Seokjin

I feel warm, feather like touches on my chest. They are soft and teasing, waking me up from my sleep. I groan and open my eyes a tad bit to adjust them to the faint lights in my bedroom. It is quiet and I can feel a sense of calm wash over me.

"Wake up, Jin."

It was her whisper in my ears which made me fully awake and hot all over again. My fucking dick starts getting hard again and I hear her soft chuckles. Soon after, I feel small kisses on my cheek, then my jaw and then my chin. Her face comes in my sight and I look into a pair of gorgeous mischievous eyes hovering above me.

I grab her waist and thread my fingers in her hair, pulling her flush against my body. There are sheets between us but I can feel her warmth seeping into mine anyway. I want to kiss her so badly, ravage those lips of hers, make her breathless and full of need but I think the better of it. Her lips are my door to losing control. I'm sure I won't be able to survive without them if I make them my addiction.

"What are doing, Joohyun?" I tighten my hands in her hair which makes her wince slightly. She smiles at me and then looks at my lips while licking her own. Suddenly my groin feels stiff and I'm pretty sure she feels it too. When she leans down to kiss me, I gently pull her away with my hand in her hair to stop her.

Sensing my reluctance to get on with it, she simply smirks and starts to grind on me.

Fuck.

"What the—" Her lips stop me from saying anything further and she starts kissing me fiercely. Her tongue slides in my mouth and I angle her neck to the side, giving me more leverage to deepen the kiss.

Fuck control. She's mine.

I push myself against her and she rocks her body on me while sucking on my lips. Her moans fill up the room and the last bit of self control I had salvaged for myself suddenly gets loose. I grab her waist and turn her over where her breasts are deliciously pressed against my chest. I'll never get over this feeling. Her softness colliding with my hardness. It's addicting.

I pull my lips away momentarily but she leans up and swiftly catches them in a heated smooch.

Damn. She's hungry.

I grind my hardness on her and her mouth opens in a drawn out moan. I trail my kisses to her neck and suck her like the sweet stuff she is. In one swift motion, I'm inside her warm pussy and pounding away like a madman on a mission.

This is it. This is fucking it!

"What the fuck, Joohyun? I'm getting late for work."

She moans sexily, her mouth open, neck and back arched in front of me, her breasts swaying deliciously in tandem with my thrusts. I'm gone for them.

Bending her legs to give me momentum, I lean over her and whisper, "Serves you right, babe. I won't stop till you won't say so."

I feel her tighten and I groan hot on her neck. Her nails dig into my back and I find myself gritting my teeth in pain. I grab her hands and pin them over her head. She widens her eyes in shock but doesn't stop moving her hips against mine. I kiss her ferociously to the point that I can taste blood. I can't figure out if it's hers or mine. I don't fucking care.

"Oh fuck!"

"Jin!"

"Fucking hell!"

"Ahh!"

That's it. She comes apart in a beautiful way. Her whole body quakes intensely and she falls slack on the bed, heaving and twitching relentlessly. I reach my high a few seconds after her and collapse on her, burying my face in her neck.

It was amazing as always. The next time, more exhilarating than the last. Like a drug wafting through my veins. It's the same with her. Every fucking time.

I roll over and lie down beside her. My limbs are heavy with exhaustion and my chest is heaving like hell. She's the only one who could do that. Fuck me till my bones hurt.

"You'll never go easy on me, won't you?" She softly says while looking at me. Her hair is framing her face beautifully and her lips are swollen red. She looks glorious as she always does after sex.

I scoff and reach for a cigarette from my bedside drawer. "Something tells me you never want me to go easy on you." I say and light my cigarette, lightly blowing the smoke on her face. 

She waves it away and laughs. "Bingo."

Moments pass like that and we lie in a comfortable silence. Me, smoking and her, observing.

After her relentless gazing, I ask her, "What?" She looked like she wanted to ask something but was thinking about asking it or not.

She smiles lightly. "I was just wondering to myself."

"About what?"

At this, she sits up and leans back on the headboard. "You don't seem to like kissing."

I narrow my eyes at her.

"I- I mean, you do kiss me and I wouldn't trade anything in the world for it. It's jus—" 

"It's just what?" I was annoyed now. Why did she have to touch that? I feel my heart beating fast for some reason.

"You have this look in your eyes when I kiss you. Like..you are confused..and angry." She looks down and murmurs, "It's not a pleasant thing."

I sigh hard and continue smoking, not leaving my eyes off her. Seeing that she won't get anything from me about this, disappointment fills her eyes. She frees herself from the sheets and proceeds to leave the bed when I grab her wrist and pull her back.

I smoke the last of the cigarette and crush it.

"Her name was Jess." I say.

Joohyun looks at me, her eyes devoid of expression now. I can sense her reluctance to show any emotion right now but I can catch the slight visible clench of her jaw then.

"She was my girlfriend. In college. My first and the only one, to be exact. We shared the same major and her uncle was my mother's relative or some shit."

I saw some flicker of emotion in Joohyun's eyes but they were gone in an instant. She was quiet and fully attentive in an uncompromising manner. It made me feel calm for some reason. My chest wasn't hurting that bad which mostly happens when I relive this particular memory.

"Well, we were pretty serious and I had plans of us getting engaged after we graduated. It was going well."

Just then, I felt a sharp twinge in my head. Flashes of that disgusting memory danced in front of my eyes. My hands clenched on their own and I swear I saw red.

That scene will forever be in my mind, a hard jab of truth which solidified my hatred for that one man I vowed to protect myself from.

Suddenly, I feel a weight on my lap, two hands cradling my head and my name being called in a whisper. I catch her waist and pull her close to me. I was breathing heavily. Fuck.

I lost myself again.

"Jin, what happened?" Her voice was calm and inquisitive. A good kind.

"I saw her with my father. She was giving him a blowjob in our living room and I happened to see them right after he came in her mouth."

It was pretty disgusting, to be honest. And judging from Joohyun's light gasp, she must have found it the same too. She started caressing my hair. It was her way of comforting me, I guess. But I'm way past that.

I hold her arms and free myself from her embrace. I look straight into her eyes and cup her cheek, caressing it my thumb. I brought her close and my lips were an inch away from hers.

"And that's not all, Joohyun. I was so shocked at the scene happening in front of me that I failed to see her coming towards me and I completely failed to make sense of everything when she started kissing me with that filthy mouth of hers."

I saw her eyes widen, not with shock but with fear when I harshly grabbed the hair at the back of her head and gave it a strong pull, making her gasp loudly. She didn't see it coming.

Joohyun's boldness was sexy but it came with a price. All this time, my fucking with her was purely animalistic and she always found herself exhausted by the end of it. It wasn't just passion from my side or the mere thought of possessing her. It was anger, of not being in control. Of the situation, of her. She completely challenged me by holding the reigns in her little hands. And I couldn't have that. This dynamic wasn't good for me but being away from her wasn't that appealing either.

My power play with her was the classic case of push and pull. I loathed being under her and loved being into her. Whatever we had, it was fantastic. It was beyond sexual now. It was powerful.

Just like now. Insatiable. Addictive. Fulfilling. Sated. My body was roaring with heat and her eyes were livid. I pulled her more close to me, barring a few fucking inches.

"So you get it now? I don't like it when I'm being kissed without my permission. Even if its you, darling."

Her words, whatever they were about to be said, got swallowed by my mouth on hers in a long, hard and passionate kiss. This one was the best of them all.

Fuck yeah.