Minghao POV

I opened my eyes, looking around and my surroundings and reality hit me at once. Jun was gone. I was still in the hospital waiting for someone to pick me up. I slowly got up and walked to where I saw Jun last. Laying there not moving. "W-here is he?" I said, my voice was sore from crying, but I couldn't stop. "Where is Jun?" I asked when a nurse walked by, She pointed into another room which I then walked into. I pulled back the sheet that was covering his body. His skin was pale and cold, his hair was a mess. I saw that someone had at least cleaned the blood off. I couldn't do it. I covered his body with the sheet and quickly left the room bursting into tears once I had left.

Me: Hyung I need a ride from the Hospital

Jeonghan: We can't leave, a manager will pick you up.

Here I was standing in front of all 12 members, managers, eagerly waiting to hear how he was doing. I held back my tears. "By the t-time I was at the H-Hospital-"  I quickly wiped away a new tear. "Jun w-was dead. He h-had lost to m-much bl-blood a-a-and CPR wasn't h-helping, s-so they pron-nounced him d-d-dead" I started crying and I ran up the stairs into my dorm. I sat next to my bed, rocking myself. It should have been me who died not Jun. It should have been me. I wasn't even there when he died to say goodbye, what kind of boyfriend am I? Now I lost he one person who truly cared I can't be without him. I should have died.