Thank god that awful dinner was over. See the food was amazing but the scene, the people and the looks that I was getting nope not not for me.

So now I have to suck it up and do the right thing now. So here am I sitting in the bed of Ethan and he is in the washroom. And I am doing what?

Sorry didn't get you there I am fucking hyperventilating. I feel like I am going to die any moment. How am I going to say this boy over here that I am going to break up with him. Oh my god I said it aloud for the first time and boy it feels good.

See Ethan is the most sweetest and kindest guy I have ever seen. That is one of the main reason now I am here deciding to end our relationship. Cause my heart is now beating for someone else as cliche as it sounds. What am I supposed to do?
I guess love just happens right.

I think I was too much in my head that I didn't notice Ethan coming out of the washroom. He looks tired, I feel sorry for the countless practices that his coach is making them to do.

I am feeling bad about that too I just don't want him to spiral back at me after I say him, I don't want his stress to start taking toll in him and lash out at me or something.

That's why now I am visibly shaking when he is smiling like an angel and is coming towards me.

I start contemplating like how once when I saw his face it brought a smile back on my face. Like how I wanted to see him smile and that giddy feeling I felt, that's sadly lost all now.

I have only read in books or seen in movies when people say they fall out of love. It's not that I have ever said him back either. That's when all comes back to me in full force, I didn't even say him "I love you!"

I feel like hitting my head on something right now.

How was I very blind and knocking away all sensible thoughts away from my minds? I was in a very unhealthy state of mind I guess.
I hear him say "Penny for your thoughts?"

I smile at him and motion him to sit in the bed.

He smiles and comes and sits on the bed. That's the moment I forget how to breathe. It's not like before when his closeness made me go all happy, now it's just making me feel claustrophobic.

So I move back a little and thank god he didn't place his hand over mine and also how he didn't notice my shaking hands and legs?

Tucking my legs I place my hands on my lap and take in a deep breaths and say "Ethan I am going to say you something. I want you to hear it nice and clear. I want you to be patient and think about it rationally. I know the time is shit now, but better late than sorry right." I try to smile a little.

That's when Ethan's facial expression changes from a smile into frown. And that's when it hits me that I am actually going to break up with a guy who didn't treat me nothing but like a queen. He was just everything a girl can aspire for.

He looks worried and I am stopping my hands to cup his face. And that when he beats me to and catches my face in his hand and asks me "What happened Savannah?"

I know it's serious when he uses my full name. I withdraw my face from his hands and just say it out aloud. I say "Ethan I think we must break up!"

Oh my god did I just say that loud. Oh my god I am feeling nothing. I don't know what to feel, I just feel the room is shutting down I am forcing myself to look up at his face. But I just can't move my head. It's stuck. My heart rate is increasing and my face is becoming red and warm.

I can feel a hand at my chin, and slowly I open my eyes to see Ethan's beautiful brown orbs.

But that's when all the emotions hit me and I can feel my eyes burn and a lonely tear falls down my left eye.

He quickly wipes them off, I can see his eyes tearing as well and he asks the question that I was most fearing of, he asks "Why?"

More tears have started falling from my eyes, I get up from the bed in an instant as if it burned my derrière.
He looked up at me waiting for an answer.

I whisper slowly "I.. I just don't..

I am sorry Ethan. It's just that... I don't know what I am feeling, it's complicated."

And I look down and feel my heart shatter to look at his face. It looks like he is in actual pain. And that look breaks me inside.

I fall onto my knees and say him repeatedly sorry. And my tears keep on flowing non stop now. My situation looks pathetic right now, I am just a crying mess.

But I just can't form proper words, and just like how the universe loves me so much.

Lily opens the door at the right time and sees our state and goes running downstairs screaming
" Momma Savannah made brother cry!"

And that's when I look up to see tears falling continuously from Ethan's eyes. And I feel like such a bad person right now. I look up at him one last time before I get up to leave.

And that's when he catches my hands and when I turn to look back I see a different Ethan, he facial expression is a mix of anger and sadness.

It looks as if he is seething in anger, he tugs my hand in full force and I fall onto his chest and that's when he says in a voice that brought chills "That's where you belong Savannah in my arms, I know you have feelings towards that damn Jacob. Do you think I was blind. That ogling eyes you both were giving each other. And do you think I was very dense and didn't understand when Vanessa told the other day that I proposed you in the diner. Guess what I knew it then and there itself, but what did I do. I beat that motherfucker and got you in my clutches. That boy was a weeny little boy, who the fuck gives away the girl that they love in silver platter to someone else. Not me. And that's why I am saying you Savannah. You can't end this relationship, don't ever think about it."

His voice, his face and everything is giving me shivers. I am feeling very helpless and scared and that's nothing I felt before. All the things that he said his echoing in my mind and the moment he shakes me off, I fall onto the ground.

And that's when all hits me and I start crying at my predicament. He was indeed the boy, Jacob tried to warn me off. I think about all the stares he gave away at guys, I brushed them off thinking he was possessive but it's just that he is psychotic.

And that he really needs help and I have to get the fuck out of here before he does something to me. So I start moving away from him by crawling towards the door and that's when he catches my hand and falls onto the ground and is now in the same eye level as mine and his expression is totally different now and he looks like the normal Ethan I knew.

And that's when it strikes me he is indeed having a mental issue. Don't judge me but this boy who is now staring into my eyes is in need of serious help.

I get up and start running away from him and that's when Mrs.Chase comes into the scene and pushes me out of the door and locks his door from outside.

I start breathing finally and I look up at Mrs. Chase who is having a knowing look and places an hand over my shoulder and says "Dear we have a lot to talk about can we?"

I can hear the bangs and kicks that Ethan is giving to the poor door and I nod my head in fear and she just smiles and guides me downstairs.

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Phew what a twist right. I hope you like it.
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