Louis in this. This is my life js

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He said lets get out of this town, drive out of the city away from the crowd.

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True to his word, when Louis walked by the familiar building on his way to school he didn't see Harry. In fact, he didn't see Harry for almost two whole weeks.

Louis began to think that in some odd way he'd made Harry up, just as fast as he'd appeared in his life, Harry was gone. With no trace. Louis didn't try to make that upset, he felt even more ridiculous if he let that happen.

He walked to school and came home, in the same boring manner as before. He made small talk with Liam, while Liam made dinner and he tried to focus on his homework and study.

But, Harry was always in the back of his mind, and Louis really just wanted to see him again. And so, at the end of the two weeks, when Louis heard the familiar tapping at his window, he couldn't help but smile.

When warm arms enveloped him in a hug, and his heart started to beat faster, Louis realized he was already a goner for Harry, but at the same time he didn't care.

Harry brushed his lips against Louis' neck, and Louis couldn't help but giggle. "Hi love,"

"Hi." Louis replied and he turned to Harry and leaned up to kiss him. Harry chuckled, but he leaned down and their lips met gently. "Where did you go?" Louis mumbled against his lip, and his hands ran over the smoothness of Harry's black jacket, up to his dark curls, realizing that Harry was real and that Harry was there.

"Had to take care of some things. How are you?" Harry said, he pulled back and sat on Louis' bed. Louis walked over to check that his door was locked, already knowing that Liam had a behavior of opening without knocking.

"I'm good. Missed you though." Louis admitted. He sat down beside Harry, he wanted to feel Harry's warm hands on him once more, but he didnt- he didn't think it was something he should want.

"Well, it's only half past nine. How about that little outing I promised you?" Harry said, and he arched his eyebrow at Louis who glanced away from Harry's large hands to meet his green eyes.

"Okay...where?" Louis asked.

Harry smiled, "it's a surprise babe."

Louis bit his lower lip, "O-okay."

Harry's face lit up. "Cool. Okay, so just meet me outside in three minutes." He stood up. He brushed his hand against Louis' cheek.

"You don't- you don't have to be gentle with me Harry. I'm not glass." Louis noted. He took a deep breath. "If-if you want to touch me, you don't have to ask." He said this quietly, his cheeks flaming up in embarrassment. Harry nodded, knowing that of course, as predicted, Louis would be easy. But, Harry knew Louis didn't know what he was saying.

"Okay love." And Harry walked back to the window. "See ya in a few."

Louis nodded and watched him go. He ran to the bathroom and fixed himself- or he tried to. He was a lost cause. Frowning, he thought that, Harry's seen him in worse conditions, it's okay.

A minute later he was walking downstairs. And of course he just couldn't escape Liam's watchful eyes. "Lou, where are you going it's almost 10." Liam asked from where he was in the living room.

"Out...I'll be back soon." Louis said and he kept walking before Liam could continue his questions.

He was outside and he kept looking around for Harry's figure, when Harry came out of the shadows Louis grinned. He felt a little mischievous for doing this, keeping things from Liam and now...this.

Harry took a hold of his hand, and lead him down the street to a motorcycle. Louis paled slightly, but he tried to hide it, especially when Harry got on and looked at Louis expectantly. Louis trembled as he got on, "just hold me tight." Harry assured him. Louis buried his head against Harry's back, and Harry started the motorcycle.

Louis tried to focus on the fact that Harry was in his arms, that it was his curly hair tickling his cheek. Soon, but not soon enough Harry stopped the motorcycle. And when Louis looked up he was met with an array of lights dangling from two trees, and in between those two trees there was a a thick blanket and food- and wow.

Louis stared dumbfounded at what he was seeing. Harry got off and helped louis off. Louis looked around and saw there was no one around, it was an almost perfectly secluded spot.

It was pretty. So, so pretty. And Harry did this?

"Is it okay? I'm not sure." Harry muttered shyly.

"It's okay. It's perfect. But - why?" Louis asked.

"Because- you deserve it." Harry mumbled.

Louis turned to him, he wrapped his arms around Harry and hugged him. "You don't have to. I know what I am to you Harry. All this- it just, it gives my dumb self hope that what we could have could be more even though you and I both know it'll never be more."

Harry sighed, "Lou. I know what I'm doing. And, I know that too. But I also know you deserve more than a careless fuck."

Louis bit his lip, and Harry cupped his cheek. "Look at me love." Louis met his eyes. "You are Lou, and you deserve so much, and I know that. And I just know that I want you near me, even if it means not being able to have you in any way other than this. I've thought about it for a while now and, I don't want this to be just a fuck and leave kind of thing Lou. You deserve so much more than that."

"What are you saying?" Louis asked.

"What I'm saying is. Let's just be friends for now. No nothing yet, because I don't think you could handle the type of person that I am when it comes down to it."

"So...you don't want me like that anymore?" Louis asked.

"What? Of course I want you, but you're Lou. And-"

"It's okay Harry. I understand." Louis frowned.

"No, I thought - I just thought you'd want it like this."

"Like what?"

"Me not taking advantage..."

"I ask you to kiss me, I want you to touch me. What makes you think you're taking advantage." Louis said.

"Lou-"

"No Harry. You think I'm so fucking fragile. I'm not. I'll gladly ask you to fuck me right here right now." Louis gave him a pointed look.

Harry laughed lightly. "Darling, think before you speak."

"What? I can't want you now? Whatever." Louis walked away from him and closer to the lighted trees.

Strong arms wrapped around his waist. And Harry pressed a fleeting kiss to Louis' cheek. "Babe. I'm just looking out for you."

"I don't need you to look out for me. I-" and Louis turned towards him. "Kiss me. Kiss me long and hard. Shove your hands down my pants or something. I'm not a child. And I know what I want."

And Harry just looked at him slightly shocked, and so Louis took it in his own hands. He leaned forward and crushed his lips hotly against Harry's.

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