committed suicide.