a/n: this is more like the narrator or author's point view

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They got home and Minji gave him some clothes that he'd left here whenever he stayed over. Their families were really close, so it was quite normal for them to stay over at each other's house. Seungmin got changed quickly, and the anger from earlier had almost completely left him now. He was now just feeling annoyed as he came out of the bathroom and back into Minji's room. She was already changed too and now sitting on the bed.

She glanced at him  and said
"lets go, dad's home and they're waiting so we can have dinner together."

His eyes softened as he looked at her.
He had almost forgotten the earlier situation, but as he looked at her, he remembered everything that happened again because he could see a small hint of worry in her eyes.
 He let out a sigh as he leaned forward, gently grabbing her forearms and pulling her closer to him. He felt sorry, he couldn't pin point what it was that made him so sad and protective.

Maybe that's what loss does to you. It never really leaves you.

It puts you in a constant fear losing someone else, someone you really care about, someone you love. The fear that you wont be able to stop when something terrible happens.
So you go crazy, hyperaware of everything, everything that's a potential threat.
Seungmin knew, very well that to some extent, it was wrong.
He just had to control his pent up anger, guilt, that had made it its home in him.

But taking that anger out on someone else, was not the way to go. 

He knew that, and he'd try.

He promised he would. So he had to.

But he was so mad at himself. If he couldn't protect him, could he not protect Minji too?

Minji noticed the sudden clinginess and said

"you're being clingy today, something wrong? If it because what happened earlier-"

Seungmin's arms tightened around her a bit as he heard her words. He knew he was being clingy, but he couldn't help himself. He was scared of the smallest things, and that she might get hurt, and that he would not be able to anything about it.

Just like what happened 6 years ago.
He couldn't do anything could he?

"It's nothing...I just don't feel good, is all..."

She said with a chuckle, 

"Are you sure?"

"Ugh, just shut up and relax for a few minutes."

"Okay, I'm being serious you really need to make friends, guy friends. 
People are going to misunderstand if they ever see this."

Seungmin pulled his face away from her hair and shot her a slight glare as she mentioned making new friends. But he especially hated the part where she mentioned people misunderstanding his clinginess.
They weren't wrong, It was very obvious that the weren't just friends.
They just dint know... They always confused it with care, kindness, fear, protectiveness and  comfort.

"No way. I don't need any more friends. I don't need anyone else. You're all I need."

"You know that's not enough right?  What will you do once I move away for college and you become a trainee or do whatever you have to do to become a singer?"

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They always had a dream. The three of them.
Yes, there was once three of them.

Minji wanted to be a Lawyer.

Seungmin wanted to be a Singer.

Jeongin once wanted to be a teacher.
"Oh what an amazing teacher he would have been" Is what they thought.
Not aloud, no. They weren't ready to properly talk about it.

They talked about it once. Once when it had just happened.

And never was it ever brought up again.
 If brought up, it was quickly buried again, almost immediately.

But it was time. Time to try and face it.
It was now or never.

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